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im addicted to coke kill me

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Aboy699

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I know I have a problem with it but I keep doing it. I tell myself when I get it that its killi ng meand i need helo but i jeeep doing it, im not going to rehab fuck rehab . should i kill myself i dont know what i should do anymore
 
Why fuck rehab? Have you ever tried that route? Depending on the place and the methodology that they use, it can actually be incredibly beneficial.

Let's just start with: what have you tried to far to get clean? Just cold turkey? Detox? In/outpatient? Are you seeing a psychologist or addictions counselor? No addiction is worth dieing over.
 
I know that so often Death seems like the only way out-I'm addicted to opiates and amphetamine (coke and adderall, mostly the latter -but I love cocaine ... and hate it)-but is there a part of you that knows it's not rational thinking? That is how it is for me. It is really fucking hard to be an addict. Hard (er?) to recover. The advice above is pretty much what I'd say-and I'd too like to see how gou answer the questions posed.

Hang in there. Talk to someone. What about NA?(I don't like the religious aspect but I honestly don't think that alone would make the method fail.) It could be quite effective.
 
Hey dude. Yeah. Now is the time to get help. And by help, I don't mean telling your dealer to stop selling to you, or by telling your friends you're cutting back. I mean like, you need to talk to Mom & Dad and come clean, and check into a rehab for a 7 day quick detox. I don't know the specifics, but I want to detox for just 50 HOURS after a 6 month pretty intense oxycodone addiction, and it COMPLETELY broke my cycle!!!

So you might seem down today.... but by this time next week, if you take action NOW to kill this addiction, you will be living on an entirely new plane of existence. You will find motivation when it wasn't there before, and you will see light where there was dark. Enjoy life. Life is fucking beautiful. For fucking real, for fucks sake!!!
 
Grow or find some mushrooms...eat a quarter and chill in a quiet dark room for several hours...it might not work right away, but after a few times, some good insights and a lot of power will come...its how I got off of it in college
 
Karcinogenious said:
Grow or find some mushrooms...eat a quarter and chill in a quiet dark room for several hours...it might not work right away, but after a few times, some good insights and a lot of power will come...its how I got off of it in college
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not the healthiest advice to give a complete stranger over the Internet. Different people react differently to different drugs. if I was to follow this advice these are the problems i would encounter:

1) availability (they just not around)
2) if i'm doing coke, I can't do anything else but do more coke. Mushroom money is my coke money. Rent money is my coke money. Your money is my coke money.
3) If I do trip balls on free mushrooms, i'm gonna want to shoot coke so now i gotta drive (while tripping), cop in dangerous areas (while tripping), find a vein (while tripping), etc

nah... bad advice all around
 
Cocaine shouldn't be that hard to kick, you can do it :)

Just remember suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
 
Ive seen Coke Destroy even the friendliest of souls.

I used to know a very nice genuine man, he would say things like "people with special needs and such are no different to us" and he was such a caring man.
He started a cocaine habit,, which turned into addiction and he became an arsehole.
He lost hes House, Hes wife, hes kids, hes car, everything.
And my dad as a best mate too.

It tricks the reward system , therefore you no longer need to do good deeds for yourself or others, all you need is Coke.


I hope you get clean Op. Please go to rehab, dont let this drug take your life, your worth much more than that white stuff, All the best and good luck!
 
OP, coke is alot easier to kick than you think. no need to think about death. grasp that it's a psychological problem, there are no physical addictions associated with coke. i had to start abusing another stimulant (mdma or adderall) to get off coke. anything to mimic the same feeling will appease to you, i highly suggest (maybe not following safety policy) focusing your addiction on something else that can make you feel great, but isn't so life deteriorating. coke is the most POINTLESS drug because you always need more, always. with your focus on something else, you don't need as much of that. i had to do it in baby steps, maybe you do too.

you don't want to go to rehab and detox from coke dude. get yourself down where you're passed the WDs and imo seek help then. detox program is NOT what you want to go through. but if you can't do this yourself there isn't another option. be strong, you can kick this without having to suffer. don't let getting arrested or ODing be your wake up call
 
Tell your trusted confidante(s) or close relatives about your habit. They are in a position to offer meaningful resolutions. They have all the resources, patience, and support that you need. Your job is to resolve to quit cocaine, voluntarily. There's no shortage of good reasons. Pinpointing a few of them in order to formulate an intention to quit, wholeheartedly, is going to be a tough task, but it's doable and practical.
 
part of the issue is that i like to be excessive when I engage in party rituals...
I don't really want to kill myself but in moments like i was havng when i wrote this,, i dont realy know sometimes....
It sucks but what causes those types of feelings more than anything for me is actually alcohol (i was drunk last night). I think if I really were to put in some sort of effort to stop something, it should be alcohol.
 
My advice would remain the same, substituting cocaine for any hard drug(s) including alcohol. The only drug I see as categorically devastating is heroin. That drug will take its natural course with a person in a fatalistic sort of way.
 
Snarky91 said:
My advice would remain the same, substituting cocaine for any hard drug(s) including alcohol. The only drug I see as categorically devastating is heroin. That drug will take its natural course with a person in a fatalistic sort of way.
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cocaine is a very powerful drug with very devastating effects. definitely not something to be minimized.
truthfully, there is no safe drug but we can minimize the harm incurred from using certain drugs. If addiction comes into the picture then an entirely different story unfolds.

Aboy, I can relate completely to what you are describing. I used to shoot coke daily and I fucking hated it but I just couldn't stop. I wanted to but i just couldn't. Coke eventually demands everything and is very jealous of anything else that may interfere with it. There are very few who don't develop a problem once they fall in love with it.

When you add alcohol into the combination it becomes a more potent form of the drug called cocaethylene.

It sounds like you are aware ofr your proclivity to indulge in powder once you start drinking. That's common. Our barriers get broken down when intoxicated and we find it easier to justify doing 'just one'. That 'one' turns into a night of pleasure followed by a horrid come down.

I hope you can find the answer your looking for but if there truly is uncontrollable usage, you will need to get some sort of help since, often enough, our ability to stop doesn't match our desire to stop.
 
Gotta get off it man, its possible, I was gettin a G every day or 2 for atleast a year and it totally took over the way I think...I eventually got off and I can honestly say mushrooms helped..not a small rec dose though, like a good strong quarter dose of cubes and a dark quiet room can really help you see your self and give that shit up, it did for me
 
"When you add alcohol into the combination it becomes a more potent form of the drug called cocaethylene"


In regards to that, I've always known there was a chemical produced from that combination but I never knew the name. Interesting .
 
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