08.19.2008: A Good Life

[-Pictu-]

I would fit easily into his cookie-cutter existence.
It would be a good life.
Sunday papers in bed,
light banter over a dinner table
filled with the mutual friends
he has made for us.
(My loud, brash, fuckyou best friend being gradually
phased out).
It would be a good life.

Later on would come the children
Three, arriving with names already picked out.
The raising of their small, serious faces
would be entirely my domain.
(I would know what was best
as the woman
what things to teach them,
what knowledge to impart).
He would be a good father.
It would be a good life.

After we were left with an empty nest,
the traveling would come.
Venice, Rome, Greece.
My early retirement body
would still bring him contentment.
He would smile at me still,
watching the passing of our days.

It would be a good life,
and I would be smart to grasp onto it
before 26 becomes 39 and I'm left alone
with my loud, brash, fuckyou best friend.

When you fly into my city for three days
a week at a time, it's all I can do to stifle the screaming voice
rising up in my throat,
begging you to take me with you and away from this
good life.

 

[sobriquet]

Beautiful, expressive, cogent as always.
Never, never, never settle.
Easier said than done.
And...I'm not sure which is which.

 

[katmeow]

Beautiful, expressive, cogent as always.

Amen


I'm so glad you came back.

 

[up all night]

I'm 26 and something is telling me I'm not making the right choice. I wish I knew myself better.

This was great. I too can see their small, serious faces (and it scares the crap out of me) but noone wants to die old and alone.

 

[Jabberwocky]

wow. I think the interpolarity between self and desire is played well here. I appreciate your candor and honest expression. thank you for sharing.

 

[up all night]

pictu is a true poet.

edit: yep.

 

[MynameisnotDeja]

This was amazing. I've had similar feelings. I agree with the never settle comment. You rock! Moar plez.

 

[BREAKaBEAT]

What about the loud brash fuck you best friend? What is she achieving ?

While Im unsure about some of the sentiment in this poem, its truly awesomely written.

 

[IXinX]

yes it is
I enjoyed it, the way you write is very evocative to the reader.

 

[thujone]

nice. i think it's really hard not to relate to this... sort of a weird be-careful-what-you-wish-for life

 

[(Wordy)]

Very nice... the last stanza (last line in particular) really hits home.

 

[up all night]

And this.

Because I'm on a bumping spree tonight and this still gets my heart in a chokehold.