silence
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Dec 20, 1999
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Tears are endlessly cascading down the contours of her face.Yet,I cannot weap. Her eyes pierce me and I can only stand frozen. Every tear adds another gash to my screaming wounded heart. Screams silenced by the shattering of my soul. She views my pain as coldness and a strength I have long since lost while turning to walk away. Still,I am frozen. Desperately trying to release my pain. Why cant she hear my Screams? she enters her car and starts to drive away. Away from my love. Away from my touch.Away from my endless need. She drove away with her clothes, her tears, and my soul. At that moment I knew I could never be the same. I just witnessed the death of my heart and couldnt do anything to stop it.
What feels like years later has actually only been months. How much longer will I yearn to feel her look at me? When will the sun be as bright as everyone describes it? When will the drab and cold life I live be filled with vibrant color and warmth again? More than likely, It will happen when she releases my soul and finally comes to accept it's death.
Music that held no emotional Interest to me before, Now suddenly sounds like the song God must have written while he watched his only son die before his loving eyes. Words always seem to fall short of capturing your true pain and your Heart Aches that much more because of it.
Someday I hope that all changes, but right now, My misery is all that I have left. If I could accurately explain it, What would I feel then? Maybe by not having the words, we can continue to let ourselves suffer. If I could explain it, maybe.. just maybe I could fix it. Today is not the day I see that happening. Instead, today will just be another horrible description of a life without beauty. Without love. Without you..
What feels like years later has actually only been months. How much longer will I yearn to feel her look at me? When will the sun be as bright as everyone describes it? When will the drab and cold life I live be filled with vibrant color and warmth again? More than likely, It will happen when she releases my soul and finally comes to accept it's death.
Music that held no emotional Interest to me before, Now suddenly sounds like the song God must have written while he watched his only son die before his loving eyes. Words always seem to fall short of capturing your true pain and your Heart Aches that much more because of it.
Someday I hope that all changes, but right now, My misery is all that I have left. If I could accurately explain it, What would I feel then? Maybe by not having the words, we can continue to let ourselves suffer. If I could explain it, maybe.. just maybe I could fix it. Today is not the day I see that happening. Instead, today will just be another horrible description of a life without beauty. Without love. Without you..
