Hi, I'm a newbe here, so I thought I might tell a little about myself. I'm sure many others will relate. I was born with mental illness, in the form of anxiety and panic disorder in major depression. It was passed down to me genetically, and so was addiction. I was an addict before I ever even use the first time. Because of my mental illness, my life was completely miserable until the age of 15 when I smoked my first joint. I remember it like it was yesterday. It felt like a great weight has been lifted from me. For the first time in my life I felt truly happy and content. I had a new found confidence and a sense of self esteem and was able to socialize normally without having panic attacks. The "stoner" crowd was the first social circle in which I was accepted. But pot was a gateway drug for me, so this began the downward spiral of a lifetime of self medication which over the years began to no longer work. And now I live a life mostly of isolation and loneliness and depression. I no longer use drugs socially, and I suffer from low self esteem and social phobia. So who else out there can relate and are willing to discuss this with me?
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