A day in the life of, ?

[An Elaborat Dream]

4:00--Run downstaires to have a smoke? i still think in naritive it started yet only what it feels like a minute ago but time dosnt matter anymore theres no point on trying to make this far to stressful and complicated to figure that out.
--i contemplate and i realize yeah shes a dreamer, still sleeping thats for sure even with clicking on the keyboard nothing wakes her from her slumber.
4:15 smoking made things hazy, but colors are turning like before, sickness is dying i feel great but a tad drousy but nothing i cant fight. I swear ntomyself i will never surender, just sit and watch the sun, totally far gone, it reminds me something of 2ce but much more euphoric perhapse the ginsing is starting to take effect or the dextro-whatever it is i want to talk and keep talking, make conversation get to know my surroundings, well after all
only a month ago did our house burn to the ground me and my girl just bairly made it out, thank God for the support, still alive and breathing yet to live to fight for whats right just like any other day,
Isnt it obvious? This feeling is like a total revitalization as well as the mindframe in this state of thinking is a slight blunder yet at times key elements come into rememberance.
4:40 however the length of the trip report it isnt nessisary if you dont want to read the words its your choice, its just my observations and thoughts dwelt umong the experiance, it makes me want to learn.
5:00 Took a shower, breathing clear once again im still like blah about this whole cold ordeal but i felt a hell of alot better than this morning i almost didnt even want to wake.
--Maybe its a walts or an onsert of display but this imagery comming to mind is much unlike any ive seen before.
Big ol puff balls of snow flailing around out there and too think it was just sunny a little while ago.. very trippy i remember tools song, his lyric comes to mind, "watch the weather change"
-lost track of time in between thinking and feeling nausious i continued to browse through facebook, realizing how crazy this whole trip was turning out to be.
its about -5:40 dropped the last 6 ccs and morning glory, hopefully this will do the last trick, unfortuantnly went through a stage of depression in rememberance to all of the hardships we faced after the house fire, cause and effect, like dominoes the spiral ripples outward.
im not trying to figure out time now i do beleive my last estimates were off wile finaly looking at the clock alot of paterns intwetwind with color distort my mind.
-im having diffictulty integrating what is and what is not, the fine lines between fact and fiction have both melted at the seams, alike.
to many sensations to handle i try to lye but my mind wont let it rest such a dificult task for me to attend but nothing makes that worth it now.
hands are numb and body feels almost as if though i have melted into the universe but its chemically feeling and not right, a nose bleed occured and got me runnin scarred but not for long no doubt from the CPM, i cant use this anymore i dont like feeling so close to death, almost ready to meet your maker. I think, God if i dont make it out of this one, take care of my family and the ones i love and give them comfort when i am gone, almost as if this empty feeling has occured i became fvull of new ideas and thought, it has to be what i think it is.
-I kept beleiving what is true can also be false in so many different ways it didnt even make sence any more. i just want to be loved and to love and to care for others. not any more of this darkness shall divour my soul!!!

7:00 I am lost in disbeleif then again in beleif i am her, then again, nor there, or where? i mean it ment something of importance to look back at the past and simply give thanks for all the times ive felt the love and joy of all of those around, for anyone reading this please i dhould make it clear i am sorry for all of these things i have done to hurt anyone in any sort of way for the dominoes have fallen and what is done is dont and the ripple effect still continues to spiral outard.
8:00 I almost feel as if though God is calling me to do somthing more in my life rather than just painting, it could be a side project or so, such as getting the band back together but i need to get my job first, one month more i am garenteed to work in a usful position to get my mind clear of all these things.
To breath in the air its almost unreal-in my opinion dont get m0e wrong even though my mind is all over the place dont you worry about me for i have got what i need in place,. enough paint and blank pages to keep me ocupied for the time being but for what lies ahead its only just the begining.
Its 5:25 right now and clear as day i see and write and beleive. i still dream and hope and scream. is it all too real or is it all just unreal, what is the very definition of that fine line that seperates the two?
Just as i had begun to loose my mind evidence points to another direction.

------------------------------Almost a week later)------------------

-Trip Day 2
Wile walking away my girl, she awakes bright as day, sobered throughout the day. I found it obscure to ride in the back while she road in front with my best freind. we got her pomerianan dog thats 11 weeks old, it threw up on briana, a few days ago i might add this is beging brought into rememberace by which
i have the means to have the inability to sleep. A few hours of a trip, Tell u what u only see and know but thats half the battle the forces we clash with can be deadly.
-Nutmeg-Captop full and ginger, unkown dose(i know i know, but only a few sprinles i had used probibly approximatley 3-4tbs, i awakened around 3' i had missed my schooling day damn it and i was mad too. no wonder why upon review its a dileriant, made me sleepy. 13 hours had passed
-i had awaked to the sight of paterns and faint trails. through the day i started to take dextromethorphan 480mg and an lsa extraction dose around 400 seeds, heavenly blue as usual. the night started out rough but throughout paintings and the continueance of my book. as usual i hit a few snags but all throughout the lsa and dxm mix went well, besides the whopping headache at the last hours, i had taken a zanex now to releive that. for also my thoughts had been dreary at that.
-waited, and i waited. still the effects hurt morre than entertained probibly a bad time to remind myself how much lsa i had been trying this past week, after reading into the book "go ask alice" i started to have my doubts but the colors are simpily too astounding. words couldnt describle only painting can help thoroughly this emotional mental state.

 

[An Elaborat Dream]

Days down the rabit hole?. NO one touch nor say a word just listen ND WAIT. Ive put myself through this experiance not only to define but prove myself to my inner child and look through the seeing eye glass of time on this fantastic easter holiday, Done with as simplistic 4 paintyings drawn acute in a row apon the first hours of the exparement
-1) this trip report conrtains extreme cautionary advisory for anyone wishing to attempt a drug-combination in the psychoactive feild such as this,
-A)Lysergic acid amide(presented within the hours of ingesting 2 alkasalser plus, cold tabs, (contqaining phen. binarate 14mg, acetominophine 650mg. 650mg CPM, 4mg, 20mg Lexapro(for stimuli effect.) and Chewed 250-300 morning glory seeds, heavenly blue with approx 40 coleus seeds
Cafine throughrought breakfast black brew and great easter egg pealings. Down went the second hatch, containing ginger and a dash of nutmeg for an Maoi effect. Followed by a dose of 4 CC, this wasnt my first choice and no do not tell me it shouda been something else but i wanted dxm in this trip as well so i continued with this and proceeded as such
for i didnt feel like walking to get robo gels as last week they were out so i stuck with what i had, not to make things complicated or anything likewise,
after my painting session i followed by a trail of my cigaret. Sitting plainfully though obsovering, the figuarines faces portrayed in a kalidascopic point of view followed by the point of phrase in which i asked why the walls in the world put of all around each and every one of us in our own ways and varrying degrees.
apon annylisys and over contemplation i resumed the album, Within the fine lines followed by the tital, "Valestaudio Comprised improvission"
B) followed after a trip to dedefine(why well at this time i had taken the alkaselser due to the sickness i had reecieved from my girlfreind, a flue like cold somewhere around that definition, anytime
1:00+ i began seeing vivid visual encounters behind closed eyes as well as kalidascopes within open eyes. Trails and hightened sences of hues and colors then began to shape itself into fine line3 distortions of various objects and shapes played in key at different rythems and altetude.
1:15+ in addition i adde3d 1 Cc, Those red devils as they are, as well as another aquirious key element lsa(approximate 450-550 more seeds sitting in water to moisten them up for a few hours last night and throughout today to be easier to chew.
1:30 Contemplating whats inevitable, though throughraly many contadictions in the course of which i had seen makes me realize these actions at such can no longer be tolerated, my life and my key strength must come from observing and preservierance to better comense this utter inevitable catastrophy.
2:00 Vivid key insight brought fourth from one thought that i had once swallowed hdown hard with pride made me also realize all of which i had been is no longer no more i must rise up to defend these ideals and logistictions to every leading example it might compromise within yet ones self.
Vissions of trails of water changed into vivid details of repetitious paterns theirfor otherwise being statictized as well as uplifted from the blothy colors in the sky.
Tints of color rays as seen of of the presently imagined halo formed itself into a parabola on a picto-graph. therefor in kalidoscopic emboss and outlines.
2:45: My love presently sleeps quietly snors i hope and dream of a better tomarow as well as yet a better today and how to of which, i must make and morph with my very own actions, words, and eyes.
3:00---I still watch and wait, wait to see all of which i can but this body feeling is withering, in addition i had decided to add more into the mix, about half of the 450-550 seed mash was eaten in addition to 3 more CC and 30mg Lexapro(for stimuli effect)
3:45---I wonder, if they would ever even beleive me or beleive all of which i had saw!!, No onviously its just an experiance but the most improvised one yet, my ideas and my words are no match for anything else, basically, the fundamentals that distort ones percption itself can be controled by the watchful eye.
-Maybe im just crazy or maybe your the one whos yet to see all of which there is to see, make each day bigger and brighter, how can it be better? how can you over-anylize something so much as to finaly come about the resolution that has presented itself in bliss.
--I swear it to be true, learning and apprehension is one thing, but actually seeing is beleiveing without fate or a destiney whos to say what can entangle itself into the mix, if its all random its far from my idea id try to be optomistic but still i mean seeing is the truth in beleiving, not justified by a cat scratch to thy eye, meaning the damn cat literaly tried to scratch me in the eye, it was a memory that had surfaced from over 2 years ago.




-----------------------MY BAD this is suppoed to be at the top of the fourum

 

[any major dude]

Hey, we have a whole forum for trip reports, so if you want maybe edit this a little for clarity & then post there.

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