Background: I had taken a trial dose of 11 mg one week beforehand as my first time trying psychedelics, and felt a slight mood lift with some color, pattern, and tactile enhancement. I felt I was now ready to try a full-on trip.
Despite the somewhat difficult second half, I feel it was a beneficial experience. Although not quite as visual as I expected, it was still a pleasant, clearheaded trip with some beautiful sights and incredible euphoria early on. Even at its most challenging, it was gentle enough for me to calm down and pull myself back up. I’d like to revisit this substance in a month or so.
2:30pm, Sunday: I take my dose, 24.2 mg, orally with some black tea.- 2:50: Color saturation is way up, and I feel like I’m accelerating forward.
- 3:10: Patterned surfaces, such as clothing fabric, really start to pop. Faint glowing, wavy outlines decorate some of them, especially the letters on my computer monitor, as well as the keyboard keys. Waves of chills and euphoria set in.
3:30-4:00: I’m in a sweater under the covers to beat the chills. I can’t help but smile as wave after wave of euphoria sweep over me. This is absolutely wonderful
. After ten minutes or so, I get restless and decide to put on some music. It sounds lovely, almost electrical, with highs and lows touching off blissful feelings that taper to tingling sensations in my fingertips. Bright tracers occasionally dot my vision. An intricate, faint “frosted glass” pattern overlays everything. Wood grain seems to waver and twist, and music seems to echo and fade with it. I then went into the bathroom with the lights off to bring the visuals out some more. I see little sparks pepper my vision, and from below, faint candles that grow and condense to light gray pillars of light, with narrow outlines. These seem to pulse in intensity and switch places. The “frosted glass” overlay from earlier reemerged as well. Oddly enough, all these visuals were colorless. Moving my head side to side dragged the scene with it. Outlines of the shapes in the room seemed to swap places.
4:00-5:00: I go outside to take a walk. My thoughts start to race as there are many other people out on the park trail, but I manage to calm down. Visuals have backed off now aside from some gentle distortion of perspective in the landscape. I sit down at a bench on an overlook and just chill for a while. I feel remarkably clear headed, and spend some time just thinking about how I’m feeling and my plans for the future. Some faint tracers and colored lines overlay the sky and landscape.- 5:00-6:00: The sun is getting low, and my mood suddenly nosedives as negative thoughts about my responsibilities for the coming week at work take over. I feel exhausted, with a bit of a headache as I head back home; I’m ready for the trip to be over. I put on some music again at home, and it helps me relax somewhat. Distortions and CEVs continue; closing my eyes, I see grids of gray lines that would rotate into different alignments relative to each other (like two lattice planes in a crystal meeting each other at an angle). The bottom of my field of view seemed to glow, and teardrop-shaped white lights arranged themselves in a ring on the periphery of my vision.
6:00-7:00. I start cooking dinner to put my mind at ease. The trip begins to wrap up here; surfaces are becoming less wavy, patterns are becoming less pronounced, and my thoughts slow back down to a normal pace as my mood improves again.- 7:00-8:00. I’m eating dinner, and I’ve mostly come down. Colors have faded back to normal, and only a lingering “spacey” sensation remains. The next morning I wake up and feel completely normal.
Despite the somewhat difficult second half, I feel it was a beneficial experience. Although not quite as visual as I expected, it was still a pleasant, clearheaded trip with some beautiful sights and incredible euphoria early on. Even at its most challenging, it was gentle enough for me to calm down and pull myself back up. I’d like to revisit this substance in a month or so.
