Now to start this thread off, i am fairly young but do not interpret that as a sign of immaturity or foolishness.
I am usually very cautious as to Ingesting Substances. Ive had experimented with many, and have learned from the good bad. But briefly put, We all fuck up sometimes.
I'm making this thread to share an experience and gain insight and advice from you fellow bluelighters.
To start off i have had only two experiences with adderall prior to the incident.
First, was an insuffulation of 20mg adderall a few weeks back, and second was 30mg with same ROA two days before my Acute "Overdose"
I say "Overdose" in quotation, because that can mean plenty of things, and i am clearly still alive typing this.
Yesterday was my first day back to High school from winter break, my intention were to have a pleasant comeback with social euphoria.
I woke up that morning at around 6:30, ate a bowl of cereal, a half teaspoon of baking soda, and a multivitamin. After all was said ingested,
at around 6:50,I sublingually administered myself 45mg of adderall. (All adderall i am talking about in this experience are 30mg IR's)
1 hour later at around 8 following a brief break period of around 20 minutes, I step outside and feed my nasty cigarette habbit,
During that period i was feeling comfortable, but i wanted to have a fairly strong experience, so i chew up the remaining 15mg.
2 hours later at around 10:20 Give or take, i ask to use the restroom during my fitness class and take my last 30mg pill sublingually, letting it dissolve as i return back.
Thinking back, i dont know why i took that 30mg pill, i already ingested 60mg, which is twice the amount ive ever done although spread out between a couple hours.
I believe because the only time ive ever done adderal prior to this experience have been intranasally, which may have led me to underestimate the power. Tad foolish(a total of 90mg administered)
Now here is were things start getting weird. During this period our class was square dancing, as a light return to the semester. I remember thinking to myself "Why the fuck are we doing this, this is so fucking unnecessary. nothing to crazy. I was legitimately angered but kept my feeligns to myself as usual.
english class was next. the adderall was kicking in and it was kicking in hard.
The Verry werid thing about this high/trip/experience was that i didn't feel any stimulation. i felt very out of it. Things were hazy. I felt depressed, sad. As if Apart of me was missing but i couldnt put a finger on what it was. Anxiety is a good way to put it. But i wasnt reflective of it, as in "i kept my cool". But i dont even know if that was the case.
the rest of the day went on like that
During the few classes i have left, i experienced Heart Angina, A resting Bpm of around 115-135. there were periods in my head were i felt verry uneasy thinking to myself "Why do i feel this way" I was down. Very down. i would get a moment of happiness, then immediate sadness and confusion. i could not concentrate although i got my tasks done. I felt dissociated. i could not communicate with anyone who i was not already close to or good friends. Something was definitely off.
After school was over i went to a friends house and remember helping another one of my friends who was there with a chemistry problem. it took me around 25 minutes to accomplish.
normally i would have gotten in done in about 3 but i didn't want to give up, for i was sad for myself. and didnt want to be overruled by a drug.
I had a headache that day and chest pains/ left arm and back pain, and palpitations.
Today, My chest is still hurting, i feel better tho. my head in a bit sensitive but doesn't hurt that bad. my BPM is around 75 but my chest still hurts and i feel like my heart is sore.
one big long case of Angina.
I believe this experience could've been alot worse if i wasn't relatively fit person with no heart and anxiety problems.
What are your insights bluelighters. any advice for my chest pains. and one of my main questions is. Why did i feel no stimulation. is that what overstimulation feels like?
Cheers
I am usually very cautious as to Ingesting Substances. Ive had experimented with many, and have learned from the good bad. But briefly put, We all fuck up sometimes.
I'm making this thread to share an experience and gain insight and advice from you fellow bluelighters.
To start off i have had only two experiences with adderall prior to the incident.
First, was an insuffulation of 20mg adderall a few weeks back, and second was 30mg with same ROA two days before my Acute "Overdose"
I say "Overdose" in quotation, because that can mean plenty of things, and i am clearly still alive typing this.
Yesterday was my first day back to High school from winter break, my intention were to have a pleasant comeback with social euphoria.
I woke up that morning at around 6:30, ate a bowl of cereal, a half teaspoon of baking soda, and a multivitamin. After all was said ingested,
at around 6:50,I sublingually administered myself 45mg of adderall. (All adderall i am talking about in this experience are 30mg IR's)
1 hour later at around 8 following a brief break period of around 20 minutes, I step outside and feed my nasty cigarette habbit,
During that period i was feeling comfortable, but i wanted to have a fairly strong experience, so i chew up the remaining 15mg.
2 hours later at around 10:20 Give or take, i ask to use the restroom during my fitness class and take my last 30mg pill sublingually, letting it dissolve as i return back.
Thinking back, i dont know why i took that 30mg pill, i already ingested 60mg, which is twice the amount ive ever done although spread out between a couple hours.
I believe because the only time ive ever done adderal prior to this experience have been intranasally, which may have led me to underestimate the power. Tad foolish(a total of 90mg administered)
Now here is were things start getting weird. During this period our class was square dancing, as a light return to the semester. I remember thinking to myself "Why the fuck are we doing this, this is so fucking unnecessary. nothing to crazy. I was legitimately angered but kept my feeligns to myself as usual.
english class was next. the adderall was kicking in and it was kicking in hard.
The Verry werid thing about this high/trip/experience was that i didn't feel any stimulation. i felt very out of it. Things were hazy. I felt depressed, sad. As if Apart of me was missing but i couldnt put a finger on what it was. Anxiety is a good way to put it. But i wasnt reflective of it, as in "i kept my cool". But i dont even know if that was the case.
the rest of the day went on like that
During the few classes i have left, i experienced Heart Angina, A resting Bpm of around 115-135. there were periods in my head were i felt verry uneasy thinking to myself "Why do i feel this way" I was down. Very down. i would get a moment of happiness, then immediate sadness and confusion. i could not concentrate although i got my tasks done. I felt dissociated. i could not communicate with anyone who i was not already close to or good friends. Something was definitely off.
After school was over i went to a friends house and remember helping another one of my friends who was there with a chemistry problem. it took me around 25 minutes to accomplish.
normally i would have gotten in done in about 3 but i didn't want to give up, for i was sad for myself. and didnt want to be overruled by a drug.
I had a headache that day and chest pains/ left arm and back pain, and palpitations.
Today, My chest is still hurting, i feel better tho. my head in a bit sensitive but doesn't hurt that bad. my BPM is around 75 but my chest still hurts and i feel like my heart is sore.
one big long case of Angina.
I believe this experience could've been alot worse if i wasn't relatively fit person with no heart and anxiety problems.
What are your insights bluelighters. any advice for my chest pains. and one of my main questions is. Why did i feel no stimulation. is that what overstimulation feels like?
Cheers
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