A letter to my future ex-husband

[JCAP]

John,
Today was hard on me, I felt the need to write--not really sure why I am sending this to you--but nevertheless, I feel the need to.
______________________________
Today I come home, alone.
Cooked dinner, for me, alone.
Today I was served with divorce papers
Today is my mother's birthday
Tonight, I have on my white and black apron
that you bought me
You say, I never wear anything but black and white
Today I am sad
I am angry
aggravated
Today I feel troubled
Today it is
almost final
--yet final enough
I hurt, today
I want to be alone
I want to be independent
and--most of all
I do want to be, without you--
But today
today is the day
that I start saying goodbye
to my life
as being your wife
and I am
indifferent...
Today,
I am sad--

 

[Tribal Hybridz]

writing is the best way to take it out. put your feelings out on the paper,er,or, cpu screen i guess.....anyways, that was very understanding about that situation, and i am sorry to hear about that. just remember, for every lost love, 2 more shall rise above. ok?

 

[JCAP]

Writing helps me not to hate...
If it were not for such harshness in finality, I would be okay...

 

[Tribal Hybridz]

hell yeah that is so true. i dont know what divorce is like, but i know what losing a good love suddenly feels like. 2 lyrical geniouses helped me through it all, tupac shakur and aaron lewis.

 

[E-girl]

i felt 2 really strong emotions when i read this... heartache, and strength. your words carry this wave of loneliness, the sitting at the dinner table eating dinner by yourself, something i'm all too familiar with.... but when i finished reading it, i thought to myself, "She'll get through this"... and you will.
things can only get better for you as long as you want them to.
someone will come along who makes all this worth it.