5-Meo-DMT - First Time - New Years Eve, body language
Setting - We were having a new years eve party at our house, just me and "N" live here. We thought we would 'have a few people over' which turned into a little more than a few but it was all good!
Mind set - Well, I feel real good about myself lately. Even though I quit my job (which sucked anyway), had planned to move out quite a while ago because of certain reasons which don't really matter now (
) I was feeling good - happy about life no matter what problems come up, i'm optimistic. I've realised how much i've helped certain people out thoughout my life, and especially lately. I know, that, well, sex has been on my mind a LOT lately, i mean....arrghhh..i'm one horny guy lately. I used to be this shy dude in school blah blah blah, and well, I've been going out to clubs about every weekend like an animal looking for some beautiful peace of ..delicious meat to suck on and ..argghh just go nuts with.
So, before most people come over, as the hundreds of "jello shots" were being made, "N" and two other people said they would like me to um, label four of them for "psychedelic" and put a couple mL's of my vodka with some 2C-E into them (just 4mg 2c-e per 'shot' or person) so we could eat them and not tell anyone else that we had a 'lil 2c-e. One other friend of "N"s had come into my room and asked me if I had any mushrooms (he did not know that we had just eaten the 2c-e, I said no but...let me "consult N" and see what I can do. I asked "N" what she thought and well I measured out a 10mg capsule of 2C-I for him, which he gladly ate and had fun throughout the night.
All of us were having fun the whole night (as far as i know and can tell), "N" who had not tripped in years seemed to be having a blast from just the 4mg 2c-e, she had tripped with "the wrong people" in her teenage years and was not at all open to any kind of "trippy" substance until we moved into this house together and lived with me %) She would smoke pot (which is psychedelic), but it wasn't until this new years eve that she decided she actually wanted to again, after watching me with my friends countless times, consuming 'god knows what' substances, always being fine, no "freak outs" here, and I do it more for insight on life, to 'figure out things', rather than just fun, although they usually are fun. Basically she trusted me and wanted to, and I was going to be keeping an eye on everyone who had taken the "special jello shots" or 2C-I. It was all good.
I had measured out just under 10mg of 5-meo-dmt into a small pipe, which I knew wasn't the right pipe to smoke out of, but, oh well. Soon after midnight, i went and got the pipe, and I made an announcement to the room that "N" was in with many other mostly drunk people, that, "Hi everyone, I am going to smoke some of this new stuff and...i might...BECOME GOD! And then, I might just fuck the universe for 20 minutes I don't really know, so If i am unresponsive on the chair for a while, dont worry, i'm just having a 'giant orgasm with the universe' ". I was somewhat intoxicated from alcohol and a tiny tiny bit from 2c-e (the others felt it more). I took one 'decent' hit, and I know I did not smoke the full 10mg, it melted and left residue, but whatever hit I got this is what it was like, well, as much as i can describe in words:
After about 20 seconds or so, i blew out the smoke, which wasn't really THAT much smoke. A rush of something was coming over me that mostly reminds me of smoking IAP! I was not blown out of the universe or anything, and I didn't get much in the way visually (some trails, color enhancement), BUT, I got up and walked around, and basically the english language as i knew it, well I didnt know it anymore
I was in a state of ...ecstasy, everyone around me sounded like gibberish, like they could have spoke in any foreign language and really it didnt matter, I walked around, just observing people in the room "N" was in, someone might have asked me something like "so are you god dude" (something like it, i have no clue though) and i think i just gave a thumbs up, I knew basically what the person was asking, from body language. It sounded like people were talking in "high speed", like time was going faster, or maybe it was just like when I listen to someone speak in a foreign language, how it sounds "fast" if you don't know the language. I didnt know english, and it was much fun, LOL.
Throughout the entire night, there was this one ...oh so hot girl there, "C", who I was um, well, my penis grew larger when near her and I had gotten her attention a lot through the night and blah de dah dahh. Anyway, I guess what the 5-meo-dmt was doing to me (I had smoked more of it a few more times through the night), seemed like it was "shutting off logical thinking" or "shutting off my left brain" letting my right side take over, body language and emotion coming out like never before, I made sure to give that 'lil hottie "C" many hugs and "i wanna fuck you" signals via body language and other ways throughout the night, while under the influence of the drug and when it wore off too. I gave "N" plenty of hugs and made sure to shout "I AM ....JESUS!" to the croud of drunk and/or on 2c-e people in a room to give them some laughs.
Now something that was really incredible, for me, was how I was able to dance! I normally cannot do what I did this night sober - it just never works right. Multitasking like never before! Normally its very hard to do two independent things with each hand, like, how people play the piano - each hand doing its own thing at the same time. With me its like a computer, my mind switching back and forth between different tasks, I don't hate to dance, I just suck at it. Well dammit I wish I had a camera on me this night (to see if i actually WAS dancing as good as i felt, LOL) , cause I had my feet flying all over the floor, moving to some certain beat(s) of the sound, while my hands and rest of my body did something else "artsy", one hand using my cell phone lit up to give sort of a "light show" to "N" because I knew she could see tracers from the 2c-e, it was so effortless, to do many things with my body, so "fluid" (a LOT like mdma, but BETTER!) all at the same time, I can't explain this feeling....and why should I? I mean how can you?
No one else really was dancing around much besides me and "N" that I can recall, I felt very disinhibited, not in a "i dont give a shit what i do" way, but, more like not afraid to act like the wierdo I am (hehe) and just be happy and let it all out, take advantage of what was given to me by whatever the drug had done. I was dancing for what seemed like long after the drugs effects had wore off (english comes back, all that, within..10-15 mins? maybe even 5? i wasn't keeping track of time really..)
Every time I had hit the pipe, the same thing happened, the english language would not exist, I did not think in words, but it seems like every bit of "ME" was still there, I remember hitting it once later on during the night, and just observing "N" even though I did not understand english in the kitchen, I think I was just making sure she was doing ok on her trip (mild, 4mg 2c-e, but it definitely was a 'trip'), everything was clear, super clear, about my environment and myself, but, it was like, letters had the same meaning as a foreign language on the TV screen, and spoken words were the same way. An "eyes wide open" effect that I really can't explain, content to be there and observe things in this state. I typed up there that every bit of "ME" was still there, yet, i felt totally connected to everyone else and the universe at the same time. I think I had asked "N" how she was doing when "english came back", and all I really could say about smoking 5-meo-dmt was that it was "beautiful" and that i can't explain it .
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I know I must have not had had a "breakthrough" experience, probably because of the pipe I was smoking out of, but what had happened was great, and took me by total suprise, I had not experienced this loss of "logical thinking" and the language I knew/spoke like this before, while having such mild visuals and such a feeling of emphathy towards others, and a "push" towards using body language and dancing/multitasking, more "primitive" animal like behavior when it came to other people and, um, activity relating to sex - no i did not have sex that night but this great "push" towards using body language to transmit/receive "messages" seemed to be the "theme" for the experiences smoking it this night.
I have been remembering a LOT of dreams at night, for months now, about, well, the opposite sex...having sex...well just anything relating to that. Obviously my head must be up to something (no pun intended
). I do not know if smoking 5-meo-dmt does this to a lot of people, where language/speaking/reading/logic kind of goes in the background, and this body language....well everything else comes out.. thing happens or not? I mean 'logic'.. well.. never during these experiences would I have acted unlike myself - for example, I won't go into details cause thats not what i'm trying to do in in 'trip report' but that hot chick "C" was getting pretty drunk, she obviously 'wanted some', she was acting 'sexual' towards many guys. She had asked how old I was blah blah "oh you must have a lot of sex then! I looove sex" or "so and so wont have sex with me - would you have sex with me Tom? (me)" - I wouldn't have taken advantage of her, no matter how horny I was, cause, well, thats just me, at most I would have cuddled some and said well your drunk so I can't do that although I want to ! LOL. I would take a hit, not understand english, but the only way I would act "different", is that "more of me" or more of the "other side" of me would come out, not forced, but I was able to bring it out uninhibited, able to dance in front of 'whoever'.
I'll be putting this one next to mushrooms, LSD, 2C-E, on my um, "the best" list! I will try to use a different smoking device next so I can take in a full dose and see how that is.
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Setting - We were having a new years eve party at our house, just me and "N" live here. We thought we would 'have a few people over' which turned into a little more than a few but it was all good!
Mind set - Well, I feel real good about myself lately. Even though I quit my job (which sucked anyway), had planned to move out quite a while ago because of certain reasons which don't really matter now (
) I was feeling good - happy about life no matter what problems come up, i'm optimistic. I've realised how much i've helped certain people out thoughout my life, and especially lately. I know, that, well, sex has been on my mind a LOT lately, i mean....arrghhh..i'm one horny guy lately. I used to be this shy dude in school blah blah blah, and well, I've been going out to clubs about every weekend like an animal looking for some beautiful peace of ..delicious meat to suck on and ..argghh just go nuts with.So, before most people come over, as the hundreds of "jello shots" were being made, "N" and two other people said they would like me to um, label four of them for "psychedelic" and put a couple mL's of my vodka with some 2C-E into them (just 4mg 2c-e per 'shot' or person) so we could eat them and not tell anyone else that we had a 'lil 2c-e. One other friend of "N"s had come into my room and asked me if I had any mushrooms (he did not know that we had just eaten the 2c-e, I said no but...let me "consult N" and see what I can do. I asked "N" what she thought and well I measured out a 10mg capsule of 2C-I for him, which he gladly ate and had fun throughout the night.
All of us were having fun the whole night (as far as i know and can tell), "N" who had not tripped in years seemed to be having a blast from just the 4mg 2c-e, she had tripped with "the wrong people" in her teenage years and was not at all open to any kind of "trippy" substance until we moved into this house together and lived with me %) She would smoke pot (which is psychedelic), but it wasn't until this new years eve that she decided she actually wanted to again, after watching me with my friends countless times, consuming 'god knows what' substances, always being fine, no "freak outs" here, and I do it more for insight on life, to 'figure out things', rather than just fun, although they usually are fun. Basically she trusted me and wanted to, and I was going to be keeping an eye on everyone who had taken the "special jello shots" or 2C-I. It was all good.
I had measured out just under 10mg of 5-meo-dmt into a small pipe, which I knew wasn't the right pipe to smoke out of, but, oh well. Soon after midnight, i went and got the pipe, and I made an announcement to the room that "N" was in with many other mostly drunk people, that, "Hi everyone, I am going to smoke some of this new stuff and...i might...BECOME GOD! And then, I might just fuck the universe for 20 minutes I don't really know, so If i am unresponsive on the chair for a while, dont worry, i'm just having a 'giant orgasm with the universe' ". I was somewhat intoxicated from alcohol and a tiny tiny bit from 2c-e (the others felt it more). I took one 'decent' hit, and I know I did not smoke the full 10mg, it melted and left residue, but whatever hit I got this is what it was like, well, as much as i can describe in words:
After about 20 seconds or so, i blew out the smoke, which wasn't really THAT much smoke. A rush of something was coming over me that mostly reminds me of smoking IAP! I was not blown out of the universe or anything, and I didn't get much in the way visually (some trails, color enhancement), BUT, I got up and walked around, and basically the english language as i knew it, well I didnt know it anymore
I was in a state of ...ecstasy, everyone around me sounded like gibberish, like they could have spoke in any foreign language and really it didnt matter, I walked around, just observing people in the room "N" was in, someone might have asked me something like "so are you god dude" (something like it, i have no clue though) and i think i just gave a thumbs up, I knew basically what the person was asking, from body language. It sounded like people were talking in "high speed", like time was going faster, or maybe it was just like when I listen to someone speak in a foreign language, how it sounds "fast" if you don't know the language. I didnt know english, and it was much fun, LOL.Throughout the entire night, there was this one ...oh so hot girl there, "C", who I was um, well, my penis grew larger when near her and I had gotten her attention a lot through the night and blah de dah dahh. Anyway, I guess what the 5-meo-dmt was doing to me (I had smoked more of it a few more times through the night), seemed like it was "shutting off logical thinking" or "shutting off my left brain" letting my right side take over, body language and emotion coming out like never before, I made sure to give that 'lil hottie "C" many hugs and "i wanna fuck you" signals via body language and other ways throughout the night, while under the influence of the drug and when it wore off too. I gave "N" plenty of hugs and made sure to shout "I AM ....JESUS!" to the croud of drunk and/or on 2c-e people in a room to give them some laughs.
Now something that was really incredible, for me, was how I was able to dance! I normally cannot do what I did this night sober - it just never works right. Multitasking like never before! Normally its very hard to do two independent things with each hand, like, how people play the piano - each hand doing its own thing at the same time. With me its like a computer, my mind switching back and forth between different tasks, I don't hate to dance, I just suck at it. Well dammit I wish I had a camera on me this night (to see if i actually WAS dancing as good as i felt, LOL) , cause I had my feet flying all over the floor, moving to some certain beat(s) of the sound, while my hands and rest of my body did something else "artsy", one hand using my cell phone lit up to give sort of a "light show" to "N" because I knew she could see tracers from the 2c-e, it was so effortless, to do many things with my body, so "fluid" (a LOT like mdma, but BETTER!) all at the same time, I can't explain this feeling....and why should I? I mean how can you?
No one else really was dancing around much besides me and "N" that I can recall, I felt very disinhibited, not in a "i dont give a shit what i do" way, but, more like not afraid to act like the wierdo I am (hehe) and just be happy and let it all out, take advantage of what was given to me by whatever the drug had done. I was dancing for what seemed like long after the drugs effects had wore off (english comes back, all that, within..10-15 mins? maybe even 5? i wasn't keeping track of time really..)
Every time I had hit the pipe, the same thing happened, the english language would not exist, I did not think in words, but it seems like every bit of "ME" was still there, I remember hitting it once later on during the night, and just observing "N" even though I did not understand english in the kitchen, I think I was just making sure she was doing ok on her trip (mild, 4mg 2c-e, but it definitely was a 'trip'), everything was clear, super clear, about my environment and myself, but, it was like, letters had the same meaning as a foreign language on the TV screen, and spoken words were the same way. An "eyes wide open" effect that I really can't explain, content to be there and observe things in this state. I typed up there that every bit of "ME" was still there, yet, i felt totally connected to everyone else and the universe at the same time. I think I had asked "N" how she was doing when "english came back", and all I really could say about smoking 5-meo-dmt was that it was "beautiful" and that i can't explain it
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I know I must have not had had a "breakthrough" experience, probably because of the pipe I was smoking out of, but what had happened was great, and took me by total suprise, I had not experienced this loss of "logical thinking" and the language I knew/spoke like this before, while having such mild visuals and such a feeling of emphathy towards others, and a "push" towards using body language and dancing/multitasking, more "primitive" animal like behavior when it came to other people and, um, activity relating to sex - no i did not have sex that night but this great "push" towards using body language to transmit/receive "messages" seemed to be the "theme" for the experiences smoking it this night.
I have been remembering a LOT of dreams at night, for months now, about, well, the opposite sex...having sex...well just anything relating to that. Obviously my head must be up to something (no pun intended
). I do not know if smoking 5-meo-dmt does this to a lot of people, where language/speaking/reading/logic kind of goes in the background, and this body language....well everything else comes out.. thing happens or not? I mean 'logic'.. well.. never during these experiences would I have acted unlike myself - for example, I won't go into details cause thats not what i'm trying to do in in 'trip report' but that hot chick "C" was getting pretty drunk, she obviously 'wanted some', she was acting 'sexual' towards many guys. She had asked how old I was blah blah "oh you must have a lot of sex then! I looove sex" or "so and so wont have sex with me - would you have sex with me Tom? (me)" - I wouldn't have taken advantage of her, no matter how horny I was, cause, well, thats just me, at most I would have cuddled some and said well your drunk so I can't do that although I want to ! LOL. I would take a hit, not understand english, but the only way I would act "different", is that "more of me" or more of the "other side" of me would come out, not forced, but I was able to bring it out uninhibited, able to dance in front of 'whoever'.I'll be putting this one next to mushrooms, LSD, 2C-E, on my um, "the best" list! I will try to use a different smoking device next so I can take in a full dose and see how that is.
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