6 years deep..

[eyeswideshuttoday]

My best friend and I have been together for 6 years. Im suprised we lasted this long. The relationship road has been bumpy AF. Too many details to type so ill skip ahead.

We are both active and functioning drug addicts. His DOC is heroin, mine is methamphetamines. Everything was going as per usual until about a month ago. And im sure its due to his usage (he is in way deep this time....we take breaks).

Anyways, he has all but withdrawn from me. Shows almost no love, spends no time with me, i can tell him how i feel over and over (and have for the last 3 weeks)....which he will acknowledge...but nothing changes. Promises broken, etc. He admitted during an arguement that its because he is using too much and is currently attempting to quit (for a long time)....but here is my problem...

This time i feel like i am becoming emotionally numb to him. Almost as if i am so used to this that his presence is not needed. We can lay in bed and i no longer feel bad if he doesnt say i love you or acknowledge me. Its like i am subconciously letting go of him. I KNOW i love him...it just feels different this time. Maybe because how long it has taken him to come around? I dont know. I am at a loss...what should i do?!

When do you give up?

 

[zephyr]

Has he made any attempts to taper down or quit/rehab or is he just thinking he should quit?

Its up to you as to when to let go and if you are done then youll need to tell him.

It might be worth holding him to his thoughts on quitting for a long time and also you might have to quit yourself .

 

[eyeswideshuttoday]

He is pretty set on doing it himself. We both kind of have the same mindset as far as quitting isnt forever. It makes it easier i guess?

He has been tapering down the last 3 days or so, went from smoking black all day to taking the minimum amount of percs just to stave off WD while he is working (super physical job).

Tuesday will be when shit hits the fan so to speak. And if he wanted me too, id absolutely quit with him.

After a night of thinking and a little shut eye, i can agree its def worth a shot to wait out him being sober from it and see how things pan out.

 

[crazyfun]

Methamphetamine is known to rob a person of all the feeling they ever had. I'm no stranger to this myself. It just makes me feel like I care about nothing, literally. No matter how much something meant to be a day before smoking it. It means nothing after. Tina is an evil bitch as good as it may seem when you're on it. So don't forget your own feeling are also being effected even though it might seem like you are just you. You are not the real you when you do that stuff on a regular basis. But yeah his usage sounds like it might be spinning out of control. Perhaps its time for an ultimatum to set him straight or just be done.