Lost Ego
Bluelighter
This trip happened 2 years ago and i dont recall much about times and how long things took to happen (i'll still try) but i remember alot of it so vividly... So, i was aching to try a new drug and my online friend suggested dxm, i found the faq online and decided it was certainly the drug for me. I weighed about 200 at that time. I went to longs and bought 3 bottles of some primo dxm. That night i drank a bottle and a half (with my parents and sister home lol...)
+30 mins later i wasnt feeling anything and my online friend(we'll call him x) who was dosing had taken a 2nd bottle so i decided to finish my 2nd. about 15 mins later i began feeling nice and stoned and i told myself that i wanted to get much, much higher, so i went into the bathroom and chugged that extra 3rd bottle that i had gotten just in case. i sat back down on the computer and discussed the initial stoned and relaxed feelings that we were experiencing.
+1:00 i think i recall my visuals starting to turn double and everything became cloudy. i had some good trance playing and whenever i closed my eyes i witnessed some epic visuals that danced to the music.
+1:20 i was sitting in my computer chair. everything turned to a shade of white or something like that and i started feeling like my body was being pulled left, right, up and down. I would close my eyes and see vague hallucinations, i was aware that i was inducing the hallucinations myself by closing my eyes. i remember seeing a line and then another, which then formed a cross hair like for a sniper and then behind the crosshairs appeared a road with a car driving by. i was an assassin! it was a pretty cool visualization. when i opened my eyes i began describing the experience to x who was also having a great time. it was hard to type and my motor functions seemed off, i had to retype sentences like 10 times to make them look half right and my fingers were unable to move fast. i felt part paralyzed lol.
+1:40 or so: whatever was going on in real life is very unclear. the music was overwhelming and everything started to blurr together. i noticed my heartbeat dissapear - which i had already read about online, so i didnt panic, my sinuses cleared and i didnt feel anything very unpleasant other than a leg muscle which seemed to spazz a little bit and felt odd... anywho i couldnt really control the hallucinations, they would come as the pleased. i remember vividly going from enjoy the music to losing all form and going into a room which was completely white, like the training room in dragon ball z. all i could see was a throne, which i was sitting in and i was watching myself. everything was very quiet even though i had headphones in my ears with music pumping out of them. and then suddenly i watched myself quickly melt into a white puddle of goo with my clothes lying on top of the white goo in front of the throne. i drifted into another hallucination where i watched a gondola/canoe getting rowed through an amazon river with forest all around it by an asian man with a straw hat on.
+1:50 i again tryed my mightiest to communicate this to x which was hard cause i saw 2 of everything still and everything was whitish.
+2:00 i remember being sittin in my chair looking at the winamp visualization and suddenly god came from behind me with his arms under my armpits and pulled what seemed to be my soul/ego out of my chair. i was lifted out of my body, i was looking down on my body and then lifted through my roof and up through the sky. i dont clearly remember anything from this point on. i think i was having a conversation with god up in heaven. i do know that mom had been yelling down to me to go to bed and had come downstairs to find me blindly looking at a computer screen. she was yelling in my ear and thought i was ignoring her so she turned off the computer and went back to her room and said to get to bed. i was kinda in shock and confused.
+2:10 this is where it all went downhill. i started my descent up the stairs and when i reached the top i could hear my mom say to come into her room and talk to her. i struggled for for what felt like 5 minutes to try to open her door, but my impaired motor functions wouldnt allow me to turn her door handle and all i managed was to make the handle wiggle bag and forth. i resolved and decided to just say "fuck it" and i walked in my room, sat on the edge of my bed, where i assume from all the movement i had gotten motion sickness, which i heard happens often when on dxm, and i threw up what looked like a gallon of red stuff. i then layed on my bed and decided to try to just sleep. my mom walked in to find the scene and started freaking out. i didnt wanna open my eyes but when she made me she saw my pupils bouncing back and forth. i told her i was sick and wanted to be left alone but that didnt work, she thought i had tryed to kill myself and had od'ed. she found the 3 bottles of robo, 2 in my closet, 1 in a trashcan.
+2:30 i got sent to the hospital and the ambulance was sooo fuckin comfy. the hospital bed was comfy too and the blanket was sooo warm which kept putting me to sleep. all the staff thought i was funny and laughed at my antics. my mom called my dad and had rushed down to the hospital. i had F'ed up. i spent the next 3 hours with double vision with my mom and dad in the room, i got sick of the double vision and just kept 1 eye closed to make it go away. i'm not sure if this was a hallucination or not but i think i recall a nurse and doctor flirting and possibly fooling around in my room when it was just me in there. i dont recall much, i was exhausted and lapsed in and out of sleep. i also had a sick old lady sharing the room with me, seperated by a curtain. after an hour or so there i was aware of her presence and she hella tried flurting with me, "wanna see my mammograms?". at the end of my stay i got to see what she looked like lol, i was shocked. i guess dxm slows your breathing, my machine kept beeping at me cause i wasnt breathing enough. it really sucked having my mom crying on my bed and my dad looking down at me like i was a pile of shit. i got to leave at 5 am so i musta gotten some of the times wrong cause i think i recall dosing at 10. oh yeah and my hearing was sharpened to extremes.
All in all, i still think it was worth it, i really enjoyed dxm but im not gonna do it again til i move out. it was heckkka fun and hopefully i can finish my conversation with god next time.
+30 mins later i wasnt feeling anything and my online friend(we'll call him x) who was dosing had taken a 2nd bottle so i decided to finish my 2nd. about 15 mins later i began feeling nice and stoned and i told myself that i wanted to get much, much higher, so i went into the bathroom and chugged that extra 3rd bottle that i had gotten just in case. i sat back down on the computer and discussed the initial stoned and relaxed feelings that we were experiencing.
+1:00 i think i recall my visuals starting to turn double and everything became cloudy. i had some good trance playing and whenever i closed my eyes i witnessed some epic visuals that danced to the music.
+1:20 i was sitting in my computer chair. everything turned to a shade of white or something like that and i started feeling like my body was being pulled left, right, up and down. I would close my eyes and see vague hallucinations, i was aware that i was inducing the hallucinations myself by closing my eyes. i remember seeing a line and then another, which then formed a cross hair like for a sniper and then behind the crosshairs appeared a road with a car driving by. i was an assassin! it was a pretty cool visualization. when i opened my eyes i began describing the experience to x who was also having a great time. it was hard to type and my motor functions seemed off, i had to retype sentences like 10 times to make them look half right and my fingers were unable to move fast. i felt part paralyzed lol.
+1:40 or so: whatever was going on in real life is very unclear. the music was overwhelming and everything started to blurr together. i noticed my heartbeat dissapear - which i had already read about online, so i didnt panic, my sinuses cleared and i didnt feel anything very unpleasant other than a leg muscle which seemed to spazz a little bit and felt odd... anywho i couldnt really control the hallucinations, they would come as the pleased. i remember vividly going from enjoy the music to losing all form and going into a room which was completely white, like the training room in dragon ball z. all i could see was a throne, which i was sitting in and i was watching myself. everything was very quiet even though i had headphones in my ears with music pumping out of them. and then suddenly i watched myself quickly melt into a white puddle of goo with my clothes lying on top of the white goo in front of the throne. i drifted into another hallucination where i watched a gondola/canoe getting rowed through an amazon river with forest all around it by an asian man with a straw hat on.
+1:50 i again tryed my mightiest to communicate this to x which was hard cause i saw 2 of everything still and everything was whitish.
+2:00 i remember being sittin in my chair looking at the winamp visualization and suddenly god came from behind me with his arms under my armpits and pulled what seemed to be my soul/ego out of my chair. i was lifted out of my body, i was looking down on my body and then lifted through my roof and up through the sky. i dont clearly remember anything from this point on. i think i was having a conversation with god up in heaven. i do know that mom had been yelling down to me to go to bed and had come downstairs to find me blindly looking at a computer screen. she was yelling in my ear and thought i was ignoring her so she turned off the computer and went back to her room and said to get to bed. i was kinda in shock and confused.
+2:10 this is where it all went downhill. i started my descent up the stairs and when i reached the top i could hear my mom say to come into her room and talk to her. i struggled for for what felt like 5 minutes to try to open her door, but my impaired motor functions wouldnt allow me to turn her door handle and all i managed was to make the handle wiggle bag and forth. i resolved and decided to just say "fuck it" and i walked in my room, sat on the edge of my bed, where i assume from all the movement i had gotten motion sickness, which i heard happens often when on dxm, and i threw up what looked like a gallon of red stuff. i then layed on my bed and decided to try to just sleep. my mom walked in to find the scene and started freaking out. i didnt wanna open my eyes but when she made me she saw my pupils bouncing back and forth. i told her i was sick and wanted to be left alone but that didnt work, she thought i had tryed to kill myself and had od'ed. she found the 3 bottles of robo, 2 in my closet, 1 in a trashcan.
+2:30 i got sent to the hospital and the ambulance was sooo fuckin comfy. the hospital bed was comfy too and the blanket was sooo warm which kept putting me to sleep. all the staff thought i was funny and laughed at my antics. my mom called my dad and had rushed down to the hospital. i had F'ed up. i spent the next 3 hours with double vision with my mom and dad in the room, i got sick of the double vision and just kept 1 eye closed to make it go away. i'm not sure if this was a hallucination or not but i think i recall a nurse and doctor flirting and possibly fooling around in my room when it was just me in there. i dont recall much, i was exhausted and lapsed in and out of sleep. i also had a sick old lady sharing the room with me, seperated by a curtain. after an hour or so there i was aware of her presence and she hella tried flurting with me, "wanna see my mammograms?". at the end of my stay i got to see what she looked like lol, i was shocked. i guess dxm slows your breathing, my machine kept beeping at me cause i wasnt breathing enough. it really sucked having my mom crying on my bed and my dad looking down at me like i was a pile of shit. i got to leave at 5 am so i musta gotten some of the times wrong cause i think i recall dosing at 10. oh yeah and my hearing was sharpened to extremes.
All in all, i still think it was worth it, i really enjoyed dxm but im not gonna do it again til i move out. it was heckkka fun and hopefully i can finish my conversation with god next time.
