• Psychedelic Drugs Welcome Guest
    View threads about
    Posting RulesBluelight Rules
    PD's Best Threads Index
    Social ThreadSupport Bluelight
    Psychedelic Beginner's FAQ
  • PD Moderators: Esperighanto | JackARoe |

☮ Social ☮ PD Social: now with ∞% more fractals!

Status
Not open for further replies.
Never Knows Best said:
Wonderfull to hear 'jat! Too bad I don't live in that area or I'd provide you with food and shelter and droogs for free (or at leat the first two for free, possibly charge for the third). I'm really glad to hear this though, I mean, even if I'm three years older-ish, I feel like we're about the same mentally, and even if it's too late for me I want you to secure a good future for yourself.
Click to expand...

Thanks much kind sir, I'd do the same for you :)

Yeah if I can find a cool person to stay with in CO I'd be one happy motherfucker. This trip wont be easy. Me and my friend are gonna be 19 and 21 meaning he can't rent a car. Hope there's some type of public transit around there :P

Birdee- For some reason I read your post as "and that would be when everyone should start taking their clothes off". Yep.
 
Long time no see, BL'ers.

I've spent the past few days researching Online Vendors, little to my disappointment that I've found about 10 legit vendors (IMO) And yet no 2C-I.
/sigh.
1 vendor has it, but must be out of stock or something I believe.

How have we all been??
 
felt bored yesterday evening. insufflated a really low dose ob 2c-e und vaped some weed. this combination rocks. when i do this, i'll just be very high with some optics and a slight note of the 2c-e psychedelia and general wellbeing. fell asleep ~3.5hours later with no problems whatsoever.

love it <3
 
mushrooms. man i love them.

but why the hell to they stir up so much emotion in me?
there was a part of this trip when everything felt so wonderful, like a mosaic of all the great memories i have, of great moments of joy i had before. felt so at peace and happy, and then i realized im missing someone, a girlfriend i was very much in love with. probably still am, but isnt it odd how in hindsight all is so golden and happy, and in the moment, in the present moment, its so hard to see whats real and what counts and what doesnt?

maybe its just after effects. i hope it is, or else i let something wonderful behind me that i might never get back
 
Man tryptamines have a way of getting down to your core like that... is why I prefer them over phens
 
^yep, mushrooms and LSD always seem to be doing "deeper" work in my brain and body than phenethylamines (although my experience with phens is limited to experiences with MDMA/"E" pills and ephedrine)
 
So I woke up at 5am on the floor next to pool of vomit, which is something I only find mildly annoying these days (though usually that's caused by dissociatives), the bad part is I somehow broke my laptop while blacked out, the thing won't turn on. :(

On a brighter note, when mah hangover nausea finally wore off at ~8pm I went on a lovely walk, it was twilight and stilll pretty warm out with a cool breeze. There's something that I find simply magical about summer evenings, it's probably my favorite season.

Oh and I went to this health foods store in Santa Ana the other day, well I was brought there on my way back from san diego 'cause my mom and sister shop there apparently, they have all this great stuff and a vegetarian deli and if I get some damned income I am so shopping there and will take up healthy cooking as a hobby.
 
Last edited:
well, a day has passed and it seems im still left over with a lot of thinking to do after my last trip. i was kinda hoping it would somehow go away, and if i let it drift towards the back of my mind i might just forget it, but somehow i feel like ive struck a chord i forgot about for a long time.

its all a bit strange, because i was looking for a relaxing fun trip to leave me fully relaxed before i go back to work. also a reason i went for my favorite companions, and a relatively usual dose. so all in all it should have been a safe familiar trip. but it wasnt. felt like my brain was unleashed and felt so deeply rooted in all my previous experiences, and i just saw myself for what i really am sometimes, and all the fears that prevent me from being the person i feel i should be.

that i think is the bottom line i think, the lesson that i should just learn already and start living by it.

maybe a movie tonight. then on with life as i know it
 
kingme said:
well, a day has passed and it seems im still left over with a lot of thinking to do after my last trip. i was kinda hoping it would somehow go away, and if i let it drift towards the back of my mind i might just forget it, but somehow i feel like ive struck a chord i forgot about for a long time.

its all a bit strange, because i was looking for a relaxing fun trip to leave me fully relaxed before i go back to work. also a reason i went for my favorite companions, and a relatively usual dose. so all in all it should have been a safe familiar trip. but it wasnt. felt like my brain was unleashed and felt so deeply rooted in all my previous experiences, and i just saw myself for what i really am sometimes, and all the fears that prevent me from being the person i feel i should be.

that i think is the bottom line i think, the lesson that i should just learn already and start living by it.

maybe a movie tonight. then on with life as i know it
Click to expand...

Kingme, I feel you and I think quite the same in the trips we've both individually had. I have been going through a lot since a failed relationship with someone I had such a deeper connection with before the relationship. Then because of some choices I made in that relationship it led to our eventual break up and her moving far down the path of life ahead of me. Recently I started talking with her again but won't get into much detail other than just saying it's not quite the relationship I want to be having with her.

A lot of this deep thinking was sparked by my first experimentation with psychedelic mushrooms late 2010 around November which was five months after my girlfriend and I ended our relationship in its entirety. In this trip I thought from such an odd perspective that I never had before. Sort of saw my idealism of life and how it didn't play out in the past the way I wanted it to. I also saw how I create a lot of fantasies in my head of the perspectives some people have of me and the outlook of their lives.

Then in a recent trip I took 4 grams of some labbies and had such a profound experience. I totally was in dissociation with my ego and saw how my thinking in my life only directs it because of the anticipations I have for my life and fellow inhabitants. There were also some even deeper sides of the trip but I won't go into vast detail because some I can only understand.
 
the hard part is always keeping up with what you learn.

movie night tonight.

anyone seen Hanna yet?
 
LSDMDMA&9772392 said:
never what happens to y ou that you always end up like waking up i npuke lol
Click to expand...

Well normally it happens when I go into a dissociative hole, I'll vomit before regaining motor control. This time I was drinking straight out of the bottle (stupid) and ended up passing out, prolly threw up right before hand since I wasn't IN the puke that implies that I was conscious when it happened. Carpet still kinda smells, I think I will clean it some more right now.

Feeling pretty positive these last couple of days, I blame my mini-vacation, if this keeps up I'll make it through this month easy. Though who knows, this positivity never lasts 'cause I always realize it's based off delusion at some point then I go back into nihilistic fatalism (a bad philosophical combo if there ever was one). When I'm positive my thoughts are more along the lines of a spiritual determinism.
 
llllooooooool
never you real smart for serious
im gettin tweaked as fuck tonight, you gon be up?
 
Never, i think it might be in your best interest to take better care of yourself.
Your posts seem very self destructive.
Youre intelligent and funny and have a whole life ahead of you.

Take control of your life now before it spirals way too out of control.

Quite a few people have been through rough times in their lives and made it through.
I left my parents house at 18 and did the being on my own thing.
 
Status
Not open for further replies.
Top