4grams mushies(cubes) - inexperienced - am i dead?

[Blazinballs]

Last night a close good buddy my wife and a mutaul friend ate some cubes. I had 4 as did my good buddy wife had 2 and other friend had 3. Lets call my good buddy K myself J and wife G.

This would be my third real trip I had eatin a small amount before but nothing could have ever prepared me for the events that where about to happen. The cubes were ground in to a powder and I enjested them in one big gulp of oj.
At about t+30 there was no slow come up it was like one second I was talking then next minute I was off in a deep trip. We put some music on it was aparent to me M was not having a smooth trip and he got up and left room that made me nervous even though I was triping hard i still at that time some how new he wasnt ok wich was interfearing with my trip there was about 15-20 minutes I was gone to the world during music session Im not gonna try and describe the CEVs they were so intense language is to primitive to describe them.


K had eatin his with a pb and j samwich so he wasnt digging the music all that much because he wasnt at peak yet do to M being in other room I was worried for him and turned on the lights and turned music off and he returned from other room.

At this point I was very confussed I could not for the life of me stop yawning I felt so sleepy so did G wierd the visuals were crasy the tv was like a portal of light in a flowing plasma. We all couldnt sit still I kept roaminjg the house i had a deep feeling of emptyness like i had forgotten who I was at this point i felt a very strong presence of good and evil though i cant remeber what evil looked like it was like it was tauting me some point around now we put in the animatrix and that was a life savor for the whole 2 hours I felt liek i was a warrior of some sort acting out a video game i felt involved and felt the stresses of combat as if i were some how a part of the matrix LOL LOL!!!!!

There were points I lost it and was in a lucid dream state during the animatrix madness but very pleasurable and amazing i was mubuling stuff to my self the whole time.

After the animatrix we all got up and were talking if you wanna call it that and I for the life of me could ,not figure out what was going on from that poinnt for another hour and a half I thought I could have died I felt like I was a lost spirit they were watching a movie and luaghing but i couldnt make sence of it.

I thought maybe we were all dead maybe we ate the wrong kind of mushrooms and we all didnt know what had happend.I was trying to find a way to prove I was alive I couldnt think man it was like I had lost my mind I wonderd if i had gone insane if I had realy died fianly I snapped to and finished of the movie and talked it was strange trip maybe I wasnt ready for 4 grams.

As dark as the trip seems on paper I was never realy afriad more confused some positive came out of it even though I was never in danger today I feel gratefull im alive and almost as if I was given a second chance ha.

All and all we all had a good trip was more of a mind fuck for me for a while but some parts were fantastic I learned a new respect for the mushroom and will never for get that night..

Thanks for reading my trip reports usauly suck lol and my bad grammar

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[justanotherperson]

i am so glad someone else also experienced the paradox of death! :D

want leads to fear, which leads to confusion.
therefore, remove the skin of wanting, and just be
all your wants and desires, will flow free