last night started out great and ended as one of the scariest experiences I have ever had in my life..
(I had a very large breakfast and no other meals after that. Before the show I ate half a banana and a cup of yogurt)
Before I left for the venue, I took two hits of molly. About 2 hours into the show, I decide to take my white puma (I have taken the puma before, I enjoyed it, and I knew what to expect). I had a great time at the show, and rolled really hard.
After the show, me and friends headed back to the apartment where we drank wine and smoked weed. When the bong was passed to me, I took one large hit. I thought I was about to cough so I got up to go to the bathroom to get some water. Instead of coughing, I start to wheeze and I can't really breathe. I start getting really dizzy and I have to hold myself up very still to steady myself. When my breathing became normal again, I go back into the room. I sit downand the room starts to spin. Everything is spinning and I start to get a little bit scared. I tell myself that it will be over within a couple hours and it relaxes me a little bit. But the spinning does not stop, and it gets progressively faster as it continues to spin. After a couple minutes I don't know who I am ianymore and I can barely recognize my friends. I know that I have to know them to be in the same room with them and that was the only thing that provided me with comfort. I try to move my arms and legs but they do not budge and I feel like a heavy stone that can't be moved. After I mentally scream at myself to move for what seems like ages, I am able to reach a cup of water. When I reach for the water I do it very slowly and my hand is shaking. I am able to grab the cup of water and I bring it slowly to my face so that I can get a sip. My hands are still shaking, and as the cup heads toward my mouth, it misses. My hand does not know where my mouth it and it takes me a couple of minutes to get a sip of water. It is hard to swallow and I have to repeat instructions to myself so that I could swallow the water.
As I sit there unable to do anything, I get chills all over my body. I feel cold, but I start to sweat a lot and my palms feel really sweaty. I try to touch my hands to see if they were sweaty but my brain could not recognize what 'sweaty' is supposed to feel like. It feels like my heart is racing really fast and I feels like I am sitting in a hole in my mind because from my viewpoint, it looks like I am sitting in a tiny room staring out. I can't keep up with my friends and I can't understand what they are saying. The only thing that I am able to do is nod, fake a laugh, and say "yeah". When I said, "yeah" I could not recognize my voice and it sounded nothing like me.
The entire time the room is still spinning uncontrollably. I still don't know where I am, but I do realize that my own room is nearby. I try to get up to walk to my room but I can't physically pull myself up to stand or even walk a step. Very so often the spinning would stop and I would get a glimpse of normality. I would beg my mind to stay but within seconds the spins would start again. Sometimes moving a lot physically would prolong the "normal-ness" but it did not last for more than a minute.
Around an hour later, I start to gag. I feel like I need to throw up, but I want to try to hide the fact that I need to barf so that I would not freak out my friends. I gag 2 times but I don't barf. Ten minutes later the gagging begins again. I try to hold it together but I end up throwing a minimal amount of clear liquid into the trash can. The room is still spinning, but I am slowly starting to recognize my surroundings and I am able to communicate a little bit more.
I finally find the ability to walk to my room, and though the spins are a lot slower now, they are still there. I pass out but I wake up frequently throughout the night to my heart racing. I wake up the next day and I still feel like I am rolling (this has never happened to me before). I look in the mirror and my pupils are extremely dilated.... and I just don't feel "right". For the rest of the day, I can barely carry a conversation because I can't get enough air to talk for more than 15 seconds. Walking up a couple steps is also daunting and makes me extremely out of breath. I am experiencing chest pains and I can feel my heart flutter multiple times throughout the day. Every 5 minutes or so, I have to inhale extremely deep to try to get a huge gulp of air because I feel that I am not getting enough air.
Does anyone have any insight on what could have happened to me? Was it the mixture of the drugs? Did I not eat enough? I just didn't know that something like this could have happened to me... as it felt more like a mushroom nightmare than an molly/ecstasy one.
(I had a very large breakfast and no other meals after that. Before the show I ate half a banana and a cup of yogurt)
Before I left for the venue, I took two hits of molly. About 2 hours into the show, I decide to take my white puma (I have taken the puma before, I enjoyed it, and I knew what to expect). I had a great time at the show, and rolled really hard.
After the show, me and friends headed back to the apartment where we drank wine and smoked weed. When the bong was passed to me, I took one large hit. I thought I was about to cough so I got up to go to the bathroom to get some water. Instead of coughing, I start to wheeze and I can't really breathe. I start getting really dizzy and I have to hold myself up very still to steady myself. When my breathing became normal again, I go back into the room. I sit downand the room starts to spin. Everything is spinning and I start to get a little bit scared. I tell myself that it will be over within a couple hours and it relaxes me a little bit. But the spinning does not stop, and it gets progressively faster as it continues to spin. After a couple minutes I don't know who I am ianymore and I can barely recognize my friends. I know that I have to know them to be in the same room with them and that was the only thing that provided me with comfort. I try to move my arms and legs but they do not budge and I feel like a heavy stone that can't be moved. After I mentally scream at myself to move for what seems like ages, I am able to reach a cup of water. When I reach for the water I do it very slowly and my hand is shaking. I am able to grab the cup of water and I bring it slowly to my face so that I can get a sip. My hands are still shaking, and as the cup heads toward my mouth, it misses. My hand does not know where my mouth it and it takes me a couple of minutes to get a sip of water. It is hard to swallow and I have to repeat instructions to myself so that I could swallow the water.
As I sit there unable to do anything, I get chills all over my body. I feel cold, but I start to sweat a lot and my palms feel really sweaty. I try to touch my hands to see if they were sweaty but my brain could not recognize what 'sweaty' is supposed to feel like. It feels like my heart is racing really fast and I feels like I am sitting in a hole in my mind because from my viewpoint, it looks like I am sitting in a tiny room staring out. I can't keep up with my friends and I can't understand what they are saying. The only thing that I am able to do is nod, fake a laugh, and say "yeah". When I said, "yeah" I could not recognize my voice and it sounded nothing like me.
The entire time the room is still spinning uncontrollably. I still don't know where I am, but I do realize that my own room is nearby. I try to get up to walk to my room but I can't physically pull myself up to stand or even walk a step. Very so often the spinning would stop and I would get a glimpse of normality. I would beg my mind to stay but within seconds the spins would start again. Sometimes moving a lot physically would prolong the "normal-ness" but it did not last for more than a minute.
Around an hour later, I start to gag. I feel like I need to throw up, but I want to try to hide the fact that I need to barf so that I would not freak out my friends. I gag 2 times but I don't barf. Ten minutes later the gagging begins again. I try to hold it together but I end up throwing a minimal amount of clear liquid into the trash can. The room is still spinning, but I am slowly starting to recognize my surroundings and I am able to communicate a little bit more.
I finally find the ability to walk to my room, and though the spins are a lot slower now, they are still there. I pass out but I wake up frequently throughout the night to my heart racing. I wake up the next day and I still feel like I am rolling (this has never happened to me before). I look in the mirror and my pupils are extremely dilated.... and I just don't feel "right". For the rest of the day, I can barely carry a conversation because I can't get enough air to talk for more than 15 seconds. Walking up a couple steps is also daunting and makes me extremely out of breath. I am experiencing chest pains and I can feel my heart flutter multiple times throughout the day. Every 5 minutes or so, I have to inhale extremely deep to try to get a huge gulp of air because I feel that I am not getting enough air.
Does anyone have any insight on what could have happened to me? Was it the mixture of the drugs? Did I not eat enough? I just didn't know that something like this could have happened to me... as it felt more like a mushroom nightmare than an molly/ecstasy one.
