A chemical diary

Ive taken often to excess most of the usual drugs over the years:

Alcohol: This drug fucked me over way more then any other. I was a regular drinker since i was i dunno 14 maybe and i didnt stop until i was 21. The reason i stopped was i knew id have a job to make it to 30 if i kept it up. I really took to alcohol in a way i have never done so to any other drug. I wasent happy until i was basically in that alcoholic oblivion.

Cannabis: Ive smoked hash, weed, hash oil, or kief since i was 12 years old. I started smoking regularly when i was 14 and i smoked it pretty much everyday. Weed was just a everyday thing because everyone i knew smoked it as often as they could. I did take a few breaks over the years and when i got in my mid 20's i stopped smoking it for awile because it just made me feel too introspective. But over the past 2 years or so ive been smoking it again and i smoke it pretty much everyday. So yeah im a pothead too :\

Opiates: I have used most opiates/opioids right from propoxyphene up to fentanyl. I mostly take morphine now and am trying to lay off the IVing. I have been pretty heavily addicted to shooting up both morphine and dilaudid and it did cause me some problems. It hasent caused me nearly as many problems as ignorant doctors and undertreated pain has though.

Benzos: The only benzodiazepine i really got addicted to was temazepam. I would abuse the living shit out of those pills and mixthem up with clonazepam, valium, oxazepam or lorazepam. I have had a clonazepam script for a long time now but ive never had any problems with that drug at all and it works wonders for me. Clonazepam is one drug that did me wonders because i had such bad anxiety i couldnt function before i went on it.

Stimulants: Ive eaten alot of dextroamphetamine to the point where i thought i was going to die of a heart attack and this happened on a few occasions. Ive stayed up for 4 days straight on it but it does not make me nearly as crazy as coke does. With coke i usually smoke crack or IV the stuff and crack is bad enough but IVing coke is awful. Doing shots every 5 or 10 minutes if fucked. I loved doing morphine and coke speedballs too. I have spent many a night hitting the dirty auld pipe but thankfully i never got hooked.

Psychedelics and Dissociatives: Ive taken mybe close to 100 shroom trips since i was 14. I went really overboard on them when i was a teenager. I only did LSD maybe 10 different times or something. I also smoked salvia twice and holy fuckin jesus that was just fucked. Gotta say it was interesting though. I havent had any bad side effects at all from psychs. As for dissociatives ive tried nitrous, ketamine, PCP and DXM. I love nitrous and ketamine there 2 of my fav drugs. i went through a phase where i took DXM maybe 50 times in a few months and i did like it. Thankfully it didnt fuck with my brain any.

So i would say despite how many drugs ive done and how much of my DOC's i use im not in bad shape. Im in better shape then i would expect to be thats for sure 8(
 
holy fuck man this is really interesting im 15 right now and already fucking hppd i did shrooms 3 time MDMA few times... dxm mny time Some opiates but i dont know how to get my hands on some now.... i did large doses of caffeine (everyday acctuly) wich beleave it or not gets me real fucking high and smoked salvia 5 times.... always wanted but never got my hand on acid ... alcohol atleast 1 per week and i use to smoke alot of weed n company... but the weed gets me to much fing paranoid THC pills though i love em... melatonin in heroic doses (80mg) suppose to take 2mg..... and diphenhydramine huffed gas took nitrous oxide... now if im too tired things start moving morphing etc....
 
im 18, i have severe hppd , with over 100 2ce trips , (over a gram of 2c-e consumed), 150 - 200 hits of blotter or liquid acid consumed (100 trips or so) probly 5-8 ounces of mushrooms consumed , like hundreds of pure mdma trips , few experiences with 2c-t7, 5-meo-dipt, dmt, dob, multiple salvia trips , many pharms , morphine dilaudis oxy , speed blo , e, once i took 8 tabs of blotter and 3 grams of shrooms spread out through a night , another occasion i put an 8 strip on my tounge and was high in 15 mins , ive eatin 9 grams of shrooms (insainity),,........... there comes a point where reality space time and existance become irrelevant and you lose grasp on reality , lose sanity , hard to explain ,,,, but i doubt your hppd is really all that bad , if you even do have it
 
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