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Addiction and drug of choice

Middleway

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I was utterly hooked on dexamphetmine for a couple of years.
I only ever took theraputic doses, usually around 3 tablets per day but it took over my life.
I have uncontroled depression and anxiety and while it was at peak leavels in my system I was symptom free. When it wore off I was much much worse.

I am about 4 years clean now but I still miss that shit. I feel like I am wondering around in a dark room and I know dexies are the light switch.

Amphetamines have a profound effect on me, a small dose changes me from being depressed and almost mute into gregerious and sociable. Other people don't get such a profound effect like this from such a small dose.

I crave any kind of stimulant yet they always ultimately make me worse.

After you have been addicted can you use something therapeutically?
I want my doctor to perscribe me dexamphetamine again but compounded with a mood stabiliser or a neurolepic of something so I don't get the euphoria but still get the increase in energy and mood.

I guess I am wondering.

What if sobriety for some people is a state of sickness and being under the influence is a state of wellness. Like a neurotransmitter deficit of something.

Do emotionally healthy people get addicted?
 
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Hey ALex, what is the NMDA Antagonist ssri and DRI that you are on? Self prescribed or from a doc?
 
Do emotionally healthy people get addicted?
If alcohol drinkers and tobacco smokers as considered addicts (which they are even if their drug is legal!), 80% of humans on this planet are addicts. Are 80% of humans emotionally unhealthy?

Generally speaking, drug-taking is a pleasure-seeking behaviour. Emotionally (and socially) healthy people can be pleasure-seekers too.

In fact I would regard teetotallers and fanatical abstainers as the people who are emotionally unsound.

Whether your addiction gets out of control depends on your will-power and on your ability to discipline yourself.
 
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I don't think this topic is well suited for ADD

After you have been addicted can you use something therapeutically?

there is no such thing as being "addicted"; the word is too vague to be meaningful

What if sobriety for some people is a state of sickness and being under the influence is a state of wellness.

re "sobriety": see above

Do emotionally healthy people get addicted?

re "emotionally healthy": see above
 
Psychostimulants are my favorite. I've only ever been able to get compounds based on amphetamine but given the opportunity I am really keen on phenyltropanes. Modafinil wasnt very impressive.
 
Nicotine, I'm sad to say. ^I keep trying to PM Smyth but he doesn't empty in postbox so it's full again!
 
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