Im 20 years old, and last august(2009) i moved from orlando to tampa for my 2nd year of community college (my girlfriend goes to the university down the street) and about 2 months after moving out here i was introduced to oxycotton. the first few months i was snorting them, but around december i started injecting them with an IV. not only do my parents not know about my drug addiction, but they also believe ive been in school this whole time. when i began using in october of last year, it started consuming my life. I dropped out of college, and I've been using every last cent that my parents send me for school on my drug habit. the stress and anxiety of lying to my parents has gotten so bad, that i cant even sleep at night for the fear of not wanting to have to face tomorrow. im so scared to tell my parents that their "perfect son" has not only NOT been in school for the last year, but that the reason is because i am addicted to oxycotton. basically im just asking for some advice on how to approach my parents with my problem. I want to tell them SO bad, im just scared of breaking their hearts. anyone with ANY advice, please share it with me. ive been living this lie for too long and cant bare not being clean any longer.
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addicted to oxy's and i dont know what to do. please help!
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Jabberwocky
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hey, i'll send this over to the dark side for you, they're a great bunch of support over there and will be able to help you out with some advice.
by the way the drug you're taking is oxycodone. it comes in a continuous release formula known as OxyContin.
by the way the drug you're taking is oxycodone. it comes in a continuous release formula known as OxyContin.
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Before I came out to my parents about my addiction, I spent a lot of time researching different suboxone and methadone clinics in my area as well as treatment facilites. For the practice of HR, I am in no way advocating these clinics as the only means of getting off opiates. I've known people who were able to detox themselves at home and then begin a outpatient treatment program. For others, like myself, I had done multiple detoxes by myself and finally decided I needed to try something else. Also, my habit was in the hundreds of mg a day. For those with small habits, it'd would be dumb to replace a small opiate habit with a full blown methadone or suboxone addiction. All this is to say is that methadone and suboxone maintenance programs should not be taken lightly!
So man, what I would do is to look into your options regarding the methadone and suboxone clinics. Get yourself checked in, start working the program for a week or two and then tell them. By doing this, you are showing to your parents that while yes, you did fuck up big time, you are at least trying to turn over a new leaf and really working to get better; instead of just running home and dumping this huge secret on them. I guarantee you, that your folks (while they may not be happy) will certainly take it a lot better if you can show them the work you've done on your own first to start getting better.
I know this is a scary time for you, but you are doing the right thing by deciding to get sober. We at BL are here for you, even when you might feel that no one else is. It'll get worse before it gets better but keep fighting and you'll find yourself in a better place.
just my .02
So man, what I would do is to look into your options regarding the methadone and suboxone clinics. Get yourself checked in, start working the program for a week or two and then tell them. By doing this, you are showing to your parents that while yes, you did fuck up big time, you are at least trying to turn over a new leaf and really working to get better; instead of just running home and dumping this huge secret on them. I guarantee you, that your folks (while they may not be happy) will certainly take it a lot better if you can show them the work you've done on your own first to start getting better.
I know this is a scary time for you, but you are doing the right thing by deciding to get sober. We at BL are here for you, even when you might feel that no one else is. It'll get worse before it gets better but keep fighting and you'll find yourself in a better place.
just my .02
thanks man, that really helps a lot. im up to about anywhere from 90-150mg a day, depending on how much money i have. how exactly do these clinics work? I have a couple of friends who take suboxone, but they are straight prescribed it by a doctor, they dont get it through treatment centers or clinics. ive tried to get clean on my own a few times, but it seems like every time i make it past the 1 or 2 week mark, i slip back into it. could you maybe give me a little detail on how exactly methadone clinics work? i would really appreciate it. and thanks again on the advice.
Do you have a supportive family?
What I would do is tell them, maybe not the full extent of whats happening but enough for them to help you get help. Yeah it sucks but I am sure they probably might think something is going on already. Being honest is ALWAYS a good positive thing, perpetuating lies hurts is something you dont want to do. Do your parents know that you party at all?
Tell your parents seek help and get clean would be my advice...
peace.
seedless
What I would do is tell them, maybe not the full extent of whats happening but enough for them to help you get help. Yeah it sucks but I am sure they probably might think something is going on already. Being honest is ALWAYS a good positive thing, perpetuating lies hurts is something you dont want to do. Do your parents know that you party at all?
Tell your parents seek help and get clean would be my advice...
peace.
seedless
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ya they know i party and shit.. the biggest thing is telling them that instead of going to school, ive pissed the ENTIRE year away doing nothing but waking up, getting high, and going back to sleep. it really sucks ive put myself into this position
Eventually they are going to find out, whether you tell them or they find out somehow. So your best option would be to get on some detox program. Suboxone has helped me detox off opiates and stay clean from heroin for around 6 months now, but just taking a pill isn't going to help you long term. So I'd also suggest getting some sort of therapy, whether it be AA meetings or an outpatient program. By doing this you are not only helping yourself, but when the time comes to shed the light on your addiction and how it affected your school to your parents, at least you will already have a battle plan set out to tell them to assure them that you are indeed trying and want to get clean. I doubt they would be as mad that way anyway. My dad found out I was using IV heroin daily for 2 years when he went through my drawer one day and found some old needles and empty bags. By then I was already dropped out of college, sold my car for drugs, sold most of my possessions for drugs, lost most of my friends, etc etc. The next day after that he got me on suboxone. I have had some slip ups along the way, but I have not gone back to heavy/daily use since then and when I did relapse it was for the day/one time then the next day I was back on suboxone again. I was using in the first place to self medicate my anxiety/depression issues and didn't get treatment for that until now so hopefully that'll help me. Maybe there was something in your life that made you become an addict as well. Until you fix that it'll be hard to get clean and stay clean!
If you really want to quit you can quit cold turkey with some otc stuff and/or prescribed meds. Only thing is do you really want to quit or are you just to stressed and want to tell your parents to get the burden off of your shoulders? You are going to have to do some real soul searching to see why you are really quitting.
This is a real make or break time in your life. U are obviously young so you have your whole life ahead of you. I think the best option is to tell your parents you have messed up and you are ready to change. After this there is a possibility that u can reenroll in school with their help. Just remember if you go back to doing it again after your regain their trust u may be truly on your own. When you are on your own like that drugs seem all the better to do everyday.
Good luck.
This is a real make or break time in your life. U are obviously young so you have your whole life ahead of you. I think the best option is to tell your parents you have messed up and you are ready to change. After this there is a possibility that u can reenroll in school with their help. Just remember if you go back to doing it again after your regain their trust u may be truly on your own. When you are on your own like that drugs seem all the better to do everyday.
Good luck.
