Up in smoke...
Greenlighter
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- Mar 30, 2017
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Now I know calling myself a 11th year recovering addict sounds like a bit of a oxymoron (no guys, not Oxy Contin, oxymoron... Lol), but any person that's had a "REAL" drug habit, knows exactIy where I'm coming from, as being clean is an ongoing effort, a lifelong battle!
So, I have decided I'd come share some of my life experiences and wisdom (all 36 and a 1/2 years worth! Lol) to those that really need or want it.
Which should be almost anyone that posts a question here in my eyes...
I did a quick search on a particular subject and I was astonished by how much misinformation and bullshit gets readily posted, everyone's a bloody expert, till you read the first line of their comment, then it quickly becomes apparant who knows nothing, and who's watched too much tv, and who's talking about a friend of their sisters cousins, girlfriend, uncle mother.... Lol.
Anyway, a bit of background on me...
I have been smoking "weed" since I was 12, I had a pretty full on "speed" habit in my mid to late teens (snorting it still at this point), then I got hooked on the "hammer" (my 1st taste of the feel of the steel) and the "whizz" before settling on a "Heroin" habit, which later became a "morphine" habit (best part of moving to Brisbane from Sydney was the gear, it's so shit up here, Morphine is the drug of choice here, so was a easy decision to quit).
I've played with most recreational substances at some point, and a few prescribed controlled substances...
Some I used regularly, some I just experimented with.
I've been on the Methadone program, Subutex and currently on a 10mg daily dose of Suboxone.
I still smoke weed, I don't mind the very very occasional hit from the glass pipe (though I still rather bang it than smoke it), I like Acid and eccys on rare occasions, I've used Special K, MDMA, speed and base, cocaine a couple of times, Capanol capsules, a morph tabs (greys, oranges and purples).
I'm always struggling to stay on the righteous path, but my x2 beautiful babies, my 10yo daughter that I got clean for in the first place, and my 2yo son that thinks the world of me, is all the motivation I ever need, I'm focused like a laser beam!
Im not here to brag about my history, I'm actually rather ashamed of most of it, though thank f£€k for anonymity eh! Lol.
But it's apparant that there's an epidemic at the mo, and it's affecting me and my children (regardless of how much I shelter them from it) in our day to day lives.
My workmates are on it, my ex (yes, my kids mum) and her friends are on it, which is why I have the kids in my care, while I hold down a full time job at the same time.
I rent a 4 bdrm house, it's fully furnished with all my own stuff, I own 4 cars, 2 with rego, 2 are projects, all are quite nice cars though, I own almost every tool I could ever need, I have 2 dogs and a cat, I play PS3 and XBOX 360 with my kids in my downtime, and lastly, i am a Full time Senior Site Supervisor in a construction company.
I have done all this on my own, and kept it as my own (which is the tricky bit IMO).
So the way I see it, if I can get my shit together, there's no reason anyone else can't.
I have had no support from family, and my only mates are just work mates, I keep to myself, look after my kids and house, and hope that I one day find that special someone that has no interest in this lifestyle I've left behind.
There's a lot more I could go on about, but this has gotten long enough 4 paragraphs ago! Lol
Any questions, advice, or just an experienced ear to listen to you, please don't hesitate to ask...
Drugs have taken so much from me, and the few good memories, and there are some great ones (as a few of the girls I met in Brisbane when I first arrived can confirm!) don't compare to the memories and great times I now share with my family.
Wanna see a kiwi defy gravity?
Cause this fella right here is one that will never come close to rock bottom again!
So, I have decided I'd come share some of my life experiences and wisdom (all 36 and a 1/2 years worth! Lol) to those that really need or want it.
Which should be almost anyone that posts a question here in my eyes...
I did a quick search on a particular subject and I was astonished by how much misinformation and bullshit gets readily posted, everyone's a bloody expert, till you read the first line of their comment, then it quickly becomes apparant who knows nothing, and who's watched too much tv, and who's talking about a friend of their sisters cousins, girlfriend, uncle mother.... Lol.
Anyway, a bit of background on me...
I have been smoking "weed" since I was 12, I had a pretty full on "speed" habit in my mid to late teens (snorting it still at this point), then I got hooked on the "hammer" (my 1st taste of the feel of the steel) and the "whizz" before settling on a "Heroin" habit, which later became a "morphine" habit (best part of moving to Brisbane from Sydney was the gear, it's so shit up here, Morphine is the drug of choice here, so was a easy decision to quit).
I've played with most recreational substances at some point, and a few prescribed controlled substances...
Some I used regularly, some I just experimented with.
I've been on the Methadone program, Subutex and currently on a 10mg daily dose of Suboxone.
I still smoke weed, I don't mind the very very occasional hit from the glass pipe (though I still rather bang it than smoke it), I like Acid and eccys on rare occasions, I've used Special K, MDMA, speed and base, cocaine a couple of times, Capanol capsules, a morph tabs (greys, oranges and purples).
I'm always struggling to stay on the righteous path, but my x2 beautiful babies, my 10yo daughter that I got clean for in the first place, and my 2yo son that thinks the world of me, is all the motivation I ever need, I'm focused like a laser beam!
Im not here to brag about my history, I'm actually rather ashamed of most of it, though thank f£€k for anonymity eh! Lol.
But it's apparant that there's an epidemic at the mo, and it's affecting me and my children (regardless of how much I shelter them from it) in our day to day lives.
My workmates are on it, my ex (yes, my kids mum) and her friends are on it, which is why I have the kids in my care, while I hold down a full time job at the same time.
I rent a 4 bdrm house, it's fully furnished with all my own stuff, I own 4 cars, 2 with rego, 2 are projects, all are quite nice cars though, I own almost every tool I could ever need, I have 2 dogs and a cat, I play PS3 and XBOX 360 with my kids in my downtime, and lastly, i am a Full time Senior Site Supervisor in a construction company.
I have done all this on my own, and kept it as my own (which is the tricky bit IMO).
So the way I see it, if I can get my shit together, there's no reason anyone else can't.
I have had no support from family, and my only mates are just work mates, I keep to myself, look after my kids and house, and hope that I one day find that special someone that has no interest in this lifestyle I've left behind.
There's a lot more I could go on about, but this has gotten long enough 4 paragraphs ago! Lol
Any questions, advice, or just an experienced ear to listen to you, please don't hesitate to ask...
Drugs have taken so much from me, and the few good memories, and there are some great ones (as a few of the girls I met in Brisbane when I first arrived can confirm!) don't compare to the memories and great times I now share with my family.
Wanna see a kiwi defy gravity?
Cause this fella right here is one that will never come close to rock bottom again!
