a story i wrote the day b4 my first roll...
As she held the tiny green pill in her hand, Alice was faced with the hardest decision of her life. Should she take the pill or not? Her entire future literally rested in her hand.
She thought about all the times that Tim had hurt her- by never thinking of anyone but himself; by going back on his word so many times; by lying directly to her face, not caring that she sat there and cried, because she knew he was deceiving her once again. Over and over he had promised to change for her, but he always went back to his old ways. Not to hurt her purposely, of course, but that was always the final result. He was always sorry in the end.
Yet, somehow, Alice still loved him more than anyone else she had ever cared about before. She knew Tim still loved her as much. At least, he thought he did. Alice knew he would be devastated if anything ever happened to her. This was a way to make him feel guilty for all the pain that he had caused. Tim used to have such control over her life. That was the way he had liked it. At the very moment, when she held that pill in her hand, the only one who controlled her actions was her.
Alice’s thoughts drifted to her parents. What would they do to her if they ever found out? She was only fourteen. She knew she wasn’t old enough to be responsible for her entire life, but she could handle this. It was only one tiny, white pill. It couldn’t do that much harm.
And my friends, Alice thought, what would they think of me? She knew that some would disapprove, and some would be angry with her. Others would not even know how to react, because it would be so unexpected. By taking that pill, by getting that high, Alice faced the chance of losing those friends.
The more she thought about it, the more Alice decided that she didn’t care what other people thought about her anymore. She had spent all fourteen years of her life until now being the person that everyone else had wanted her to be.
She was the good student- always doing her homework, and always scoring the highest on the tests. She never missed a class, unless of course it was for one of her many extracurricular activities.
She was the beautiful daughter. Alice was one of those people who was naturally beautiful and everyone envied her. She could wake up every morning and go out without a drop of makeup on and still look as gorgeous as a runway model. She never altered her appearance in any way, for fear of being looked down upon. No piercings adorned her body, except for two tiny diamond studs that rested in the middle of her small, ivory earlobes. She always dressed in proper attire for a young lady. The only statements that her outfits made were those of simplicity and reservation. Her parents saw her as an angel that they had been blessed with. Alice was the perfect daughter in every way. She never fought back or disagreed. She only did as she was told.
She was the perfect friend. Alice was always willing to sacrifice what she wanted when a friend was in need of her help. She had never once turned down a friend in favor of her own personal business. She was generous, sweet and caring. She was friends with practically everyone she met because she was so amiable. It was a challenge not to love her.
She was the devoted girlfriend. Every guy wanted to be with her and treat her like she deserved to be treated. But the one boy that she wanted to be with used her and took advantage of her kind disposition. Through it all, she still loved Tim, and so she stayed with him. She could never really explain to anyone why she felt she needed to stay with him, but she did.
Alice knew she could not live her life for other people anymore. She didn’t want to be the model teenage girl any longer. She knew that something had to change. She carefully opened up her clenched fist and stared at that same pill that had been tormenting her. It was still there, sitting in the middle of her palm. Of all the decisions she would ever have to make, this would be the hardest. Now she didn’t have to do the ‘right’ thing. She didn't have to think about what everyone else would say, because she knew she didn’t care anymore. Alice slowly let her jaw drop as she raised her hand to her mouth.
what do you guys think???
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~*~you slip, you trip, you fall, you roll~*~
[This message has been edited by dewbaby (edited 17 March 2000).]
As she held the tiny green pill in her hand, Alice was faced with the hardest decision of her life. Should she take the pill or not? Her entire future literally rested in her hand.
She thought about all the times that Tim had hurt her- by never thinking of anyone but himself; by going back on his word so many times; by lying directly to her face, not caring that she sat there and cried, because she knew he was deceiving her once again. Over and over he had promised to change for her, but he always went back to his old ways. Not to hurt her purposely, of course, but that was always the final result. He was always sorry in the end.
Yet, somehow, Alice still loved him more than anyone else she had ever cared about before. She knew Tim still loved her as much. At least, he thought he did. Alice knew he would be devastated if anything ever happened to her. This was a way to make him feel guilty for all the pain that he had caused. Tim used to have such control over her life. That was the way he had liked it. At the very moment, when she held that pill in her hand, the only one who controlled her actions was her.
Alice’s thoughts drifted to her parents. What would they do to her if they ever found out? She was only fourteen. She knew she wasn’t old enough to be responsible for her entire life, but she could handle this. It was only one tiny, white pill. It couldn’t do that much harm.
And my friends, Alice thought, what would they think of me? She knew that some would disapprove, and some would be angry with her. Others would not even know how to react, because it would be so unexpected. By taking that pill, by getting that high, Alice faced the chance of losing those friends.
The more she thought about it, the more Alice decided that she didn’t care what other people thought about her anymore. She had spent all fourteen years of her life until now being the person that everyone else had wanted her to be.
She was the good student- always doing her homework, and always scoring the highest on the tests. She never missed a class, unless of course it was for one of her many extracurricular activities.
She was the beautiful daughter. Alice was one of those people who was naturally beautiful and everyone envied her. She could wake up every morning and go out without a drop of makeup on and still look as gorgeous as a runway model. She never altered her appearance in any way, for fear of being looked down upon. No piercings adorned her body, except for two tiny diamond studs that rested in the middle of her small, ivory earlobes. She always dressed in proper attire for a young lady. The only statements that her outfits made were those of simplicity and reservation. Her parents saw her as an angel that they had been blessed with. Alice was the perfect daughter in every way. She never fought back or disagreed. She only did as she was told.
She was the perfect friend. Alice was always willing to sacrifice what she wanted when a friend was in need of her help. She had never once turned down a friend in favor of her own personal business. She was generous, sweet and caring. She was friends with practically everyone she met because she was so amiable. It was a challenge not to love her.
She was the devoted girlfriend. Every guy wanted to be with her and treat her like she deserved to be treated. But the one boy that she wanted to be with used her and took advantage of her kind disposition. Through it all, she still loved Tim, and so she stayed with him. She could never really explain to anyone why she felt she needed to stay with him, but she did.
Alice knew she could not live her life for other people anymore. She didn’t want to be the model teenage girl any longer. She knew that something had to change. She carefully opened up her clenched fist and stared at that same pill that had been tormenting her. It was still there, sitting in the middle of her palm. Of all the decisions she would ever have to make, this would be the hardest. Now she didn’t have to do the ‘right’ thing. She didn't have to think about what everyone else would say, because she knew she didn’t care anymore. Alice slowly let her jaw drop as she raised her hand to her mouth.
what do you guys think???
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~*~you slip, you trip, you fall, you roll~*~
[This message has been edited by dewbaby (edited 17 March 2000).]
