addicted to both suboxone and heroin??? possible

lizzra

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i know what everyone is gonna say... no. but, hear me out. sooooo, i fully convinced myself i was stopping so i call my dealer. just one more time right?

of course, i'm too afraid of getting precipitated WD's so, i take a 1/4 sub then get high, next day same thing, next day same thing, 3 months later and now on days i try to not use heroin even when i take a full sub i'm totally sick, throwing up, u know the drill. i've made it through 1 1/2 days with no heroin, that's it and i'm supposed to go to the dr. friday and i'm totally terrified that if i tell her that she'll switch me to methadone or some shit.

now, since i haven't found a vein in 8 years i smoke heroin, which is the only reason why i think i can keep doing both. yet i'm interested if this is all in my head.

SO, do i tell her i'm pretty sure i have a double habit or just tell her that i fucked up and she has to increase my dose.

at this point, i dunno how much longer i can do this. i have sum time off next week and really need to get my ass to sum meetings but it's the only time i think i'll have to make this transistion.

anyone?
 
If you tell your doc you're doing heroin in their eyes it MAY defeat the point of you being on suboxone. However I can't tell you what they will do about it.

A doctor might feel like if you're using both, that they are only enabling your heroin addiction further. And their first thought might be "next time lizzra comes back he/she will prob just keeping asking for a higher dose of suboxone". Although this may not be true on your part, its prob the first thing that will cross their mind.

And the fact that doctors think sub is suppose to stop heroin abuse (by precipatated wds) and that you have learned to avoid it, can make matters worse.

I honestly can't tell you for sure either way, although I'm positive other sub/heroin users can help you out. But as far as being addicted to both ABSOLUTELY. There is someone on this forum who uses sub/heroin/AND methadone back and forth and is prob addicted to all 3 of them.

One part of me says it would be unethical for them to stop prescribing it all together, but the policies are weird with sub... I'm not even sure what the policies are tbo. I just know doctors have a limit of how many patients they can have on sub, and if they have people on a waiting list who seem genuine about getting clean, they may consider replacing you with them.

Did the doctor ever explain what would happen if you started using dope? Like they would stop seeing you or something?
I really do not think they're gonna prescribe you more because sub is about maintaining/controlling an addiction, and telling them you're doing heroin in a doctors eyes could = that the sub is obviously not effective for you.

I'm gonna have to leave this for other people. But I think for YOURSELF, you should really try to stick to just the suboxone. However, if you were to get worse with the heroin, not having suboxone could further enable your heroin addiction. You really should consider WHAT it is that you genuinely want for yourself, and do what ever makes you HAPPY. Not fake happy, but true happy.
 
When I first was on Suboxone I was doing the same thing you are (except I was snorting powder heroin).

However over time I grew tired of using heroin and eventually gave it up, and was satisfied with using just Suboxone.

My suggestion to you is to taper off of heroin. Limit yourself to smoking less and less. Eventually, stop using heroin, and take a larger dose of Suboxone to try to hold yourself over. Within a few days you can taper down on Suboxone if you would like.
 
damn. i was hoping it was in me head. good points all round, i don't think she said she would stop if i started using but now she wants to start pee testing me, which is good bcuz now i have to come clean. i'm beginnnig to think i'm gonna have to quit my job in order to do this, but then i lose my apt. it's just no good having a dopesick person waiting on you. i think it may be bad for business :-)

i'll letcha know what happens if anything. a lot of the time i worry for nothing
 
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