20 minutes of hell, 4 hours of Joy...am I crazy?

[soulwatcher]

Ok someone else please tell me that you experience the same thing when you roll.
When I take my pill and it finally hits it hits so hard that i have to go sit down outside. i start sweating(at one point outside steam was coming off my body), feel totally nauseaus, start getting anxious and miserable, my whole body is tingling, my hands tremble, and I start questioning why the hell I am doing this to myself. Oh I also cant stand being touched while in this phase .This absolute hell lasts about 20 minutes, and then its like a switch flips on and Im fine again, get up, am rolling beautifully and the night goes on fine. And life is great and I feel wonderful. But that 20 minutes of hell.....damn....
My theory is that this is my body's way of punishing my ass for the pleasure that is to follow, and every time I get ready to roll I remember that I will be miserable for 20 minutes, and that makes me ? if I really want to roll, which is probably a good thing.
Anyone else have similar experiences? I always think that everyone else comes up cleanly and their roll just begins and they dont suffer like me...so give me some input...
Thanks

peace
soulwatcher

 

[applesbliss]

Soulwatcher,
I think thats very unique!> I think maybe your body in someway is smarter. Realizing that there is a lot of good pleasure to follow. But it may suck. but it acts as a good balance between pleasure and pain. I've acually had the anxious and miseral part. But
for some reason it stayed with me longer than
the pills. I know you hear this a lot on bluelight. But it really does depend, on you, the pill, and the environment.
Peace
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[The_One]

Soulwatcher,
I think it's safe to say that this has happened to almost everyone once, but not reoccuring. Are you nervous when you take your pill? Maybe that's why. The first couple times I dropped I'd get nauseous and my tummy would clench because I was scared to feel the blowup. I wasn't used to taking E yet.
It has a lot to do with your mood when you go into it. If you think you're gonna get sick and nauseous, you prob will. But if you think you'll be fine and it's just a phase, you may be able to overcome your sickness. Just think, "Tonight's gonna be fun when I roll. It's better I estimate the time before I blow up so I can get my mind off any fears I may have." Sounds corny, but it worked for me! I had to get over the fact that I was anticipating "E-puke," and although I never did it, I got sick thinking about it.
So just relax! Hope all goes well.
The One

 

[entropope]

This has happened to me the last two times. On different pills, that everyone in Perth has claimed as the best in a year or so. I think it's psychological, a friend of mine thinks it's an ulcer. Rolling tommorrow, if it happens again, doctors appointment.
I'm not nervous about taking a pill, trust me. The first time i thought it was cause the area i was in was soooo smokey, but last time i was in perfect conditions for nicely bringing on my pill.
First time felt shyte for about 30 mins then roll felt like it was lacking.
Second felt shyte for about 45 mins, fuck!! Then roll definetly lacked as compared to others, (green martian, not that full on, lasted about 3 hours). On this occaision i had another half as soon as i felt a comedown, and the rest of the night was brilliant.
No advice here, i dunno what the fucks up.
I'll post about what happens tommorrow.
Due to the second ingestion being fruitful last time, i'm preloading with meth-cut-wizz. But if meth has same effect i'm in for the shit. It almost always kicks my ass thru my stomach. I doubt it, wizz would never do that to me, we are the best of friends from waaaay back.
Fuck now i'm just babbling.

 

[zeppelinj]

Im not sure if everone gets this or just me, but its kinda related to what you're talking about. Whenever im rolling, up untill the time untill im done peaking, I periodiclly get these "rushes"...the feeling is scary at first, and sometimes feels like im gonna have a panic attack. But within a matter of seconds after the rush is real intense, it totally converts to an absolutely awesome feeling. I'm used to it now, but when i first rolled, it was scary the first time i had a "rush".

 

[Baron_MDMA]

God, I hate it when that happens. Hasn't happened to me, but have a good friend who gets into weird cycles. They'll get sleepy, then forget where they are and what they're doing, get a panic attack (wig-out), then they're reminded they're just rolling, and they're okay for a bit. Then it starts again. Very draining on everyone. At that point, we have one person there they trust to calm them down/get them to sleep, the rest of us go elsewhere while the friend calms down.