Soooo, in other news, I definitely got chased with a butcher knife last week. It was one week ago today, actually. A lady from my 12 step fellowship was sending a bunch of very strange text messages to me. She conveyed that she was suicidal so I picked up the phone to call her. She was hysterical and said she would be willing to go to the hospital. She asked if I would take her. I agreed. From being in the fellowship I know that you should not ever go alone when dealing with a potentially dicey situation. I called some other women in recovery that have the same or more clean time than me, and no one answered. Being that is WAS after midnight on a week day, I just went alone since no one answered their phones. Make a long story short, when I got there, she came at me with a big ass butcher knife. She didn't say a word, she just had this odd expression on her face. Her eyes were pitch black and she looked subhuman. I have never seen someone look that way.. it was almost if she was possessed. I immediately turned and ran and jumped down two flights of stairs into my car. I have never felt so panicked in my life. After everything that I have been thru and all the sketchy situations, this is the most haunting. She has a crazed, animalistic look in her eye that I cannot get out of my head. I called 911 and the police took her to the mental hospital. She got out yesterday and has since been harassing people in the fellowship. I know that there are just some things that this program cannot fix, such as mental illness, and some addicts need outside help.
I'm really not fucked up about it.. like, I don't mind if she comes to meetings, clearly she needs it. She got out yesterday and came to the meeting last night. I did not say hello to her. Halfway thru the meeting I left because of homework. A few hours later she texted me and said "I am deleting you, you need to do the same. And just leave me alone." Ok, whaaaaaaat? I have not had any communication with this lady since the night of the incident and she has the audacity to text me and tell me to leave her alone? I was furious and I wanted to text her crazy ass back and go in on her, but I tried my best not to react. I ignored it and I am sure that is not what she wanted. I heard thru the grape vine that she is telling people that I saved her life but I am making her feel uncomfortable at meeting because I didn't acknowledge her? Are you kidding me? Hi, you came at me with a butcher knife, I'm not gonna just immediately start talking to you.
I'm really not fucked up about it.. like, I don't mind if she comes to meetings, clearly she needs it. She got out yesterday and came to the meeting last night. I did not say hello to her. Halfway thru the meeting I left because of homework. A few hours later she texted me and said "I am deleting you, you need to do the same. And just leave me alone." Ok, whaaaaaaat? I have not had any communication with this lady since the night of the incident and she has the audacity to text me and tell me to leave her alone? I was furious and I wanted to text her crazy ass back and go in on her, but I tried my best not to react. I ignored it and I am sure that is not what she wanted. I heard thru the grape vine that she is telling people that I saved her life but I am making her feel uncomfortable at meeting because I didn't acknowledge her? Are you kidding me? Hi, you came at me with a butcher knife, I'm not gonna just immediately start talking to you.
