Another dude I know IRL just died, relapsed and OD'd after some 90 days clean. I knew this guy from AA meetings, and he was a close friend-of-a-friend. He really had a way with words and I was able to relate very well to a lot of the ways he spoke about his cycles of relapse-clean-relapse. He just had a little girl and he was trying his hardest to stay clean for her, but one mistake and he's no longer with us. RIP
It's kinda scary since my friend wanted me to help her get H the other day "for a friend," and it turns out that it was this dude shopping around on the morning of the day that he died. I didn't end up helping them, but he obviously still got it and it was just a little too good. I know that around BL it's common sense, but still we gotta all remind everyone we know that relapses after breaks need to be smaller than usual to account for lowered tolerance. I'm 99% sure that that is how this guy went down. Know your source, test a small amount of a new batch first before shooting away, always have a friend around if you're going to chase a strong rush, etc. We gotta all do our best to spread the HR knowledge we have learned on BL to our friends who might not be as "in the know," might not have computers at all, and so on. This is another one that's just too close, I've seen at least 4 people around me go down over the past 8 months. PLEASE EVERYONE BE CAREFUL!
I'm very close to having a plan ready for taking my extended trip across the country. I am pumped, I need to do this ASAP. I'm waiting on one of my dudes to come through for me with Suboxone (for some reason, in my area it's become really hard to get Subs on the street), and grab a few of them and set my eyes on the distant shores and being dope-free. The cost of my habit has become prohibitively expensive and my morals will go down the drain if I try and keep going, so the right decision for me to make is to take my friend up on his offer to let me crash with him out West and take off as soon as I get those Subs (or some benzos...Don't really care if the trip hurts a bit, I just don't want to be in absolute agony).
I know that the area I'm headed to has dope, but it's known for being dominated by meth, which is something I've never cared for. I'm hoping that I'm able to stay to myself and live a very basic and somewhat reserved life, and that it doesn't try to come find me. I don't think I'm strong enough to resist it right now if it does. At the same time, I think that if I join a gym and start working to get my body back, wake up early and hit up Starbucks to read and satisfy my nerdy side, and try and stay away from places like Facebook where I see the successes of my college friends and end up feeling sorry for myself and like a POS, I'll be okay. I'm thinking about taking some time away from BL too, as this place does trigger me a lot. It's going to take a good bit of $$$ to get my license straightened out, but that's something I need to try and get a second job and save up to do, because being able to drive again will mean that a lot of my hobbies and interests will be available to me again. To add, I would love to get it back while I am still out West, as I love driving and it would be really amazing to hit the open road out there with the mountains, the ocean, and so on.
Question for you guys: Let's say that in my home state my license is suspended and I have to pay a lot of money and retake the road test to get it back. If I end up in a different state, will I still have to take care of all of that in my home state before I can apply for a license in the new state? Will the payments and the retesting be transferred over? Can I get a license in the new state without having to pay for my sins beforehand? Do I have to return to the other state and take the road test there (that would SUCK)? Anyone know about this stuff?
