• Bluelight
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    A memorial
    to Bluelighters
    who have passed away

⫸STICKY⫷ 🕯 A Special Shrine For the Unknown Bluelighter 🕯

I'm 53 and as well as the BLers I knew like MTGG (Tom), I knew a few people who mentioned having BL accounts who are no, sadly, dead.

Alcohol, benzodiazepines and opioids. Usually a combination.
 
Hey Stephen, you're probably not reading this from the great beyond but writing it out makes me feel better so in my selfish way, that's what I'll do.

I know you posted and lurked around here although I don't know your handle. Maybe this isn't the place but it's here I will leave it for now.

I was never much of a son in law to you but you always had my back, even when I was not the best husband to your daughter or father to your grand children. You always seemed to see through my bouts of insanity, maybe because you were so deeply in touch with that part of your own humanity. I'm glad you at least stuck around long enough to see us right the ship and you were a big part of that. For that I'll always be grateful. I won't lie and say I'll always be the best human but I'll do my best to remember that I should always be striving for that and it will in great part be in your memory that striving occurs.

I hope you've found some peace in your decision to take matters into your own hands. I'm sorry it must be seemed like your only choice (or why else would you have made it?). I don't know man, we love you, we will miss you, and even if you're not looking out for us from the beyond I will make believe that you and all our ancestors are.
 
AuntieT said:
My 20-yr-old nephew lurked here. I'm not even sure if he had an account - he wasn't one to comment. He told me about this place. He died by purposeful heroin overdose on July 22. I found him.

This may sound strange given the context, but I'm glad this place exists. He'd been battling mental illness, addiction and occasional homelessness for a few years and had researched how to end things many times. He researched what a heroin overdose was like here - I know because he saved screenshots with pertinent details highlighted. We'd been getting him mental health treatment for the first time, and he had a spot in a rehab he was excited about - until he wasn't. Long story short, he decided not to go about halfway through our trip there, opting instead to buy a tent and live rough until he could execute his plan, which was to rent a PO box, get heroin delivered, and go on a whopping bender ending with a purposeful OD. He did exactly that. I feel grateful that he at least came to me the day he died and the last words we exchanged were loving ones. He set up his tent in the park across the street from my apartment and we made plans for morning coffee... but he was dead when I got there, and had been for a few hours at least.

I'm glad this place exists because if he was going to do this, he was able to find information that put his mind at ease about it. Heroin is a pretty good way to go, as I understand it.

I'm also glad this place exists because people who use drugs are often looked down on and not given community, and I think that's shitty. I'm glad you're all here for one another. That's why I wanted to post about my nephew. It may not sound like it given the outcome but this place was a help to him and I appreciate it.
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Only on BlueLight do we love, honor cherish, and remember people we've known, people who were here before and the people who will carry on after we are gone. The legacy lives.
 
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