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50 years of friendship, down he toilets

fastandbulbous

fastandbulbous

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I recently went to a friend's (he's an egotistical self important cunt). After a meal to remember a year since my wife's death, I couldn't sleep for three nights, eventually, after taking 20mg of nitrazepam and 40mg 0f diazepam, I decidedvI needed somewhere, where I wasn't being reminded of herb, so I went to a nearby woods (just sounds of nature), and fond a suitable place to get comfortablev(it wasc4:30am). Anyway, 9am, I'm woken by 4 coppers thinking they had a dead body (theyvsaidvitbdidn't help that I was wearing combats!), , but they were were polite and understanding, seeing it was the anniversary of her death an I had organized a meal in her memory. So I went down to a (what thought was a friend's house). No empathy just you'll get fucking sectioned again. This turned into an argument that resulted with his forearm across my throat, where I thought my windpipe might cracked. What he didn't know wascI had a retractable Stanley knife in my pocket, and that had I heard my windpipe crack, in the 60 seconds I had I would have opened the left side of his neck where the the carotid artery and jugular vein run and I would have totally opened him (giving him 15 seconds before his brain ran out of blood oxygen.).
One person said that wasxa bitvexcesssive after50 years of friendship, but my attitude I'd "fuck it I die, you die (cracked windpipievis not fatal). Is this one 'a bit excessive' a cunt or do you believe I would have been justified.
He tries to justify it releasesesxthe beast in him. Personally I felt he came close to his Las 15vseconds on earth.

So do you think I'd gone over the top or totally justified. I've told other friends I want nowtbto do withbthe cunt again and ANY aggressive move towards me will result in a face full of pepper spray and kicked in the head until he was in a persisistant vegetative state.
Anybody who knows me, knows I'm not a violent person, unless ut'a towards the two kittens my wife rescued (probably end in murder charge).
Am I in that much need of psychiatric help?
 
I think your emotions are still all over the place at the moment and that’s completely understandable. You lost your wife, it was her anniversary and you were upset. Having extreme thoughts isn’t uncommon. You didn’t act on them even though he was physical with you.

I find we can stay friends with people (who actually aren’t nice) because it’s something we’ve always done. About 4 years ago I dropped a friend of 22 years because she was a toxic selfish bitch and I was done with it. I took it at the time because she was one of my oldest “friends” and I had already let so much shit fly so why start being annoyed now? I was done and I just stopped talking to her.

Whether you need help is something only you can answer. You need to sit and have a think about how you’re really feeling and acting and if it’s having a negative effect on your life. If it is then getting help isn’t a bad thing. I’ve recently entered therapy again myself after my mother died, it’s been difficult but badly badly needed.

I really am sorry that on your wife’s anniversary you didn’t find comfort with a friend and you were met with an unhelpful attitude. The grieving process is already very difficult without that on top of it. I hope you found at least some moments in the day for peaceful remembrance at least.
 
He's an ignorant twat (once told be pharmacology was bullshit and it was all just mind over matter). No idea how I let that one slide,but a physical assault on me was well over the line.
Not like me to be vindictive, but he chain smokes weed rolies, has COPD and has had two heart attacks.
Hope the third one is the charm...
 
What happened before the forearm across the throat? I feel like you’ve skipped over a rather important part of the story there.
 
THECATINTHEHAT said:
What happened before the forearm across the throat? I feel like you’ve skipped over a rather important part of the story there.
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My windpipe felt it was going to collapse. He was seconds away from having a Stanley knife sunk unto the side of his neck where the carotid artery and jugular vein run. 15 seconds and his brain would have drained of blood.
Does that sound like me? Part of me wished I'd done it (and no, I'm nowhere near off my head, as I've had to spend the afternoon looking after my older niece, as she has H. pylori.

No cunt is going to think he can dominate/terrify me etc, just because I have the manners not to call people twats, when they obviously are.
 
You are NOT a violent dude. I remember the FIRST words were to me 'Hi 'X', nice to meet you, please share this J I have made for us all'. I thought that to show real compassion towards someone you did not know. I'm the same in that I presume the best of all and expect that to be reciprocated.

As you know, I was sectioned under similar circumstances and I THINK the most hurtful thing is that not one person visited me in 6 weeks. No clean clothing, no possessions whatsoever but put into a 'prison with pot plants' to be assessed.

But I was also ALMOST done for GBH when someone took my disability for weakness... and got to discover how strong the arms of a guy on crutches gets after decades.

I do have to ask why you had a Stanley? I don't see you as a man who NEEDS to project power and fear onto others.

It was a tough time and as you know, I've lost people in similar ways and one does kind of bounce around wondering what the point of it all is. Well, if nothing else, you are a great example of a decent person. Don't lose sight of that. Don't get bitter. Debz cannot understand why I am not, but would it help anyone for me to be so?
 
Any time a "friend" lays a hand on you over a verbal argument if it were me Id consider that person dead and never speak to them again. I know my share of self important cunts and I know the exact feeling after an altercation like that. Fuck that piece of shit
 
Im assuming sectioned is being put in a behavior hospital ? I have family that lords that over my fucking head on what seems like a daily basis. They will gaslight me into an argument by using an insult that they know will push my buttons and if I dare respond in anger "we'll call the looney bin on you again and hopefully this time you never get out". I hate them I honestly do, not a single one of them knows how hellish those places are and they taunt me with it as a source of amusement. Sorry youre having a rough time man.
 
fastandbulbous said:
Didn't NEED it, just sort of happèned! 🤣
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As the man says - if someone lays hands on you and you have no WAY of knowing what will happen (i.e. no context) it's normal to defend oneself.

People who have never been subject to mental illness have no idea that you aren't a risk to THEM. To yourself, yes, to them, almost never. Certainly never unless they attack YOU. Obviously I use the terms 'yourself' and 'you' to be the party of the fist part... not atcha, man ;-)

Kind of a lot of benzodiazepines. But insomnia will unbalance the sanest mind. Anxiety, depression mixed with insomnia. The worst trip....
 
fastandbulbous said:
I recently went to a friend's (he's an egotistical self important cunt). After a meal to remember a year since my wife's death, I couldn't sleep for three nights, eventually, after taking 20mg of nitrazepam and 40mg 0f diazepam, I decidedvI needed somewhere, where I wasn't being reminded of herb, so I went to a nearby woods (just sounds of nature), and fond a suitable place to get comfortablev(it wasc4:30am). Anyway, 9am, I'm woken by 4 coppers thinking they had a dead body (theyvsaidvitbdidn't help that I was wearing combats!), , but they were were polite and understanding, seeing it was the anniversary of her death an I had organized a meal in her memory. So I went down to a (what thought was a friend's house). No empathy just you'll get fucking sectioned again. This turned into an argument that resulted with his forearm across my throat, where I thought my windpipe might cracked. What he didn't know wascI had a retractable Stanley knife in my pocket, and that had I heard my windpipe crack, in the 60 seconds I had I would have opened the left side of his neck where the the carotid artery and jugular vein run and I would have totally opened him (giving him 15 seconds before his brain ran out of blood oxygen.).
One person said that wasxa bitvexcesssive after50 years of friendship, but my attitude I'd "fuck it I die, you die (cracked windpipievis not fatal). Is this one 'a bit excessive' a cunt or do you believe I would have been justified.
He tries to justify it releasesesxthe beast in him. Personally I felt he came close to his Las 15vseconds on earth.

So do you think I'd gone over the top or totally justified. I've told other friends I want nowtbto do withbthe cunt again and ANY aggressive move towards me will result in a face full of pepper spray and kicked in the head until he was in a persisistant vegetative state.
Anybody who knows me, knows I'm not a violent person, unless ut'a towards the two kittens my wife rescued (probably end in murder charge).
Am I in that much need of psychiatric help?
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99.9% of the time he types stuff perfect, you can tell he was fucked up on God knows what when he did this thread.

Trust me getting dark on people isn't the best idea IF they know who you are, all that would have done is cause a War & you will end up with some nasty guys is Ski masks kicking in your door with a Sawn-off & taking your spine out, I have posted about a local murder only a few minutes from my flat & 3 guys have just been found Guilty of murder, they shot the one guy in the stomach at point blank range & stabbed his brother 26 times over a strap bill of £150. You see what happens "On The Road"..........it isn't good my Brother.

Cutting people isn't good, you get PTSD from it in most cases, you can FEEL the blade go in OR across the skin, it's really NOT good & All the times I have pulled a knife on someone & really was going to use it after I've felt bad about it. Slashing someone is a little different than stabbing them IMHO but just as dangerous as they can bleed to death so easy.

Just say you had killed the guy you wouldn't be getting away with it, your DNA would be all over the place, the Forensics team would have a field day with that Crime Scene & you will be doing at least 15 years, is it worth it for some stupid Cunt? I know this will sound a little crazy but you want to kill someone you have to plan it all out, random Murder in the heat of a fight NEVER ends up going well for the person who has done the killing.

You are way better than this behaviour, come on man FFS give your head a shake.
 
Thank God things didn't escalate to the point of no return for both of you. How quickly things can get close to that point, and to that point, is scary though.
 
I think you can be fucked on some pills and still in the right. @fastandbulbous didn’t actually stab someone he just thought it, while getting “restrained” by a friend on this very sad day. I’d say all things considered, he was pretty chill about it all.

Agreed it’s obvious by the typing and responses that some benzos are still flowing, but I can’t say I wouldn’t have felt the exact same completely sober.

-GC
 
G_Chem said:
I think you can be fucked on some pills and still in the right. @fastandbulbous didn’t actually stab someone he just thought it, while getting “restrained” by a friend on this very sad day. I’d say all things considered, he was pretty chill about it all.

Agreed it’s obvious by the typing and responses that some benzos are still flowing, but I can’t say I wouldn’t have felt the exact same completely sober.

-GC
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Couldn't agree more. Seems like OP seems to understand the causes and effects of what happened. Isn't blaming other people for what happened.

OP I don't think that you overreacted, if your friend is not living up to your standards, then you would be right to drop him. You have to decide where you set the bar. Then you have to decide if your buddy meets your expectations or not. If he truly does not meet your standards, drop him.

I'm not convinced at all that you're doing the wrong thing. It's good to have standards.
 
Still haven't heard what happened in between matey saying he will get sectioned again and matey crossfacing him against the wall. I'm going to guess it involves him starting the violent altercation or threatening violence, making mateys cross face entirely legitimate.
 
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