I am currently debating if I should try fentanyl as a replacement for alcohol. I know this may sound stupid at first, but please read on. For the last 6 months or so I've been drinking alcohol nightly (I calculated ~100g per day, sometimes 150). I have pretty good self control in that I only use it a couple hours before bed and never during the day. I am worried about the health risk of this and I am starting to feel lethargic all the time during the day and just generally not very healthy. There is no way for me to stop all together; I am going through a very serious depression and there are simply no other options for me right now.
So my questions are: If I take fentanyl once or twice before bed (depending on duration) (I hear it lasts only like an hour and a half)...
Would I get addicted and begin taking all the time or can I control it like the alcohol?
Will I develop a tolerance?
Would I get withdrawal if I stop?
Is it a good replacement?
Oh yeah, and the reason I choose fentanyl despite it being the most potent is because it's apparently less euphoric and doesn't last all day. I currently have no opiate experience aside from a little poppy tea years ago, so I think I'd probably start really low like 25mcg sublingual and see what happens. I might get 100mg and dissolve it 1L water or ethanol (what is better?) and then start with 1/4ml. What do you think?
Also, I have a felling some people are going to suggest benzos or a sleep aid instead. I've tried those and they make me feel shitty and much more depressed. I need something that makes me not care like the alcohol, and not really euphoric.
