I rolled my first and only time around 1 year and half ago. I wanted to try MDMA since a long time, and I only took 1 pill. I am a really responsible person, who has only done drugs few times, just for experience. I've done mushrooms once before, and it was a great experience, and smoked weed once a month or so, same for alcohol.
The ectasy experience was overwhelming in terms of sensory effects, I was basically overwhelmed in my vision and hearing, and don't remember much of the first 3 hours of rolling. It didn't even feel like MDMA as it is described, but felt more like a psychedelic trip. It had the empathy part though, especially when I exited the sensory overwhelm phase, so it must have contained MDMA. I also mixed some alcohol in it, like half a pint or something. During the morning had a terrible headache, but was to be expected. The friend who gave me the pill said he's been fine after a couple of days of numbness, and I assume the other people also did fine. The pill was from a trusted dealer and it was in Netherlands, where pills are generally good.
But for me that has been the beginning of hell. I've had extreme derealisation, brain fog, extreme chronic fatigue, visual snow, afterimages, eye floaters, strong tingling of hands and stiffness of fingers, strange feelings when falling asleep (feeling like limbs are moving and something is pushing me from inside the bed, but then it's nothing, just an hallucination). The chronic fatigue and brain fog are the worst parts, as they render me useless as an individual, especially for studying/working.
I've seen a neurologist and he's really experienced, he's diagnosed chronic migraines with aura but without headaches. The fact is that even before the experience, my life wasn't normal, as I used to sleep 10/12 hours a day, couldn't get out of bed easily and my productivity was really low because of this, both at uni or other activities. I thought that I was just lazy and didn't think of it as an issue, but in fact there was something going on that I didn't know of, chronic daily migraines. In fact, I had some other issues like chronic IBS that I couldn't really explain, even by experimenting my diet. Chronic IBS is also an effect of chronic migraines.
I've had these symptoms daily since a year and a half, everyday with persistent aura symptoms, which means I have migraines everyday, or I am in a constant migraine state. Chronic fatigues is horrible and I can't even go to the gym because of it, I've barely got the necessary energies to function. Things have improved since I've been prescribed tryciclic antidepressants to prevent the migraines, derealisation is gone, but then I had fucked up brain fog side effects from this medication, and had to bring it very low. Now I am taking a low dose of that and combining with a titrating dose of lamictal, which will reach prescribed dosages in a month and a half. It's been a really long journey to recovery, and I hope I will get out of it. In theory, if medications do what they're supposed to do, I should get out of this coming back fully 100%.
Think about it before trying this drug, it's literally a russian roulette, and by no means understimate it and think that it doesn't cause any brain damage. Only after the experience I realised it's destroying effects on the serotonin system, the new migraine aura symptoms that have been introduced since then will probably not go away in years unless I fix the problem through medications.
Have you heard stories like mine, just one/two pills frying brains? And my experience might be of help to people who are going through the same ordeal but do not know what they have, in fact I think only few neurologists would have diagnosed this as it is. My neurologist is really experienced and knowledgeful. This could be a CHRONIC MIGRAINE DISORDER.
TLDR: 1.5 years ago I took 1 ectasy pill, which was supposedly good, and fried my brain. Derealisation, brain fog, chronic fatigue, visual issues, tingling of hands, etc. since then.
Really experienced neurologist has diagnosed a chronic migraine without headache disorder, which was existing before the x experience. This could be what people in my same position have, but have been misdiagnosed by their doctors.
The ectasy experience was overwhelming in terms of sensory effects, I was basically overwhelmed in my vision and hearing, and don't remember much of the first 3 hours of rolling. It didn't even feel like MDMA as it is described, but felt more like a psychedelic trip. It had the empathy part though, especially when I exited the sensory overwhelm phase, so it must have contained MDMA. I also mixed some alcohol in it, like half a pint or something. During the morning had a terrible headache, but was to be expected. The friend who gave me the pill said he's been fine after a couple of days of numbness, and I assume the other people also did fine. The pill was from a trusted dealer and it was in Netherlands, where pills are generally good.
But for me that has been the beginning of hell. I've had extreme derealisation, brain fog, extreme chronic fatigue, visual snow, afterimages, eye floaters, strong tingling of hands and stiffness of fingers, strange feelings when falling asleep (feeling like limbs are moving and something is pushing me from inside the bed, but then it's nothing, just an hallucination). The chronic fatigue and brain fog are the worst parts, as they render me useless as an individual, especially for studying/working.
I've seen a neurologist and he's really experienced, he's diagnosed chronic migraines with aura but without headaches. The fact is that even before the experience, my life wasn't normal, as I used to sleep 10/12 hours a day, couldn't get out of bed easily and my productivity was really low because of this, both at uni or other activities. I thought that I was just lazy and didn't think of it as an issue, but in fact there was something going on that I didn't know of, chronic daily migraines. In fact, I had some other issues like chronic IBS that I couldn't really explain, even by experimenting my diet. Chronic IBS is also an effect of chronic migraines.
I've had these symptoms daily since a year and a half, everyday with persistent aura symptoms, which means I have migraines everyday, or I am in a constant migraine state. Chronic fatigues is horrible and I can't even go to the gym because of it, I've barely got the necessary energies to function. Things have improved since I've been prescribed tryciclic antidepressants to prevent the migraines, derealisation is gone, but then I had fucked up brain fog side effects from this medication, and had to bring it very low. Now I am taking a low dose of that and combining with a titrating dose of lamictal, which will reach prescribed dosages in a month and a half. It's been a really long journey to recovery, and I hope I will get out of it. In theory, if medications do what they're supposed to do, I should get out of this coming back fully 100%.
Think about it before trying this drug, it's literally a russian roulette, and by no means understimate it and think that it doesn't cause any brain damage. Only after the experience I realised it's destroying effects on the serotonin system, the new migraine aura symptoms that have been introduced since then will probably not go away in years unless I fix the problem through medications.
Have you heard stories like mine, just one/two pills frying brains? And my experience might be of help to people who are going through the same ordeal but do not know what they have, in fact I think only few neurologists would have diagnosed this as it is. My neurologist is really experienced and knowledgeful. This could be a CHRONIC MIGRAINE DISORDER.
TLDR: 1.5 years ago I took 1 ectasy pill, which was supposedly good, and fried my brain. Derealisation, brain fog, chronic fatigue, visual issues, tingling of hands, etc. since then.
Really experienced neurologist has diagnosed a chronic migraine without headache disorder, which was existing before the x experience. This could be what people in my same position have, but have been misdiagnosed by their doctors.
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