if anyone cares to know my story info please read 1st post. ive been doing a ton a research since I was surprised with my problem. on 320mg of oxycodone a day even if I make it through withdrawal and say its a year later and paws of subsided for the most part. the thing that scares me the most is have I don't permanent damage to brain. have I created to many pleasure receptors to ever be happy again. my gosh that sounds like hell. any info would be greatly appreciated. thanks
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Opioids 2nd post question on my drug
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I've been on and off opiates for the last decade. Started off with codeine, and moved up the whole way to the big H. My longest clean time was about a year from spring 2011-late winter 2012. I do remember towards the end I did start to feel happiness again. I started to appreciate music, and writing it like I used to, and I actually tried to get with women, unlike in my libido crushed opiate state. I also tried many things like hiking up Mt. San Francisco in Flagstaff, and snowboarding down a huge hill in the snow bowl. I never would have tried any of this high.
For some reason I went back to the needle, and it ruined my life pretty quick. I'm telling you now, even if you aren't feeling "happy" per say, it's a lot better than going back to the opiates. Maybe you have the money to be high all the time, but for me I was high 5 days, sick 2 days per week. And those miserable 2 days sick aren't worth the 5 days high.
Please stay clean. You've come a full year with no opiates. Some people say paws last up to 2 years for opiates, and considerably longer even for benzos. The good news is, is you do not have permanent brain damage. And remember you wont wake up one day and have your happiness back. PAWS is a very gradual fade away. You will slowly just notice more and more time isn't spent in crippling depression, and dysphoria, and more spent as being "sober".
Please stay clean dude. You've come a year. If I could go back to 2012, and not start using opiates again and keep my year clean, I would have. The addicts brain remembers the highs, but not the lows of using. You can do it!
For some reason I went back to the needle, and it ruined my life pretty quick. I'm telling you now, even if you aren't feeling "happy" per say, it's a lot better than going back to the opiates. Maybe you have the money to be high all the time, but for me I was high 5 days, sick 2 days per week. And those miserable 2 days sick aren't worth the 5 days high.
Please stay clean. You've come a full year with no opiates. Some people say paws last up to 2 years for opiates, and considerably longer even for benzos. The good news is, is you do not have permanent brain damage. And remember you wont wake up one day and have your happiness back. PAWS is a very gradual fade away. You will slowly just notice more and more time isn't spent in crippling depression, and dysphoria, and more spent as being "sober".
Please stay clean dude. You've come a year. If I could go back to 2012, and not start using opiates again and keep my year clean, I would have. The addicts brain remembers the highs, but not the lows of using. You can do it!