Thanks for the reply

from reading here seems like most of the south west dope is bomb, but not as readily available in AZ maybe. And hearing about a mexican call & delivery service blew my mind lol. Wayyy different than Seattle/WA.
I cold copped in San Fran and L.A on the way down because I was so fucking sick, and it was pretty much the shittiest experience ever (though successful in the end). I considered driving 14 hours back home just to hit up my guy. I missed dialing a number, driving to a gas station, and having a fat gram of good shit in my hands, only having to drop less than a .1 in the spoon to get loaded as hell. Still feeling shitty and depressed as hell down here & every night if i'm lucky to fall asleep for 15 minutes I dream about the needle. Been an addict since I was 14, and every time I try to turn away from dope I fail. Feels like this dance with the devil is gunna last me forever.