i missed u yall! ive been stayin away from here cuz i aint been using and this makes me want to use really bad, but im noddin now!!!!so if ya dont mind ima tell what my last week has been like.
so last tuesday, i pop 20mg of vicodin to get through my last day of work before my 3 days off! i felt pretty good off that 20 mgs so the day was great. and the next morning i had plans to go to the westside and actually cop. idk if you all remember but ive been down there a few times but i gad a spot i wanted to try that i always see boys out there when i go back from court.
so Wednesday morning i woke up. i usually would go to my outpatient but ive been doin so good my counsler said i only have to go once a week. so i used this opportunity to go hit the block. well, noone was out where i though i was sure gonna be able to get. so i used almost 1/4 of a tank just drivin round. finally i passed a corner that this guy told me was his block when i got arrested last sept. i had been there once but they just looked at me and i was skettchin that day anyway so i just left. but this time i was just drivin past and got the whistle! turned around and placed my order. amzingly to my surprise, they were half the price of what a normal bag is in chi, so that was unexpected. i asked for 2 and i got 4. and i was like hey i only gave u x, and hes like they x. so that was cool.
so i still had some time to kill, cuz my rents thought i was at group, so i went to the cemetary to walk around. i really enjoy that. and i also poured out just a little line to see how the shit was. i could tell right away i was onto something goood. so i went home and night time came, i finally went in to nod land, after waiting soooooooo long for it. it was amazing.
so on thursday i still had 2 bags left and i did them. was tits! so those were the best 3 days ive had in such a long time. cuz i have been wantin to get some from someone else so i wouldnt have to go, but i they didnt really wanna hook it up so i just did it. i was on top of the world.
so now here comes monday. i go to group, take my drop. time to go and shes like ok, i need to see RotBL. i was like wtf. i dont know how i failed that drop. iv done vikes on thursday and i always passed my monday drops. and h dont stay in the system long, 3 days MAX. so this was just a punch in the face. long story short told my counselor i just drank some poppy tea. but man i was so sick to my stomach and so shocked and freakin out all day cuz im court mandated to outpatient. so idk whats gonna happen when they find out. but my counselor was thinkin about putting me back in iop, but decided i just gotta go back to 2 times a week which i was cool with.
but i was so baffled that i pissed hot. was not expecting it at all. i was super depressed untill tuesday when i was sittin in my car before work, listenin to phish, and i was like fuck it, and i just let it go. and i felt great after just being like, hey, so i made a mistake, just gotta move forward and dont fret on it.
so on tuesday, i went back down, this time though i only got 2, it was diff kid and i asked him, are these halves. and he said no but they were. but i just wanted to get out of there so what ever. went to group today, everything went cool, and man it was hard not doin that dope yesterday lol. i just kept on looking at it. but right after i got out of group today, i snorted half a bag, and finished it bout 20 min later cuz i didnt want to be too high if i had to talk to my parents. but i didnt and got a little nod. so i really wanted to get lit off the remaining bag, so i bought some rigs and just shot up the bag bout 2 hours ago. it was awesome. my veins are all back and its great lol. so now i gotta wait till next week to get high again. but i like it like that. makes it allot easier to keep it under control knowing i have to to pass my drops.
so im fuckin lovin it right now, and good to be back on the train bluelight. and i love the spot im goin to, good location and good bags. nod on my friends. sorry for the rant.