90 Days Off Meth

[stilesface]

Saturday will mark 90 days meth free. I spent a ton of time here my first 60 days, lurking more than posting. However, this 3 month mark approaches and I feel apathetic and empty. Almost that the fight has gone out of me, I'm not seeking a high but I feel weary fighting it. Luckily I am still far away from my former life but I crave it. I crave the chaos a bit though I know I don't want to get high. Any help or advice or commiseration would be welcome. I think I put every bit of me into getting sober by any means necessary and now I'm sober and I have no clue who I am when not fighting tooth and nail for survival.

 

[spork]

I know exactly how you've been feeling, stilesface. I've been there myself after about the same amount of time had passed.

My best advice to you is to keep as busy as you can. Take some classes, get out in nature, exercise, volunteer, do whatever it takes to find new interests. Keep up with what you've been doing to keep yourself sober and don't give up. You can definitely do this.

 

[stilesface]

Thanks Spork. I think if I look at this time period as part of the process of sobriety I'll fare better. I work out a lot doing outdoorsy stuff. It helps to combat the 8 million pounds I've gained since quitting. I feel like this is an emotional stand still....I don't want to allow anyone in and I think that may be folly. Just need to keep moving forward.

 

[Mass08]

I know it's hard but try and remember all the reasons that you wanted to get clean. It's tough for me personally because my brain tricks me into only remembering the good times but if I try hard I can remember stealing from my parents, lying to everyone I know, being sick as hell and the biggest one for me is the look on my parents face when they threw me out of the house after finding out I relapsed again. Those things are enough to keep me going, I also want to get this addiction under control and make something of my life.