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11 days strong!

Waking up in the morning and being free. I love waking up getting coffee and having a cig, with my mind at ease I don't have to worry about where when or how imma get my next fix. I'm free to think about other things important things, stupid things, anything really except that. I like that I don't need to chase that high that I'll never achieve. Its day 16 but it's clear how much Bette my life has gotten in a short amount of time. I don't have to hide anything, I don't have to beg or steal or sell anything. I don't fight with my family or loved ones, I don't have mood swings, I'm a much happier person. Even when I'm upset I Cherish that, because it reminds me I'm human again, and I have feelings just like anyone else. When I'm sad or depressed I don't blame it on paws or whatever I just think, everyone feels this way from time to time it'll always pass. I have more money I can do more things. Oh the list could fill this whole site haha I'm not a mindless drone anymore I understand books and music again. I pay closer attention to the beauty in everything now, something I neglected when using. I smile now because I want to, I don't need opiates to help me with it. That's a wonderful thing.
 
Heather, congratulations on keeping straight even through that temptation! I know for me at the time of temptation I feel so helpless and crippled. Cravings do pass. Luckily I am on the same page with my partner so we keep each other in check sometimes. It also helps for me that we have opposing interests in drugs. He's a stim guy I like downers. So neither of us understand each others crippling cravings and we don't feed into them.

I know a lot of people aren't that lucky. I have learned that I have to fight myself against the cravings. I have to identify that the craving could be gone already if I just let it go and stop trying to convince myself that I can give in. I can let a craving drag on for 20 minutes or hours or I can just stop allowing myself to think that.

I haven't got that fully down pat yet but I think knowing that is my vice, helps me work on battling it.

Vomit it's really invigorating to see your positivity. <3<3 I am so happy to see some rays of happiness shining through your depression. Eventually the happiness and positivity will outweigh those bouts of sadness and depression.

It's a wonderful feeling to know you still have the capability to be happy and fulfilled and normal again, right?
 
Congratulations! I quit some time ago but am stuck with the same people and places, so you seem stronger than me.
Very happy to confirm that this won't go on forever for any of us.
 
It's the only thing keeping me going! When I start to feel those old feelings even if just a moment it reminds why I'm doin this, why I'm going through this and how wonderful it'll be when I get that back again. I mean anyone who looks back at their past and thinks it wasn't a waste of timeand money getting high is either hella rich or in denial. I don't regret it, But I definitely won't waste another second on thinking about it. 4 years is enough for me, and it's depressing, I don't live in the past, so I don't focus on it. Thinking of a normal life is the beginning, living it, now that's the ticket. I want that more than anything.
 
Vomit fox I am so pleased to hear you're still going strong! Well done love. I can empathise with wanting to continue on the path to a new and happier life. I've recently quit drinking after 8 years. It feels pretty damn amazing huh!! I wish you all the very best and look forward to hearing more updates from you as you get more clean time under your belt :) <3
 
Day 19!! This is the longest I've gone in quite some time! I get paid from both jobs this week and I won tickets to great America and its my gf's birthday, mannnn gotta say this is pretty fantastic. I hope everyone is still doing well, never let your doubt ruin good intentions. It's possible to make it back to the other side if you want it bad enough. I know I'm still in the early stages but u don't myself goin anywhere but up ;) good luck to everyone chase the right things and you'll find yourself in good places!
 
I have decided no more drugs as of 6 days ago. The withdrawal was horrible but things are finally starting to go back to normal. I agree with everyone here it feels nice to think about other things than getting high. I wish the rest of my friends seen in that way.
 
I'm at like 3 months clean, (maybe weed once or twice) i still get pretty depressed at times. I'm wondering guys, what do you do in your free time. I can't chill with my friends for obvious reasons, and i don't like going out alone cause i feel awkward. Then i get depressed cause most of all my free time is spent on the pc, i feel like a loner. Sometimes i feel like going back, finding new sober friends isn't easy cause im never out.
 
Well done lad, I hope you are still going strong.
The early days are certainly the hardest to contend with but it does get easier the longer you go without your drug of choice.
I'm clean since 31st August this year and I am already finding it easier. I no longer wake up with scoring the first thing on my mind. I also enjoy the new freedom that I have by not being tied to my town and dealer.
For anyone thinking about quitting drugs, DO IT! It may not be easy at first but persevere with it and you will get there.
I wish u all good luck.
 
Heather, F1n1shed and Maxalfie, good on you guys! Welcome to a small and rather exclusive club: the ex-addict club. You tend not to see its members so much, cos they move on with their lives and what you tend to see most of are the one's who haven't yet made it but it does exist, and you're now in it! Congrats to you all, stick with it! :) I hope the others from earlier in the thread are still doing well?

F1ni1shed, what do you like to do, or what do you think you'd like to do? There will almost certainly be a social activity to be made from it in some way. Start looking. I took up climbing at an indoor wall. They had a 'partners in climb' thing weds nights for people like me who didn't have anyone to go with. Good exercise for one, none better for lazy exercisers like me, loads of fun, been wanting to take up the climbing for ages and here was a social opportunity to be had from it. Wins all round. My local addiction unit has a social thing for recent ex-addicts needing to fill time with activities with others like themselves away from their circle of still-using friends. See what your local units can offer. There may be something similar running near you? They may also have a need for mentors on a voluntary basis. Put your experiences to positive use with others in a similar boat. That could be very valuable for you going forward yourself?
 
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definitely sounds like a really good idea. a family member of mine recommended al anon meetings for me because my family is a mess. since this post i have relapsed due to having way to much spare time. apparently being high makes you completely unaware of the amount of spare time you actually have lol i am clean now though and i am searching for meetings and on sub treatment with my boyfriend and we are both happy and doing great.
 
I have relapsed since this post, but back on the wagon. Did a quick 4 day sub taper. First day off knowig subs is out of my system. I shoulda stayed on here, ppl on here really give me so much hope and inspiration and drive to stay clean. This time Imma stay on this site till I know I'm absolutely safe without it. But thanks to everyone before I hope I can get more help again this time around. New gf new life. Went thru a rough patch I'm On my way! To fixing it now and not ruining this relationship. Relapsing is what ruined my last. I won't let it happen again.
 
I'm on day 8! This is the last time!....everyone else can do it too, you just have to want it bad enough
 
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