A Neurotic Dream

[sparkle_jez]

Cut myself enough,
Then maybe i'll be released,
From this ugly body,
From this ugly skin

Destroy myself enough,
Then maybe I could see,
What I really am,
What I could really be

Kill myself enough,
Then maybe i could live,
Breathe some real life,
Breathe some other in?



(note: This is getting ridiculous!! My 4th poem in about 3 days!! lol... Feel free to throw eggs at me!!
And i'm really sorry they are really negative, but i'm sorry, I just don't do 'happy' poetry!! )

 

[cherub]

First of all.........

I am like you, it is hard for me to write about happiness, maybe cause i am too busy about being happy to actually sit down and truly express my feelings in the way i can explain them is difficult.
Pain is hard but sometimes easier to express.


this is a very sad piece.

Destroy myself enough,
Then maybe I could see,
What I really am,
What I could really be

that part just gets me i have felt so many times that way,, not sure if it is the best way but from pain we grow.

 

[Rollingrrl]

once again girlie, we are writing from the same brain it seems! You are however a much better poet then I'll ever be. but that's cool cause the enjoyment I have reading my own thoughts put down so eloquently on paper, far surpasses my own need for writing glory! you are amazing! and don't let anyone ever tell you differently!

~Shelly~

*does exotic belly dance*

 

[sparkle_jez]

^^ Why does everyone keep thinking i'm a girl?? lmao....Do I really come across that way??? lol

Thanks for the compliments!!
I honestly thought no one would or could relate to this as it's been drifting further down without anyone reading it!!
Glad someone finally picked up on the self-destructive theme though, and i'm glad you understand it.
A lot of people find cutting and self-destructive behaviour either disgusting/grotesque, or they just try to hide from it and ignore it...
and cherub, you are right....hurting and destroying yourself isn't a positive solution at all to anything really, it's a very negative way of dealing with stuff but almost a way of life for some people. It's just the way some people are unfortunately.

And Shelly, I am a fan of your writing too! So keep it coming!