Hello, this may sound selfish, but its been on my mind for several weeks now, I just lost my mom back in may of 2017, she was my world, my everything, My dad committed suicide when i was 7 years old and my mother never remarried, I have 3 brothers who have disowned me because i am gay, my mother was the only one that understood me, she never judged me for who i am, i have been living with HIV since 2002, and i have suffered from depression my entire life, and this passed year has been really difficult for me, I have lost all my passions in life, lost my purpose as to why i am even still here on this earth, not having a since of belonging to anyone makes me so sad, the only real enjoyment i do have is i have a cat that loves me uncondionally and he is turning 14 this year and he does not have much time left, so i have decided that maybe its time for me to go, i want to go before i get so sick that i have to rely on someone to take care of me, i will be turning 51 this year and i am just so tired, emotionally, physically, mentally, all of the above! i just want to take a pill that will allow me to go to sleep and not wake up, i think that is the best for me right now!
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