Boatgirl151
Greenlighter
third attempt at quiting
I've been taking perc 30's every day for a year now, it started at just 1 and increased 2 pills/day during the last 4 months. It doesn't sound like a lot but I'm a 105lb girl and have an emotional attachment to them.![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
I've tried to stop 2 other times with suboxone. I'd get a burst of energy after taking it but then crash an hour later. I would be out cold for the rest of the day no matter how small of a dose I'd take. I tried to not take anything the next day but I have a very demanding schedule and I'd eventually get too frustrated and relapse. My question is about my recent attempt where the suboxone felt different for me.
I took 1.5/2 mg of suboxone for the first 3 days and felt great. I understand that some people need to take 12mg or more but it doesn't make my situation any less of a problem. I've lost a lot of trust from loved ones but can't seem to pull myself away completely...
Anyways, the first day I took it, I felt amazingly good. I was able to get out of bed and even felt inspired to go for a walk. A friend of mine gave me 5- 20mg time release adderalls to help me through this and I would take 1 as I felt the "motivation" part of the sub wear off (about 3 hours later). It helped me go to work with a positive attitude, I wasn't super women nor did I expect myself to be but I was able to get something done so I wouldn't feel like a bum. The next 2 days I was able to get out of bed, make a healthy breakfast, go for a walk, and even plan for the day. I wouldn't even do that if I was on percs! I did the same thing of taking an adderall 3 hours after the sub.
I didn't want to exhaust myself so I only allowed myself to work 5hours (I normally work 10) and go home to do some light chores and relax. The 4rd day was even better and went for a 3 mile run in the morning, I felt like a new person. I never another dose of adderall because I didn't want to exhaust my body and starting taking vitamins to rebuild my health and heal my brain.
At day 5, it stopped for me. The suboxone no longer gave me motivation and I would sit on the edge of my bed waiting for something to kick in, waiting for my legs to go. I kept telling myself "mind over matter" and that I was thinking too much about it and forced myself to go for a run. I got back exhausted and ended up falling asleep. I didn't want to get down on myself so I took the day off, relaxed, and stayed positive but the same thing happened the next day. I hibernated at home, wouldn't talk to anyone and started to get anxious. The first time I tried to quit was hell. I locked myself in my apartment for almost a month and was in servere depression. I'm trying really hard to stay positive but its hard.
I did some research and found a lot of people experience the same thing. I know I can't rely on suboxone as I would be replacing one addiction for another but at the same time, it's not the same thing. It's not like I'm taking 10 doses a day because I want more of it and I think it's okay to be one it while you get into a healthy routine.
I'm now on day 10 now. I'm able to peel myself out of the house for a couple hours but I soon retreat back home into my cave. My brain is so foggy and it's hard to think. I'm a manager at a restaurant and my brain literally hurts when I'm thinking. I'm also very tired and have to take naps whenever possible and just feel like an emotionless zombie. I understand that this is normal when quitting but is it normal when you're using suboxone? I also get hot flashes and am now adjusting my dose because I thought that maybe I wasn't stable. I'm also all out of adderall, it's fine though as I don't enjoy them after the suboxone stopped working. They made me too anxious.
This is my daily regimen is a multi vitamin, fish oil, vitamin B- complex, L-tyrosine, and St. John's wort. I recently heard that St Johns wort interacts with suboxone in a negative way so I stopped that yesterday. I'm thinking about getting an addrenall support to combat my fatigue, any thoughts? I also see a therapist as I really want to get better...
I'm sorry for the essay, thank you to anyone who's taken the time to read this.
I really appreciate it. I started to text my dealer today 
but somehow mustered the strength to not send it. %) We'll see how it goes tomorrow though..
Dont mind the emoji's, i think theyre so funny..
I've been taking perc 30's every day for a year now, it started at just 1 and increased 2 pills/day during the last 4 months. It doesn't sound like a lot but I'm a 105lb girl and have an emotional attachment to them.
I've tried to stop 2 other times with suboxone. I'd get a burst of energy after taking it but then crash an hour later. I would be out cold for the rest of the day no matter how small of a dose I'd take. I tried to not take anything the next day but I have a very demanding schedule and I'd eventually get too frustrated and relapse. My question is about my recent attempt where the suboxone felt different for me.
I took 1.5/2 mg of suboxone for the first 3 days and felt great. I understand that some people need to take 12mg or more but it doesn't make my situation any less of a problem. I've lost a lot of trust from loved ones but can't seem to pull myself away completely...
Anyways, the first day I took it, I felt amazingly good. I was able to get out of bed and even felt inspired to go for a walk. A friend of mine gave me 5- 20mg time release adderalls to help me through this and I would take 1 as I felt the "motivation" part of the sub wear off (about 3 hours later). It helped me go to work with a positive attitude, I wasn't super women nor did I expect myself to be but I was able to get something done so I wouldn't feel like a bum. The next 2 days I was able to get out of bed, make a healthy breakfast, go for a walk, and even plan for the day. I wouldn't even do that if I was on percs! I did the same thing of taking an adderall 3 hours after the sub.
I didn't want to exhaust myself so I only allowed myself to work 5hours (I normally work 10) and go home to do some light chores and relax. The 4rd day was even better and went for a 3 mile run in the morning, I felt like a new person. I never another dose of adderall because I didn't want to exhaust my body and starting taking vitamins to rebuild my health and heal my brain.
At day 5, it stopped for me. The suboxone no longer gave me motivation and I would sit on the edge of my bed waiting for something to kick in, waiting for my legs to go. I kept telling myself "mind over matter" and that I was thinking too much about it and forced myself to go for a run. I got back exhausted and ended up falling asleep. I didn't want to get down on myself so I took the day off, relaxed, and stayed positive but the same thing happened the next day. I hibernated at home, wouldn't talk to anyone and started to get anxious. The first time I tried to quit was hell. I locked myself in my apartment for almost a month and was in servere depression. I'm trying really hard to stay positive but its hard.
I did some research and found a lot of people experience the same thing. I know I can't rely on suboxone as I would be replacing one addiction for another but at the same time, it's not the same thing. It's not like I'm taking 10 doses a day because I want more of it and I think it's okay to be one it while you get into a healthy routine.
I'm now on day 10 now. I'm able to peel myself out of the house for a couple hours but I soon retreat back home into my cave. My brain is so foggy and it's hard to think. I'm a manager at a restaurant and my brain literally hurts when I'm thinking. I'm also very tired and have to take naps whenever possible and just feel like an emotionless zombie. I understand that this is normal when quitting but is it normal when you're using suboxone? I also get hot flashes and am now adjusting my dose because I thought that maybe I wasn't stable. I'm also all out of adderall, it's fine though as I don't enjoy them after the suboxone stopped working. They made me too anxious.
This is my daily regimen is a multi vitamin, fish oil, vitamin B- complex, L-tyrosine, and St. John's wort. I recently heard that St Johns wort interacts with suboxone in a negative way so I stopped that yesterday. I'm thinking about getting an addrenall support to combat my fatigue, any thoughts? I also see a therapist as I really want to get better...
I'm sorry for the essay, thank you to anyone who's taken the time to read this.
I really appreciate it. I started to text my dealer today but somehow mustered the strength to not send it. %) We'll see how it goes tomorrow though..Dont mind the emoji's, i think theyre so funny..
