OK, I'm just gonna jump right into this one.
Ever since i was a little boy... even pre-teen... I was getting aroused by just seeing a girl/woman tied up and gagged in the film/television. As I eventually attained a sexual drive, my interest in this basically carried over to the idea of being the sexy woman, tied up, gagged, helpless, maybe abducted by some creep who wants to use and abuse me. As I got my first job, the first things I bought were some shiny, satin panties and some bondage gear (rope, ball gag, and a vibrator). As I got interested in drugs, I eventually, began using drugs as a way to go full hedonism, maximizing sexual pleasure through my fantasies and drugs. This culminated in countless nights in an isolated room, alone, high as fuck on meth, usually in a strict hogtie while fully dressed up as a pretty woman, pretending that I've been abducted, bound, gagged, and some sicko has got me locked up with a vibrator tied to my penis/clit, forcing me to struggle and squirm against the edge of orgasm for hours and hours. Stimulants like meth and adderall were perfect for this because not only could I not come very easily at all... stims tend to make the penis flaccid and shrink, so it becomes very easy to tuck and pretend I am a woman when crossdressing.
Well, for one reason or another, I've reached the end of my stim-fueled sessions in self-bondage. But I cannot shake the sexual addiction I have no matter how hard I try because it is such an innate fetish I've had since I was young. The problem is that the best way I've found to enjoy this fetish is through hard drugs like meth. Whenever I've tried to quit stims, I always go back to it because of my sex addiction.
Any advice? Other great drugs I could habitually use for this specific fetish? Tucking and edging for hours non-stop is definitely a must. I've done other drugs like ecstasy/mdma before and although they're great for the same scenario, I can't use them very often.
Ever since i was a little boy... even pre-teen... I was getting aroused by just seeing a girl/woman tied up and gagged in the film/television. As I eventually attained a sexual drive, my interest in this basically carried over to the idea of being the sexy woman, tied up, gagged, helpless, maybe abducted by some creep who wants to use and abuse me. As I got my first job, the first things I bought were some shiny, satin panties and some bondage gear (rope, ball gag, and a vibrator). As I got interested in drugs, I eventually, began using drugs as a way to go full hedonism, maximizing sexual pleasure through my fantasies and drugs. This culminated in countless nights in an isolated room, alone, high as fuck on meth, usually in a strict hogtie while fully dressed up as a pretty woman, pretending that I've been abducted, bound, gagged, and some sicko has got me locked up with a vibrator tied to my penis/clit, forcing me to struggle and squirm against the edge of orgasm for hours and hours. Stimulants like meth and adderall were perfect for this because not only could I not come very easily at all... stims tend to make the penis flaccid and shrink, so it becomes very easy to tuck and pretend I am a woman when crossdressing.
Well, for one reason or another, I've reached the end of my stim-fueled sessions in self-bondage. But I cannot shake the sexual addiction I have no matter how hard I try because it is such an innate fetish I've had since I was young. The problem is that the best way I've found to enjoy this fetish is through hard drugs like meth. Whenever I've tried to quit stims, I always go back to it because of my sex addiction.
Any advice? Other great drugs I could habitually use for this specific fetish? Tucking and edging for hours non-stop is definitely a must. I've done other drugs like ecstasy/mdma before and although they're great for the same scenario, I can't use them very often.
