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Greenlighter
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Yesterday I received my order for 1 oz. dried fly agaric cap, Grade B. I was very excited to see how the experience would play out and had a night with no obligations, so was anticipating a positive "trip."
If any of you remember a thread in PD a couple days ago about the psychedelic potential of this mushroom in which the OP sort of doubted such potential...yeah that was me, and let me tell you, I have quickly been convinced otherwise.
Unfortunately I had no scale, nor did I have cash with which to purchase one, so dosing was very approximate. I have no doubt this influenced the intensity of my trip, as at first I ate too little and had no effect. After about 3hr. of munching nasty shrooms with no discernible effects, I said fuck it and ate the rest. So the only dosage info I can provide is that I ate the entire ounce in about 3 and a half hours.
about two hours after finishing them I began to salivate excessively and my coordination began to decline. The initial stage of intoxication much resembled a heavy cannabis "trip" from my low-tolerance days, at least in the mental effects and "headspace."
another half hour passed and I was lying on the couch in the dark watching my friend play video games. This is when the real trip began. I felt a strong dissociative effect and extreme synesthesia. As I watched the screen, I suddenly became aware of each individual piece of sensory input for each modality, except it was more experienced as a whole than it was perceived by specific senses. Not only this, but I felt as if I were hearing things BEFORE they happened, and the sounds as others heard them were echoes, and my consciousness became an infinite fractalized loop of echoes. Key word "loop."
at the height of this awesome confusion, every single sensory detail gave me deja vu, and I would try to speak but find that I was "ahead of myself". It may have been simply the awareness of passing time and its baffling nature that caused this feeling. Regardless it became horrifying. I began to think of my life and how I had always been a "fuck up" and how my everyone close tried to help/change me (not sure which) and how I had never listened and never learned, truly my whole life I had been "behind."
I figured that the pain of my present state, knowing things before they occur, feeling stuck in a loop waiting for the present to catch up, is how my loved ones must have felt my entire life as I refused to learn from my mistakes. I felt an indescribable weight of guilt upon me. I had caused everyones life to be a "bad trip."
Then it was the answer-to-life game. Is you've ever tripped you probably understand. I felt like every thought I had was an epiphany. But i really had
No way to explain my thoughts...thy came without words.
First my answer to the question of life was that life is a question with no answer. This lead to "don't try to solve an insoluble problem" which lead to "don't try too hard" which lead to simply "live your life." All the while I wondered if maybe the real answer was don't do drugs because you're hurting those that love you and want to see you succeed. I wondered about my destiny, what I had done wrong....
Then suddenly all this pain that had unfolded upon me became to retreat back to neutrality. It was like watching a movie and then watching it in reverse. I was still tripping very hard but I felt a sense of calm knowing that the ride was nearing its end and that i could rest from the torture of my own thoughts.
Then I fell asleep. I recall no dreams. In the morning I felt a sense of relief that I was "back." But at the same time felt the experience had been very profound.
All in all wahat I took from this trip is don't eat too many amanitas and don't think too hard. The rest I still haven't deciphered...
By the way sorry if this report is not of great quality or clairty but it is hard to describe an experience of this nature.
Thanks.
If any of you remember a thread in PD a couple days ago about the psychedelic potential of this mushroom in which the OP sort of doubted such potential...yeah that was me, and let me tell you, I have quickly been convinced otherwise.
Unfortunately I had no scale, nor did I have cash with which to purchase one, so dosing was very approximate. I have no doubt this influenced the intensity of my trip, as at first I ate too little and had no effect. After about 3hr. of munching nasty shrooms with no discernible effects, I said fuck it and ate the rest. So the only dosage info I can provide is that I ate the entire ounce in about 3 and a half hours.
about two hours after finishing them I began to salivate excessively and my coordination began to decline. The initial stage of intoxication much resembled a heavy cannabis "trip" from my low-tolerance days, at least in the mental effects and "headspace."
another half hour passed and I was lying on the couch in the dark watching my friend play video games. This is when the real trip began. I felt a strong dissociative effect and extreme synesthesia. As I watched the screen, I suddenly became aware of each individual piece of sensory input for each modality, except it was more experienced as a whole than it was perceived by specific senses. Not only this, but I felt as if I were hearing things BEFORE they happened, and the sounds as others heard them were echoes, and my consciousness became an infinite fractalized loop of echoes. Key word "loop."
at the height of this awesome confusion, every single sensory detail gave me deja vu, and I would try to speak but find that I was "ahead of myself". It may have been simply the awareness of passing time and its baffling nature that caused this feeling. Regardless it became horrifying. I began to think of my life and how I had always been a "fuck up" and how my everyone close tried to help/change me (not sure which) and how I had never listened and never learned, truly my whole life I had been "behind."
I figured that the pain of my present state, knowing things before they occur, feeling stuck in a loop waiting for the present to catch up, is how my loved ones must have felt my entire life as I refused to learn from my mistakes. I felt an indescribable weight of guilt upon me. I had caused everyones life to be a "bad trip."
Then it was the answer-to-life game. Is you've ever tripped you probably understand. I felt like every thought I had was an epiphany. But i really had
No way to explain my thoughts...thy came without words.
First my answer to the question of life was that life is a question with no answer. This lead to "don't try to solve an insoluble problem" which lead to "don't try too hard" which lead to simply "live your life." All the while I wondered if maybe the real answer was don't do drugs because you're hurting those that love you and want to see you succeed. I wondered about my destiny, what I had done wrong....
Then suddenly all this pain that had unfolded upon me became to retreat back to neutrality. It was like watching a movie and then watching it in reverse. I was still tripping very hard but I felt a sense of calm knowing that the ride was nearing its end and that i could rest from the torture of my own thoughts.
Then I fell asleep. I recall no dreams. In the morning I felt a sense of relief that I was "back." But at the same time felt the experience had been very profound.
All in all wahat I took from this trip is don't eat too many amanitas and don't think too hard. The rest I still haven't deciphered...
By the way sorry if this report is not of great quality or clairty but it is hard to describe an experience of this nature.
Thanks.
