nothinginside
Bluelighter
2c-e
no access to scales
the day was a stressful day of driving around back and fourth for a total of 400 miles... only to search for mushrooms... that did not show their existence..
so i get home along with my friend K.. at my house there are 5 people. 3 males.. 2 females.. now there are 5 males and 2 females counting me and my friend K...
i don't understand why everyone is at my house.. cept for it's a place to go.. i gave my friend S the key combination to my house and that's who let everyone in.
anyways. i take the chemical at 11pm.
the dose is eyeballed. estimated dosage is around 5-7 mg.
S decides to join me. this would be his first psychedelic experience.
i let him take a small dose, like i did. est dosage same as mine. probably lower.
two girls, C and A, stay around for awhile. I don't mind this but the situation is quite weird. C and K used to date a couple years back, they still play fight, they still have feelings for one another. I remember sensing this throughout the experience. C is now dating my friend N, who left at 12:30 pm... T+1:30 HR
anyways on with the timeline
set food intake normal for the day. mood is pissed off. fuck stupid drug pushers who can't coordinate their markets. feel tired. been driving for over 9 hours.
setting my house. parents are gone. the place is trashed. ashes everywhere. my kinda place. the temperature outside is very chilly. fucking 50s in july. stars in the sky are nice. moon is nice. i see a planet very near the moon. it shifts position throughout the night.
11:00 PM - 5~7 mg orally - T+0:00 HR
chemical ingestion. raw powder. i like the taste of this chemical. i ate normally this day. trip should be managable.
T+1:00 HR
the experience is progressing in a predictable fashion... slight stimulation. slight haze over all objects. eyes more sensitive to light, but not too noticable. RGB values noted very present at the moment, due to television being on. i feel as though i am containing myself at the moment. I am high, with a little beer in me, only 3, and a small dose of psychedelic flavor.. I am around tons of sober people. albeit drunk. but sober to me. I find myself already analyzing speech patterns. K, myself, J, and S smoke a bowl. N C and A stay inside. S decides he wants to join me in my adventure. I warn him of the duration and content of the experience, and that i will be an hour ahead of him... He declines any offer to back out, so i eyeball out roughly the same dosage i took, probably less. He seems anxious.
this is his first psychedelic experience. a great responsibility is placed on me to show him the door correctly. or let him find it, whatever comes first.
T+1:45
i have a conversation with my friend C. we talk about personal issues dealing with ex boyfriend R who is not present at the moment. R's dad passed three months before. C has tried to be there for him but she realises she can't be. we talk about relationships and life and ourselves and each other. the conversation is weird. C is anti-drug. very closed minded. i try to remain on her level but conversational weirdness has hold of me. i tell her i need to have contact. she doesn't think this is weird. i put my arm around her and tell her i wrote her name in the stars. she finds this amusing.... i like C. she can be very cool. she is very intelligent and can follow most things i talk about. she also stuns me at times, catches me in the wrong, which i like. I make her aware of my appreciation of her. she thinks i am strange, but this is ok.
this all started with me having to ask someone to come outside with me to make sure it was really that cold
effects at this time are very speed-like. i feel very good. i feel very on top of things, but at this time my verbal capacities are lagging behind everythign else.. thought is hard to crystalize. it just happens.
i creep C out because my visuals are starting. people seem to be able to read my eyes. might just be self-induced reflection of reflection but i've been told by many that when i trip my eyes don't look very comforting. they can tell i'm goin through some pretty creepy shit.
T+2:30 HR
trip is definately coming on. i find myself distracting myself quite a bit. I don't want to be tripping right now at this moment because of all the sober people. i know i look insane. i look at myself in the mirror. not a good idea. A runs to the bathroom as if she is about to puke. oh shit. i had thought about fuckin A or at least trying to suck on some titties just because i wanted ass.. but no. she is not my type. nor what i'm attracted to.. i would only be using her body to get off on... damn i'm tripping. i get her a water. she lays there on the floor. acting vulnerable. I feel what she feels. she wants me. dammit.
i get her water and ask her if she needs to go lay down.. one part of me wanting ehr to go lay down so i can gizz on her ass.. one part of me saying no weirdo.. you'll regret it.
anyways.. effects at this point are definate visual alteration. color enhancement. when i shut my eyes i see sound waves. i see sounds in different colors. patterning is prevalent. OEVs not so strong but are there if i look for it.. or don't look for it more like it.
T+3:30 HR
C and A have finally left. Now is is just me, K, and S. We decide to play some Halo on xbox. playing is very easy. easier than normal. it's as if i see more at once. i anticipate very easily. all of it reminds me somewhat of the slowed time mechanism in the matrix and whatnot. i literally feel, sharper. i don't know. maybe i'm just tripping. mind is very expanded at this point. we had been watching a movie for the first couple hours coming up on the trip. I forget the name of the movie, but it's about a couple and their search for sexual extacy. the methods are trantic i believe. i'm not sure. I felt this movie. normally i wouldn't even want to watch tv under the influence.. but i felt this movie. that's the best way i could put it. the acting and screenplay was just so well thought out. the plot was so deep. very good. It's like i was able to really live the movie. the ups, the downs.. it's like the writer tripped... or the director was tripping. got some mad visuals as well. it's as if the movie was set up for visuals. i will have to look in tv guide to see what it was.
T+5:00 HR
I have been successful in turning S on.. or letting him do it himself. I made him come outside with me. I felt as if i was drawing pictures with my tone of my voice and rythem. i felt as if i were tapped into some shamanistic channel mechanism. I had complete awareness, yet control of uncontrol. blah... paranoia somewhat. feel as if people are watching the two weirdos. S talks loud. We hear a train that causes this. the train is confused with an airplane. sound is definately amplified. S doesn't know what to make of it all.. doesn't like the visuals. because they scare him i guess..
T+6:00 HR
Had some pretty psychedelic conversations with S. made some realisations that are of personal matter that cannot be named.. because their is no name for the now, the here. it is now. back at this place. but you're here to.
I seem to be a good director of experience.. not to boast.
I know how to explain psychedelia while under psychedelia.. all you do is give the other a push.. play off of one another, and let each other interpret their own picures. I explained to S to focus on his breathing and watch a plant. he does so. he freaks out. but enjoys the freak out. We both sit in chairs. tv off. computer off. xbox off. the suns slightly making things brighter. we need some dark before the light i tell him. i mutter simple words. i tell him to think of the word center. and become it. i watch his face. he is gone.
i did the same thing earlier. I went. I exclaimed. sometimes i just ened to go away. S said he could see me body but not my mind anymore. I told him he can go their to, when asked where i went. i showed him. this made me feel good.
T+7:00 HR
S is still speeding.. can't sleep. i decide to leave him alone on the couch. he seems comfortable in his trip state. eyes are closed body fetal position. relaxed. I feed my animals. They are very hungry at the moment. My cat acted tripped out the whole night. I sit in front of a long wall mirror in my parents room. study my body. move gracefully with unseen/unheard rythems. tracers still prevalent. trip still going. but it's light out. i want to sleep.
wake up 6 hrs later.. feel good..
no access to scales
the day was a stressful day of driving around back and fourth for a total of 400 miles... only to search for mushrooms... that did not show their existence..
so i get home along with my friend K.. at my house there are 5 people. 3 males.. 2 females.. now there are 5 males and 2 females counting me and my friend K...
i don't understand why everyone is at my house.. cept for it's a place to go.. i gave my friend S the key combination to my house and that's who let everyone in.
anyways. i take the chemical at 11pm.
the dose is eyeballed. estimated dosage is around 5-7 mg.
S decides to join me. this would be his first psychedelic experience.
i let him take a small dose, like i did. est dosage same as mine. probably lower.
two girls, C and A, stay around for awhile. I don't mind this but the situation is quite weird. C and K used to date a couple years back, they still play fight, they still have feelings for one another. I remember sensing this throughout the experience. C is now dating my friend N, who left at 12:30 pm... T+1:30 HR
anyways on with the timeline
set food intake normal for the day. mood is pissed off. fuck stupid drug pushers who can't coordinate their markets. feel tired. been driving for over 9 hours.
setting my house. parents are gone. the place is trashed. ashes everywhere. my kinda place. the temperature outside is very chilly. fucking 50s in july. stars in the sky are nice. moon is nice. i see a planet very near the moon. it shifts position throughout the night.
11:00 PM - 5~7 mg orally - T+0:00 HR
chemical ingestion. raw powder. i like the taste of this chemical. i ate normally this day. trip should be managable.
T+1:00 HR
the experience is progressing in a predictable fashion... slight stimulation. slight haze over all objects. eyes more sensitive to light, but not too noticable. RGB values noted very present at the moment, due to television being on. i feel as though i am containing myself at the moment. I am high, with a little beer in me, only 3, and a small dose of psychedelic flavor.. I am around tons of sober people. albeit drunk. but sober to me. I find myself already analyzing speech patterns. K, myself, J, and S smoke a bowl. N C and A stay inside. S decides he wants to join me in my adventure. I warn him of the duration and content of the experience, and that i will be an hour ahead of him... He declines any offer to back out, so i eyeball out roughly the same dosage i took, probably less. He seems anxious.
this is his first psychedelic experience. a great responsibility is placed on me to show him the door correctly. or let him find it, whatever comes first.
T+1:45
i have a conversation with my friend C. we talk about personal issues dealing with ex boyfriend R who is not present at the moment. R's dad passed three months before. C has tried to be there for him but she realises she can't be. we talk about relationships and life and ourselves and each other. the conversation is weird. C is anti-drug. very closed minded. i try to remain on her level but conversational weirdness has hold of me. i tell her i need to have contact. she doesn't think this is weird. i put my arm around her and tell her i wrote her name in the stars. she finds this amusing.... i like C. she can be very cool. she is very intelligent and can follow most things i talk about. she also stuns me at times, catches me in the wrong, which i like. I make her aware of my appreciation of her. she thinks i am strange, but this is ok.
this all started with me having to ask someone to come outside with me to make sure it was really that cold
effects at this time are very speed-like. i feel very good. i feel very on top of things, but at this time my verbal capacities are lagging behind everythign else.. thought is hard to crystalize. it just happens.
i creep C out because my visuals are starting. people seem to be able to read my eyes. might just be self-induced reflection of reflection but i've been told by many that when i trip my eyes don't look very comforting. they can tell i'm goin through some pretty creepy shit.
T+2:30 HR
trip is definately coming on. i find myself distracting myself quite a bit. I don't want to be tripping right now at this moment because of all the sober people. i know i look insane. i look at myself in the mirror. not a good idea. A runs to the bathroom as if she is about to puke. oh shit. i had thought about fuckin A or at least trying to suck on some titties just because i wanted ass.. but no. she is not my type. nor what i'm attracted to.. i would only be using her body to get off on... damn i'm tripping. i get her a water. she lays there on the floor. acting vulnerable. I feel what she feels. she wants me. dammit.
i get her water and ask her if she needs to go lay down.. one part of me wanting ehr to go lay down so i can gizz on her ass.. one part of me saying no weirdo.. you'll regret it.
anyways.. effects at this point are definate visual alteration. color enhancement. when i shut my eyes i see sound waves. i see sounds in different colors. patterning is prevalent. OEVs not so strong but are there if i look for it.. or don't look for it more like it.
T+3:30 HR
C and A have finally left. Now is is just me, K, and S. We decide to play some Halo on xbox. playing is very easy. easier than normal. it's as if i see more at once. i anticipate very easily. all of it reminds me somewhat of the slowed time mechanism in the matrix and whatnot. i literally feel, sharper. i don't know. maybe i'm just tripping. mind is very expanded at this point. we had been watching a movie for the first couple hours coming up on the trip. I forget the name of the movie, but it's about a couple and their search for sexual extacy. the methods are trantic i believe. i'm not sure. I felt this movie. normally i wouldn't even want to watch tv under the influence.. but i felt this movie. that's the best way i could put it. the acting and screenplay was just so well thought out. the plot was so deep. very good. It's like i was able to really live the movie. the ups, the downs.. it's like the writer tripped... or the director was tripping. got some mad visuals as well. it's as if the movie was set up for visuals. i will have to look in tv guide to see what it was.
T+5:00 HR
I have been successful in turning S on.. or letting him do it himself. I made him come outside with me. I felt as if i was drawing pictures with my tone of my voice and rythem. i felt as if i were tapped into some shamanistic channel mechanism. I had complete awareness, yet control of uncontrol. blah... paranoia somewhat. feel as if people are watching the two weirdos. S talks loud. We hear a train that causes this. the train is confused with an airplane. sound is definately amplified. S doesn't know what to make of it all.. doesn't like the visuals. because they scare him i guess..
T+6:00 HR
Had some pretty psychedelic conversations with S. made some realisations that are of personal matter that cannot be named.. because their is no name for the now, the here. it is now. back at this place. but you're here to.
I seem to be a good director of experience.. not to boast.
I know how to explain psychedelia while under psychedelia.. all you do is give the other a push.. play off of one another, and let each other interpret their own picures. I explained to S to focus on his breathing and watch a plant. he does so. he freaks out. but enjoys the freak out. We both sit in chairs. tv off. computer off. xbox off. the suns slightly making things brighter. we need some dark before the light i tell him. i mutter simple words. i tell him to think of the word center. and become it. i watch his face. he is gone.
i did the same thing earlier. I went. I exclaimed. sometimes i just ened to go away. S said he could see me body but not my mind anymore. I told him he can go their to, when asked where i went. i showed him. this made me feel good.T+7:00 HR
S is still speeding.. can't sleep. i decide to leave him alone on the couch. he seems comfortable in his trip state. eyes are closed body fetal position. relaxed. I feed my animals. They are very hungry at the moment. My cat acted tripped out the whole night. I sit in front of a long wall mirror in my parents room. study my body. move gracefully with unseen/unheard rythems. tracers still prevalent. trip still going. but it's light out. i want to sleep.
wake up 6 hrs later.. feel good..
