Ya you should really be in a good frame of mind to have a fun trip. That said I've eaten shrooms during some rough times in my life and although it wasn't the most fun time I've had it did seem to put things in perspective for me. I always tell noobs that they just need to remember that they're tripping and to let go and go with it. Dwelling on bad shit is what can give you a bad trip and one should never spend much time in front of mirrors lol.
That was a fucking intense trip I had. At first I thought the shrooms had decreased in potency a bit because I got them at the beginning of last fall, but fuck me that was intense. I only ate 1.6 grams that included two small caps and it hit me HARD.
The "ego death" portion took hold almost immediately. Having been depressed since I've been WDing after using and having felt so guilty about fucking up this last year I sort of needed to get torn apart. It's really a matter of perspective though, as once I felt completely shattered I started feeling lighter again. The guilt and shame I was carrying was disappearing and I wasn't getting caught up in the fact that I had fucked up, but was instead getting excited about the possibility of a better future.
I am so, so, SO glad I had these and that I tripped last night. I DEFINITELY DO
NOT recommend this for someone who isn't experienced with hallucinogens. I've tripped on shrooms about two dozen times now and I've eaten somewhere around 80 tabs of acid. I also have had previous experiences where shrooms and/or acid helped me gain perspective and understanding on various issues in my life, so I did have an idea of what to expect and knew how to not freak out.
I definitely am still WDing a little bit, but my head feels soooo much more clear and I feel a lot stronger now. So even though I'm still a bit uncomfortable I feel like I could push through back into being clean from opiates.
Once the 'ego death' portion ended and I was starting to feel better I just ended up watching a bunch of Breaking Bad and watched the "Ecstasy of Gold Breaking Bad Tribute" video on youtube a bunch of times. I realized my life the last few years has been largely about change. There's growth, then decay, then transformation! Which is what Walt says the study of chemistry is in the very first episode, but it totally made sense last night.