8:40 p.m.
I wonder how long it will take you to figure out that I left...
That I'm not in the next room anymore waiting for you
That i walked right past you out the front door, slamming it
Got in my car and let the tires squeal,
Carrying me away from your house as fast as they would take me.
It's been the whole teary-eyed drive home and you still haven't called,
So i'm guessing either you still didn't notice
Or you just don't really care.
And well, now i'm home
And i have this song on as loud as it will go
So i can't hear myself screaming
Isn't today supposed to be the day you were 'making it up to me'
For not bothering to show up,
Or to even call,
On Easter, when i cooked you this great dinner to surprise you,
So you wouldn't have to be alone on a holiday,
Yet i sat in my house alone, calling you
Wondering where you were, and if you were ok
And sometimes, when i couldn't get past the thought of it,
Who you were with
And i knew i shouldn't have been thinking like that,
But that's what they all fucking said
The next day
After I'd waited up all night
And we all saw how far that trust got me in the past....
What's happened to us these days...
Where have you gone?
Who calls you at 1:32 in the morning and hangs up when a girl answers?
Why did they even need to tell me that?
I could have been just fine without knowing that...
But once again,
All these warning are flashing...
And i don't know what to believe, or what to think
And you still haven't called
At this point i don't really care if you do
Everything that's important to you is in that room right now...
Those black round pieces of magic at your finger tips
And an audience, none of which i'm a part of
And then there's me...
I'm nowhere in the room
I'm here, by myself, like always
And i told myself that i'm not going to cry over this
What the fuck would that prove
But its so hard to hold back tears when your heart is pounding,
And your skin is fiery hot
And you can feel your blood racing through your veins
And the screen starts to cloud
The words don't make sense anymore
And it's tuesday, so later you'll be spinning at that club
While i lay here in bed alone,
Adding one or two more reasons to a growing list of reasons
Why maybe this is pointless anymore
And when and IF you decide to enter my room,
In the middle of the night
After the crowd has stopped cheering,
And the music has stopped
(except for this sappy song that i have on repeat)
Your spot in this bed will be occupied by stuffed animals
And i don't need your I'm Sorry's or your puppy-dog eyes
I'm past that
I'm not staying up to wait for you
Not tonight
So why don't you just go home and talk to whoever calls you in the middle of the night
And tell them your problems
Tell them how your girlfriend won't give you the time of day
Because she's tired of having to be the one who tries to make this relationship work
While you sit back and enjoy the rest of your life
And forget she exists
You do that
For once, maybe i can find peace tonight.
I wonder how long it will take you to figure out that I left...
That I'm not in the next room anymore waiting for you
That i walked right past you out the front door, slamming it
Got in my car and let the tires squeal,
Carrying me away from your house as fast as they would take me.
It's been the whole teary-eyed drive home and you still haven't called,
So i'm guessing either you still didn't notice
Or you just don't really care.
And well, now i'm home
And i have this song on as loud as it will go
So i can't hear myself screaming
Isn't today supposed to be the day you were 'making it up to me'
For not bothering to show up,
Or to even call,
On Easter, when i cooked you this great dinner to surprise you,
So you wouldn't have to be alone on a holiday,
Yet i sat in my house alone, calling you
Wondering where you were, and if you were ok
And sometimes, when i couldn't get past the thought of it,
Who you were with
And i knew i shouldn't have been thinking like that,
But that's what they all fucking said
The next day
After I'd waited up all night
And we all saw how far that trust got me in the past....
What's happened to us these days...
Where have you gone?
Who calls you at 1:32 in the morning and hangs up when a girl answers?
Why did they even need to tell me that?
I could have been just fine without knowing that...
But once again,
All these warning are flashing...
And i don't know what to believe, or what to think
And you still haven't called
At this point i don't really care if you do
Everything that's important to you is in that room right now...
Those black round pieces of magic at your finger tips
And an audience, none of which i'm a part of
And then there's me...
I'm nowhere in the room
I'm here, by myself, like always
And i told myself that i'm not going to cry over this
What the fuck would that prove
But its so hard to hold back tears when your heart is pounding,
And your skin is fiery hot
And you can feel your blood racing through your veins
And the screen starts to cloud
The words don't make sense anymore
And it's tuesday, so later you'll be spinning at that club
While i lay here in bed alone,
Adding one or two more reasons to a growing list of reasons
Why maybe this is pointless anymore
And when and IF you decide to enter my room,
In the middle of the night
After the crowd has stopped cheering,
And the music has stopped
(except for this sappy song that i have on repeat)
Your spot in this bed will be occupied by stuffed animals
And i don't need your I'm Sorry's or your puppy-dog eyes
I'm past that
I'm not staying up to wait for you
Not tonight
So why don't you just go home and talk to whoever calls you in the middle of the night
And tell them your problems
Tell them how your girlfriend won't give you the time of day
Because she's tired of having to be the one who tries to make this relationship work
While you sit back and enjoy the rest of your life
And forget she exists
You do that
For once, maybe i can find peace tonight.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
