From my MRI I was under the impression that the brain glands that are damaged by the drug are what control the hormones.If they are compromised then taking any type of hormones would be. Moot point.I was fortunate enough to find the damage
If I can't make the hormones by myself anymore, HRT is even more important dude.
I'll probably never have a baby though. This sucks. This sucks and I can't even feel the magnitude of how much it sucks. I already had PCOS, now my brain glands are fucked probably??
I ruined everything with this drug. I must have been psychic, my premonition was right. I pray I don't get organ failure from this. I could, hypopituitarism, if not treated correctly, can lead to organ failure of the kidneys and heart.
I hope this still could be temporary infertility, but shouldn't my hormones have synched up with the falling of prolactin? I did take Prozac when it just started to fall, probably fucking that up. I hate the descisions I made. It wasn't even worth it to go home early from the hospital. The movie I wanted to see with my friend was random and not even one I wanted to see that badly, I didn't get super high on 4/20 because I just had invega, and there wasn't even any good food at the art museum postcard salon I submitted to and we didn't stay for very long.
Bottomless regret. I wish I fought harder and didn't tell the nurses I heard "me from the future" talking to me or whatever. I should have just said "hold on" and kept going down the halway and really thought about what I was going to say. But I was also still scared I was going to die there. I guess a big part of me did, along with my future.
I was an artist. I could draw pictures out of my head. I can't do that anymore. I can't even build stuff in No Man's Sky anymore. I'm dried up.