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A Battle Between Me And Myself

my84firebird355

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Just like guns don't kill people, drugs don't use people,
Quit throwing the blame on the middle man,


Whether it was a lighter, plunger or a trigger,
It was YOUR choice to use your fucking finger.
And you know you had options to consider,
But you had to be hard headed, go figure,
You did it all cuz your ego had to get bigger,
Really all you did was make yourself sicker,
Now your heart's as cold as Jack the Rippers,
You tryin to understand life by destroying your liver,
Bitch do you understand the message Im tryin to deliver,


I do, but I’m not listenin to you,
Oc’s talking to me, heroin too,
There tryin to tell me what to do,
But I know I got so much to lose,
And I don’t know how to use,
But I’m a master when it comes to abuse,
But what really gets me blue,
Is the fact that I’m the slave too,
Who the fuck woulda knew?


Motherfucker you need to get out of this rutt,
Cuz if you stay in it, I can tell you your fucked,
There’s only one way out, the direction up,
And I know you know you aint stuck,
And I know you don’t believe in luck,
So I don’t ever wanna hear your giving up,
Conquer manhood, and quit being a punk,
I got your back if your ever in a funk,
In other words consider me your trump,


Please, please, please stop this weak distraction,
Cuz I’ve been thru the shit, and you were missing in action,
I’ve built impenetrable walls in lieu of your absence,
I’m tired of this life and I feel like I’m crashin,
Burnin rubber when what I need most is traction,
I gotta stop giving away half of my rations,
Cuz I know its my own life that I’m trashin,
But if I’m going out, I’m going out blastin,
You know, in that true g code fashion.

-ERKS
 
First time I have been into this particular forum on Bluelight and your post was the first I read. Got to say I found it very good and enjoyed reading it.
 
why thank you, I wrote this about a year ago and I always re-read it because I'm still in the struggle, figured a few people here would appreciate it, too. Thanks for reading.
 
I am still struggling with heroin addiction,that's my particular battle although I must admit I am not fighting it too hard at the moment.
I guess all we can do is keep on trying in the hope that one day we will win our individual battles.
All the best mate.
 
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