sevensilly
Bluelighter
I’m so baffled.. To think that I still cling on to something that may not have ever lived. I’m concerned that what you and I spent months building didn’t even exist, or may have been a pompous fantasy I’d written all along. I don’t know if you knew how much I took you seriously. Everything in my life evolved around "Madi," even when you and I weren’t together. The simplest things involved deep consideration of you. Things as simple as planning out the weekend around one phone call.
I have this terrible obsession with Third Eye Blind now. I’m not sure if I dig the music more than I dig the simple fact that it reminds me of you. Putting on that cd never fails to make me weep. There is this song on the disc titled “The Background” that really gets to me. There is a line in there that describes exactly how I felt... and at times, still do. It goes… “The plans I make still have you in them, because you come swimming into view… I carry you around in the background.” I hope that somewhere in you is a place for me. You were all I ever wanted. I must have told you that a billion times, and meant it each time.
I have this terrible obsession with Third Eye Blind now. I’m not sure if I dig the music more than I dig the simple fact that it reminds me of you. Putting on that cd never fails to make me weep. There is this song on the disc titled “The Background” that really gets to me. There is a line in there that describes exactly how I felt... and at times, still do. It goes… “The plans I make still have you in them, because you come swimming into view… I carry you around in the background.” I hope that somewhere in you is a place for me. You were all I ever wanted. I must have told you that a billion times, and meant it each time.
