This is a long report and my first. My goal is to present a visceral experience of novel drug use. This report is purely anecdotal.
awe-a feeling of reverential respect mixed with fear [and] or wonder
Pre-Trip Information
I’m currently finishing my undergraduate degree in microbiology. I’m motivated, well-mannered, and I really do have a genuine interest for the natural sciences and hope to pursue my PhD. I don’t need adderall to do school work; but as a curious individual and developing scientist, I decided I wanted to try it myself. For those who aren’t aware, there is a population of students at universities who choose to use and sometimes abuse adderall. I easily acquired a 30mg adderall XR from the steady flow of pills that trickle through my campus into the bellies of those who indulge.
Vitals - 21 years of age, male, 165 lbs, 5’11”, lean
Trip-Report
9:30 am – I wake up drunk as a skunk. I cook and devour a big omelet and oat cereal breakfast.
10:30 am – I’m still slightly drunk and hungover. I don’t drink often but a friend was visiting for the weekend and I’m not one to say no to a good time. I have my morning cup of coffee *~70mg caffeine* and play an excellent game of StarCraft2.
11:05 am – I split the little guy in half and pore roughly 5mg of the salt beads into a spoon full of strawberry yogurt. Why such a small dose? Google micro-dosing and educate yo’self. Down the hatch it goes, yum! (if my organic chemistry lab has taught me one thing, it’s how to eyeball milligram measurements
)
11:30 am– I’m out on a jog with my schools cross country ski club. It is COLD. 30 k/m wind gusts and a little below freezing. I did not dress prepared for the weather. Usually when I begin a run my muscles let me know that the first mile should be a warm up. Today however, I have absolutely no sensation of fatigue or tiredness. I can’t say for certain, but I think the amphetamine is kicking in.
12:30 pm – My goodness I am awfully sick! We sprinted hills and my stomach is upset. I have to urinate so badly and I’m freezing my ass off. I don’t think the adderall is causing my upset stomach; rather the beer from the night before, the huge breakfast, and strenuous exercise unencumbered by muscle fatigue. It only gets worst: I skipped my normal stretch routine and the cold is causing my muscles to cramp into stone. I let my teammates know to go on without me and I’ll walk the remaining two miles myself.
1:00 pm – I’m still cold, but feeling much better. Passed some other joggers and smiled and said good morning. I normally wouldn’t do that.
2:00 pm – I have another cup of coffee *~70mg caffeine*. Take a hot shower and clean my room. I didn’t take the entire 30mg pill because I’m usually sensitive to most substances and I tread lightly when I’m going outside body homeostasis. I decide to take 5mg more with the rest of the yogurt from this morning. I’m well aware that taking it this late in the day may translate into a late night. Prior research has told me that lowering the pH may have poteniating effects. For this reason and the fact my stomach is upset I decide to take tums. *two tums taken*
3:00 pm – Biking to the library. I feel very pleasant. Not stimulated by any means, but very easy to think. I begin to think about my friends and decide to stop at ones house. I talk to him for 10 minutes and express some concern that I felt he was mistreated by another one of our friends. I let him know that he is an important person to me and I value our friendship. I feel quite empathetic and happy to be alive. I want to make a note that I would normally not have opened up to him in such a spontaneous way; that may be the adderall’s influence. I do however have moments during the days of spontaneous happiness; I would not attribute that to the adderall.
4:45pm – I’ve been at the library for two hours. Stomach is still slightly aching. I am normally very productive. Today I am not. I am feeling distinct effects from the adderall. Mild stimulation and rising euphoria. I’m finding it hard to concentrate and this has me quite perplexed. Adderall is suppose to help me do school work; but it’s working against me! I think the heavy drinking from last night is responsible. The past hour I have chatted with friends via phone and social networking. This is a profound change in my behavior. I like my friends, and I’m a social guy… but normally I don’t use my phone or social networking like this.
At this precise moment it is 4:51pm. The past half hour I have been writing this report. I have just had a remarkable realization. I have slipped into complete focus. I haven’t had a drink of water in over an hour. My water nalgene has been sitting in my backpack wondering why I’ve neglected it. My goodness I am stimulated and flirting with genuine euphoria. I’m enjoying myself beyond belief writing this report. Normally I don’t like to write and I’d prefer doing school work.
6:00pm – Still haven’t been able to get in the groove of studying. I bought a sub sandwich and literally talked to everyone I saw on the way over. I don’t use the word ‘literal’ often: I talked to everyone. The sub shop was empty and the workers looked exceptionally bored. Was my behavior unusual to them? I think yes. Can you imagine what it’s like talking to a bored person when you yourself are slathered in social lubricant? The abuse potential for this drug is obvious. I can’t imagine how someone would rationalize the use of this amphetamine day after day. If you have an addictive personality, tread lightly. **I’m in awe - fear**
7:30pm – Take one glance at this report and you’ll know the author was on an amphetamine. There is an advantage to being at the library late on a Saturday night. The individuals who labor in front of the books at such an ungodly hour are highly motivated and intelligent. I decided since I can’t seem to focus on school work why not introduce myself to some of my classmates? I met a pre-med student, made a few people smile through small talk, and asked a girl out to lunch. Adderall is an efficient tool to network yourself. I don't have social anxiety, and I defintely wouldn't describe myself as soft-spoken.. but I would never go out of my way to talk to people in the way I did just now. **I’m in awe - wonder**
--I’ve got a coffee date with a cute girl at two’o’clock tomorrow!! Never have I cold approached a girl like that. Never.
8:00pm-2:00am – *120mg caffeine* I finally bite down into my school work and chewed for a half dozen hours. It was quite delightful. Yes I had fun doing it.
Positive Side Effects:
- Quite noticeable enhancement of mental function (adderall’s most valuable asset in my opinion). I can go into this more if you wish to hear the nit and grit details
- Social Lubrication
- Euphoria
Negative Side Effects:
- Artificial Euphoria. It’s the kind that tastes like sugar-coated corn-cereal fortified with all your essential vitamins and minerals. Good, but not great.
- I pissed like a race horse twice an hour.
- Increase urinary leakage. This needs no further explanation.
- I made silly punctuation and spelling errors.
- Slightly elevated heart rate.
- I’m constipated. Yeah so there’s that.
- Legs have “stim ache”
- Finger shake
Neutral Side Effects
- No appetite
- Time flies
- Increase body temperature
I don’t need Adderall to motivate me to do schoolwork. Science is interesting, challenging and engages me. I prefer caffeine. A few hundred milligrams of caffeine will get me through a 10 hour day of metabolic pathway learning. Caffeine is cheaper, safer, and legal to purchase (w/o prescription that is lol). Not to mention it doesn’t have this awful comedown… yes what goes up (and UP I was!) must come down. Newtonian physics is a bitch.
Post-Trip Reflection
What could I have done differently? I didn’t control the variables well: I was hung-over well into the day and it was challenging to discern the effects of the hangover versus the Adderall. What caused my stomach ache? Why did I have such a challenge focusing on school work? My guess is the hangover. I’m familiar enough with my own body and its reaction to the nasty effects of ethanol metabolites and dehydration. I will be using the remaining 20mg earlier in the day and sober. Or alternatively I could take it before going out to the bars. I will let the bluelight community decide and write the subsequent report.
I’d enjoy feedback! AND LET’S SEE VOTES!
awe-a feeling of reverential respect mixed with fear [and] or wonder
Pre-Trip Information
I’m currently finishing my undergraduate degree in microbiology. I’m motivated, well-mannered, and I really do have a genuine interest for the natural sciences and hope to pursue my PhD. I don’t need adderall to do school work; but as a curious individual and developing scientist, I decided I wanted to try it myself. For those who aren’t aware, there is a population of students at universities who choose to use and sometimes abuse adderall. I easily acquired a 30mg adderall XR from the steady flow of pills that trickle through my campus into the bellies of those who indulge.
Vitals - 21 years of age, male, 165 lbs, 5’11”, lean
Trip-Report
9:30 am – I wake up drunk as a skunk. I cook and devour a big omelet and oat cereal breakfast.
10:30 am – I’m still slightly drunk and hungover. I don’t drink often but a friend was visiting for the weekend and I’m not one to say no to a good time. I have my morning cup of coffee *~70mg caffeine* and play an excellent game of StarCraft2.
11:05 am – I split the little guy in half and pore roughly 5mg of the salt beads into a spoon full of strawberry yogurt. Why such a small dose? Google micro-dosing and educate yo’self. Down the hatch it goes, yum! (if my organic chemistry lab has taught me one thing, it’s how to eyeball milligram measurements
)11:30 am– I’m out on a jog with my schools cross country ski club. It is COLD. 30 k/m wind gusts and a little below freezing. I did not dress prepared for the weather. Usually when I begin a run my muscles let me know that the first mile should be a warm up. Today however, I have absolutely no sensation of fatigue or tiredness. I can’t say for certain, but I think the amphetamine is kicking in.
12:30 pm – My goodness I am awfully sick! We sprinted hills and my stomach is upset. I have to urinate so badly and I’m freezing my ass off. I don’t think the adderall is causing my upset stomach; rather the beer from the night before, the huge breakfast, and strenuous exercise unencumbered by muscle fatigue. It only gets worst: I skipped my normal stretch routine and the cold is causing my muscles to cramp into stone. I let my teammates know to go on without me and I’ll walk the remaining two miles myself.
1:00 pm – I’m still cold, but feeling much better. Passed some other joggers and smiled and said good morning. I normally wouldn’t do that.
2:00 pm – I have another cup of coffee *~70mg caffeine*. Take a hot shower and clean my room. I didn’t take the entire 30mg pill because I’m usually sensitive to most substances and I tread lightly when I’m going outside body homeostasis. I decide to take 5mg more with the rest of the yogurt from this morning. I’m well aware that taking it this late in the day may translate into a late night. Prior research has told me that lowering the pH may have poteniating effects. For this reason and the fact my stomach is upset I decide to take tums. *two tums taken*
3:00 pm – Biking to the library. I feel very pleasant. Not stimulated by any means, but very easy to think. I begin to think about my friends and decide to stop at ones house. I talk to him for 10 minutes and express some concern that I felt he was mistreated by another one of our friends. I let him know that he is an important person to me and I value our friendship. I feel quite empathetic and happy to be alive. I want to make a note that I would normally not have opened up to him in such a spontaneous way; that may be the adderall’s influence. I do however have moments during the days of spontaneous happiness; I would not attribute that to the adderall.
4:45pm – I’ve been at the library for two hours. Stomach is still slightly aching. I am normally very productive. Today I am not. I am feeling distinct effects from the adderall. Mild stimulation and rising euphoria. I’m finding it hard to concentrate and this has me quite perplexed. Adderall is suppose to help me do school work; but it’s working against me! I think the heavy drinking from last night is responsible. The past hour I have chatted with friends via phone and social networking. This is a profound change in my behavior. I like my friends, and I’m a social guy… but normally I don’t use my phone or social networking like this.
At this precise moment it is 4:51pm. The past half hour I have been writing this report. I have just had a remarkable realization. I have slipped into complete focus. I haven’t had a drink of water in over an hour. My water nalgene has been sitting in my backpack wondering why I’ve neglected it. My goodness I am stimulated and flirting with genuine euphoria. I’m enjoying myself beyond belief writing this report. Normally I don’t like to write and I’d prefer doing school work.
6:00pm – Still haven’t been able to get in the groove of studying. I bought a sub sandwich and literally talked to everyone I saw on the way over. I don’t use the word ‘literal’ often: I talked to everyone. The sub shop was empty and the workers looked exceptionally bored. Was my behavior unusual to them? I think yes. Can you imagine what it’s like talking to a bored person when you yourself are slathered in social lubricant? The abuse potential for this drug is obvious. I can’t imagine how someone would rationalize the use of this amphetamine day after day. If you have an addictive personality, tread lightly. **I’m in awe - fear**
7:30pm – Take one glance at this report and you’ll know the author was on an amphetamine. There is an advantage to being at the library late on a Saturday night. The individuals who labor in front of the books at such an ungodly hour are highly motivated and intelligent. I decided since I can’t seem to focus on school work why not introduce myself to some of my classmates? I met a pre-med student, made a few people smile through small talk, and asked a girl out to lunch. Adderall is an efficient tool to network yourself. I don't have social anxiety, and I defintely wouldn't describe myself as soft-spoken.. but I would never go out of my way to talk to people in the way I did just now. **I’m in awe - wonder**
--I’ve got a coffee date with a cute girl at two’o’clock tomorrow!! Never have I cold approached a girl like that. Never.
8:00pm-2:00am – *120mg caffeine* I finally bite down into my school work and chewed for a half dozen hours. It was quite delightful. Yes I had fun doing it.
Positive Side Effects:
- Quite noticeable enhancement of mental function (adderall’s most valuable asset in my opinion). I can go into this more if you wish to hear the nit and grit details
- Social Lubrication
- Euphoria
Negative Side Effects:
- Artificial Euphoria. It’s the kind that tastes like sugar-coated corn-cereal fortified with all your essential vitamins and minerals. Good, but not great.
- I pissed like a race horse twice an hour.
- Increase urinary leakage. This needs no further explanation.
- I made silly punctuation and spelling errors.
- Slightly elevated heart rate.
- I’m constipated. Yeah so there’s that.
- Legs have “stim ache”
- Finger shake
Neutral Side Effects
- No appetite
- Time flies
- Increase body temperature
I don’t need Adderall to motivate me to do schoolwork. Science is interesting, challenging and engages me. I prefer caffeine. A few hundred milligrams of caffeine will get me through a 10 hour day of metabolic pathway learning. Caffeine is cheaper, safer, and legal to purchase (w/o prescription that is lol). Not to mention it doesn’t have this awful comedown… yes what goes up (and UP I was!) must come down. Newtonian physics is a bitch.
Post-Trip Reflection
What could I have done differently? I didn’t control the variables well: I was hung-over well into the day and it was challenging to discern the effects of the hangover versus the Adderall. What caused my stomach ache? Why did I have such a challenge focusing on school work? My guess is the hangover. I’m familiar enough with my own body and its reaction to the nasty effects of ethanol metabolites and dehydration. I will be using the remaining 20mg earlier in the day and sober. Or alternatively I could take it before going out to the bars. I will let the bluelight community decide and write the subsequent report.
I’d enjoy feedback! AND LET’S SEE VOTES!
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