Hi everyone. My boyfriend and I took E for the first time on July 4. We set up his apartment very dark, with lighting, tactile toys, candies to suck on, gum, water and such. We took our first pill around 3pm, and took four more, one each at about 5pm, 7pm, 9pm and 12am. We had read about E but had believed that taking more would prolong the effects, and didn't really read (until after the experience) that one pill was enough for the night, otherwise more would increase bad side effects. He is about 280 pounds and I am about 160, so as you can imagine, the effects hit me about twice as much as they did him, and we both took five each over the course of that time, for a total of 10 between us for the night.
At first, I was scared and disoriented as the first pill took effect since I didn't know what to expect. Then I calmed down and enjoyed the lights and visuals, seeing extremely clearly and just touching each other. Our sexual feelings were basically deadened, I am not sure if this is normal or not, any normally sexual part of our body was basically numb. Every other part of our body though of course was heightened and very sensual and extremely enjoyable.
For me the enjoyableness probably lasted until about 11 or 12, when I started just feeling hyper. Around 2am, my stomach started to feel sick even though I hadn't eaten anything. I was getting chills. I had jitters in my arms and legs, and extreme jaw clenching. I felt almost like I had Parkinson's with my limbs shaking a lot. My hearing sometimes tunnelled. I wasn't feeling good. When I got up sometimes I felt dizzy. As well, I got up to go to the bathroom, and at one point when I was standing against the counter, my legs felt like weights, I couldn't stand up, and I just slid down, my boyfriend had to help me to stand. He was helping me to the living room when again my legs gave out, and he held me up for almost five minutes, during which point I apparently left, as in my eyes were open, but I wasn't there. My boyfriend said my eyes were empty, even though they were open, no response, like I wasn't there. I don't remember any of this. He said it scared him a lot, and he was afraid for my safety. He said I was "gone" for a couple of minutes only, even though it seemed like forever. The next thing I remember, I was laying on the floor in the hallway, and he had kissed my forehead and lay with me. I opened my eyes, and hallucinated a bit, thinking I saw mice running up the door frame. I knew it wasn't real though so I wasn't afraid. I was then able to get up. I felt a bit dizzy but it wasn't too bad. I sat down on the couch and felt relatively normal. About 3am I got up to go to the bathroom, and while standing up I noticed the same feelings of my legs becoming heavy. I was afraid all of that was going to happen again, that my legs were going to give out. I rested on the toilet and was able to make it back, and my boyfriend was there had I needed help. The being "gone" and my legs giving out were the worst parts that night.
Over the next two days, we were unable to sleep at all. My boyfriend's vision was somewhat altered, but becoming more normal. I didn't feel hungry, but I felt extremely tired. Even lifting my arms above my head was a chore and tired me out. Two or three nights later, I became afraid of the dark, convinced something was going to jump out at me even though I knew there was nothing there. My boyfriend and I are in a long distance relationship, and so it was even worse when I came home on July 8 and was without him. The night of July 8, my thoughts were going on in circles, staying on worries in my mind, spinning around them, and I was going crazy with them. Since July 8, when it was the worst, it's slowly become better, and the dark is becoming normal to me again. Today, July 13, is almost normal again.
My boyfriend on the other hand, did not notice many bad side effects at all. He's had a bit of paranoia of the dark as well for the few nights I have, but it's gotten better for him. Aside from that, I seem to be the only one that had the bad effects.
Now I have a few questions, hope you didn't get bored of me recounting my experience...
Did I have a bad trip, considering the limb shaking, chills, sinking to the ground, slight hallucinations, and being "gone"?
When I was "gone", was it possible that I could have died, since my eyes were open, but I didn't see anything, didn't respond, and I wasn't even there?
Has anyone ever blacked out like I did even though their eyes were open?
Can I avoid these bad effects, or most of them, by taking a smaller dosage?
I noticed enhanced vision, wanting to dance, big sound, and my sense of touch and feeling was extremely heightened. I am not sure if I noticed a large urge to talk openly and freely as I'd heard of E, though perhaps it was due to the darkness and music that may have inhibited this. Is this normal, to not notice talking a lot more? Is it normal to not talk a lot more or be a lot more open when on E?
Is it possible this was not E at all but something else, since I didn't notice this effect?
I have done a lot more research this weekend since taking E on July 4. A lot of what people say is to treasure the first couple of trips because it will never be the same, the "magic" disappears. I am afraid that because I took so much the first time I ever took it, 5 pills at once, that if I ever do it again, there will be no magic, no feeling of closeness or profound love, no heightened vision and touch sensations that make E. If I ever do E again, I would only plan to do one, perhaps 1.5 pills, and I would take at least 3-6 months between trips.
Does anyone think the taking 5 pills to begin with, this first time, will ruin my subsequent E trips?
Has anyone had the experience of the "magic" dying?
Is the first trip always the most special?
Does taking a few months in between trips reduce tolerance and make each trip as special and amazing as the last?
Is there a such thing as each trip increasing tolerance over a lifetime, even though you may wait many months in between trips?
I regret now taking 5 pills at once, even though it was spread over 10 hours roughly. Does anyone think that I will never have a good, true E trip, because of this?
Are my chances of having a true E trip, the heightened touch, openness, loving up, gone because I took so much the first time?
I know these are a lot of questions, but this being my first time, and I believe that it was a less than positive time, I have a lot. I do hope you all can answer my questions, and I appreciate any insight you can offer, or extra information. Thanks!
At first, I was scared and disoriented as the first pill took effect since I didn't know what to expect. Then I calmed down and enjoyed the lights and visuals, seeing extremely clearly and just touching each other. Our sexual feelings were basically deadened, I am not sure if this is normal or not, any normally sexual part of our body was basically numb. Every other part of our body though of course was heightened and very sensual and extremely enjoyable.
For me the enjoyableness probably lasted until about 11 or 12, when I started just feeling hyper. Around 2am, my stomach started to feel sick even though I hadn't eaten anything. I was getting chills. I had jitters in my arms and legs, and extreme jaw clenching. I felt almost like I had Parkinson's with my limbs shaking a lot. My hearing sometimes tunnelled. I wasn't feeling good. When I got up sometimes I felt dizzy. As well, I got up to go to the bathroom, and at one point when I was standing against the counter, my legs felt like weights, I couldn't stand up, and I just slid down, my boyfriend had to help me to stand. He was helping me to the living room when again my legs gave out, and he held me up for almost five minutes, during which point I apparently left, as in my eyes were open, but I wasn't there. My boyfriend said my eyes were empty, even though they were open, no response, like I wasn't there. I don't remember any of this. He said it scared him a lot, and he was afraid for my safety. He said I was "gone" for a couple of minutes only, even though it seemed like forever. The next thing I remember, I was laying on the floor in the hallway, and he had kissed my forehead and lay with me. I opened my eyes, and hallucinated a bit, thinking I saw mice running up the door frame. I knew it wasn't real though so I wasn't afraid. I was then able to get up. I felt a bit dizzy but it wasn't too bad. I sat down on the couch and felt relatively normal. About 3am I got up to go to the bathroom, and while standing up I noticed the same feelings of my legs becoming heavy. I was afraid all of that was going to happen again, that my legs were going to give out. I rested on the toilet and was able to make it back, and my boyfriend was there had I needed help. The being "gone" and my legs giving out were the worst parts that night.
Over the next two days, we were unable to sleep at all. My boyfriend's vision was somewhat altered, but becoming more normal. I didn't feel hungry, but I felt extremely tired. Even lifting my arms above my head was a chore and tired me out. Two or three nights later, I became afraid of the dark, convinced something was going to jump out at me even though I knew there was nothing there. My boyfriend and I are in a long distance relationship, and so it was even worse when I came home on July 8 and was without him. The night of July 8, my thoughts were going on in circles, staying on worries in my mind, spinning around them, and I was going crazy with them. Since July 8, when it was the worst, it's slowly become better, and the dark is becoming normal to me again. Today, July 13, is almost normal again.
My boyfriend on the other hand, did not notice many bad side effects at all. He's had a bit of paranoia of the dark as well for the few nights I have, but it's gotten better for him. Aside from that, I seem to be the only one that had the bad effects.
Now I have a few questions, hope you didn't get bored of me recounting my experience...
Did I have a bad trip, considering the limb shaking, chills, sinking to the ground, slight hallucinations, and being "gone"?
When I was "gone", was it possible that I could have died, since my eyes were open, but I didn't see anything, didn't respond, and I wasn't even there?
Has anyone ever blacked out like I did even though their eyes were open?
Can I avoid these bad effects, or most of them, by taking a smaller dosage?
I noticed enhanced vision, wanting to dance, big sound, and my sense of touch and feeling was extremely heightened. I am not sure if I noticed a large urge to talk openly and freely as I'd heard of E, though perhaps it was due to the darkness and music that may have inhibited this. Is this normal, to not notice talking a lot more? Is it normal to not talk a lot more or be a lot more open when on E?
Is it possible this was not E at all but something else, since I didn't notice this effect?
I have done a lot more research this weekend since taking E on July 4. A lot of what people say is to treasure the first couple of trips because it will never be the same, the "magic" disappears. I am afraid that because I took so much the first time I ever took it, 5 pills at once, that if I ever do it again, there will be no magic, no feeling of closeness or profound love, no heightened vision and touch sensations that make E. If I ever do E again, I would only plan to do one, perhaps 1.5 pills, and I would take at least 3-6 months between trips.
Does anyone think the taking 5 pills to begin with, this first time, will ruin my subsequent E trips?
Has anyone had the experience of the "magic" dying?
Is the first trip always the most special?
Does taking a few months in between trips reduce tolerance and make each trip as special and amazing as the last?
Is there a such thing as each trip increasing tolerance over a lifetime, even though you may wait many months in between trips?
I regret now taking 5 pills at once, even though it was spread over 10 hours roughly. Does anyone think that I will never have a good, true E trip, because of this?
Are my chances of having a true E trip, the heightened touch, openness, loving up, gone because I took so much the first time?
I know these are a lot of questions, but this being my first time, and I believe that it was a less than positive time, I have a lot. I do hope you all can answer my questions, and I appreciate any insight you can offer, or extra information. Thanks!
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