ipmccauley
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- May 31, 2017
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Oh man i am in the middle of the battle......
I was on Methadone 50mg, maxed out at 80 for over 10 years and recently weened off then went to a detox house and im clean 13 days now? Every minute is a battle. I also was on Klonipin 2 at night for sleep as well as inhaler etc. Im also a long time smoker of cigs/herb here in Oregon. Im working so hard to stay clean and its like an angry mole is in my stomach. My hands feet and legs are cold, then hot, cant concentrate, can barely get up to do anything. Ive had Osteiod Osteomas twice in my right leg which is how I started with the meds to begin with. I never was about the high really I just wanted to feel normal and be able to do normal things like skiing and hiking etc. I just dont think that is in the cards for me though. Im sleep deprived, sweating cols sweats, vomiting and the lovely Diarrhea. Oh God I made it 6 months cold turkey around 2 years ago and then some how forgot how shitty this withdrawl is and now and saying NO MORE. The hardest has been to quit all 3 at the same time. Im completely off the meds but the herb seems to help with sleep and general bad feeling but its not legal in every state i know. Other than that I was told to just drink water and take some triptophane/melatonin for sleep. Its been almost two days now without sleep but I want my life back.
My dr tried to get me into a pain management clinic but of course they are all full and 3 recently left the city@?!?!
I want to go to outpatient and AA but I feel so shotty, and the dhia does not help anything.
Anyways, stay the frack away from any opiod or benzo, ruined my life.
I am barely holding on but trying to stay positive.
Oh, sleep sounds so good right now....
Its up to me though to make this happen. Any other insights anyone can think of?
Thanks
I was on Methadone 50mg, maxed out at 80 for over 10 years and recently weened off then went to a detox house and im clean 13 days now? Every minute is a battle. I also was on Klonipin 2 at night for sleep as well as inhaler etc. Im also a long time smoker of cigs/herb here in Oregon. Im working so hard to stay clean and its like an angry mole is in my stomach. My hands feet and legs are cold, then hot, cant concentrate, can barely get up to do anything. Ive had Osteiod Osteomas twice in my right leg which is how I started with the meds to begin with. I never was about the high really I just wanted to feel normal and be able to do normal things like skiing and hiking etc. I just dont think that is in the cards for me though. Im sleep deprived, sweating cols sweats, vomiting and the lovely Diarrhea. Oh God I made it 6 months cold turkey around 2 years ago and then some how forgot how shitty this withdrawl is and now and saying NO MORE. The hardest has been to quit all 3 at the same time. Im completely off the meds but the herb seems to help with sleep and general bad feeling but its not legal in every state i know. Other than that I was told to just drink water and take some triptophane/melatonin for sleep. Its been almost two days now without sleep but I want my life back.
My dr tried to get me into a pain management clinic but of course they are all full and 3 recently left the city@?!?!
I want to go to outpatient and AA but I feel so shotty, and the dhia does not help anything.
Anyways, stay the frack away from any opiod or benzo, ruined my life.
I am barely holding on but trying to stay positive.
Oh, sleep sounds so good right now....
Its up to me though to make this happen. Any other insights anyone can think of?
Thanks
