TrainerGold7
Greenlighter
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- Mar 2, 2012
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I'm feeling extremely regretful and depressed about something I should be proud of. I've carried on an 11 month relationship woth amphetamines (adderall and vyvanse). My scripts were pulled from me but I had a bottle of adderall and vyvanse left and have been abusing them like 2 or 3 times a week.
Last night while I was coming down I got so mad and sick of the feeling of crashing for 24 hours all the time so i flushed all the remaining pills except 4 so I could have one last time with them. I'm at the end of my comedown but now I'm feeling so depressed that all but 4 pills are gone. I should be glad I won't have to worry hurting my body from binging or having to deal with comedowns but I'm really wishing I hadn't done that. I want more good times with amps and now theres no way for me to get more...
I don' knowt I just needed to get this out and hope someone can share some encouraging words or experiences. My addiction has made me think that I have nothing to look foward to now without these drugs. Ugh maybe its because I'm still coming down a little but I just feel like I made a horribe mistake even though it'll probably benefit me...maybe=/
Last night while I was coming down I got so mad and sick of the feeling of crashing for 24 hours all the time so i flushed all the remaining pills except 4 so I could have one last time with them. I'm at the end of my comedown but now I'm feeling so depressed that all but 4 pills are gone. I should be glad I won't have to worry hurting my body from binging or having to deal with comedowns but I'm really wishing I hadn't done that. I want more good times with amps and now theres no way for me to get more...
I don' knowt I just needed to get this out and hope someone can share some encouraging words or experiences. My addiction has made me think that I have nothing to look foward to now without these drugs. Ugh maybe its because I'm still coming down a little but I just feel like I made a horribe mistake even though it'll probably benefit me...maybe=/
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