This is my first time on here. I was hoping to get some feedback on my story and if these feelings will go away. I am happy to say I'm on day 6 of not drinking. I've gone through the withdrawal period which wasn't that bad for me considering I drank a bottle or two of wine at night at least 4 times a week. My only issues are insomnia,agitation,frustration and anxiety. I've always had depression and panic disorder and really bad social anxiety. I'm 31 yrs old. I've been drinking since I was 15. That's when all my friends were drinking and where it started. I amm shy and drinking made me feel popular and outgoing and the life of the party. I always ended up with worse anxiety the day after though. It wasn't until 6 years ago I found myself drinking every night by myself so I didn't have to feel or deal with past and present emotional pain. Id drink if I was happy or depressed mad disappointed you name it. I guess I want to know if this hopelessness and depressed feeling will ever go away? I'm hoping its just the effects of quitting cold turkey? I've had strong urges but I'm staying strong. Also I'm doing this alone. My family and friends have no idea I can't and don't want to tell them. Its embarrasing. I want to do this alone and for myself
