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how are you in 1 word ?

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theartofwar said:
happy - took everything I could but I went to a ptsd support group last night, broke down in tears and just let it all out. Today is beautiful out, meeting my friend for lunch she'll be by in few :).
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^ I am happy for you TAOW. You are on the right track with everything you seem to have going on. <3

Happy
 
Asclepius - I'm ok now, I smoked some new type of spice called head trip..I'm prone to panic attacks on weedlike substances and smoked too much and threw myself into a panic attack which turned into a near death experience and and I'm petty sure I almost died, my heart was beating and I was twitching, my entire body went numb and it lasted 3 hrs I couldn't move. Life changing, I feel lucky to be alive.
 
Detached. Neither here nor there. Feel like I'm looking at the world through a gauzy curtain.
 
I feel like kind of a jerk posting this, but I'm feeling pretty great. Had a pretty good day at work, played the flute for a bit (damn but it's been a while!) then went for a decent run in the scorching-- for me-- heat. A cold shower and big salad later, and I'm a happy little monkey.
 
Feel burned:

I keep going out and helping friends (with subs . some cash - whaever i can do, they are trying to quit dope and in tough pace) and I am shown time and time again that the majority of them abuse kindness and end up chewing me out when I really cannot give them anymore (my script is running low, i dont have tons of money etc).

And humiliated - when PTSD episodes act up , I have severe problems with m body,...

.... but I will never quit working and getin better :)
 
Sending lots of love and good vibes to taow, SciCo and tlks2Angels. Hope you're all feeling better soon <3


Me: excited but I don't know why or what for :D
 
I am seriously allovertheshop hey 8o

6 hours ago I felt excited and happy for no reason, 3 hours ago I was anxious as fuck and seeing shadow people in my house, 2 hours ago I had a depressive breakdown, followed by about 30 minutes of unexplained exuberance, now I'm just bored and lonely and indifferent :|
 
ohh, youz guiz
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Being a scaredy chick, all alone in my big ol' house, there is no room for "oh, you guys" ;) It's all about "what the fuck was that.....?!" *panic attack ensues* :|
 
n3ophy7e said:
Being a scaredy chick, all alone in my big ol' house, there is no room for "oh, you guys" ;) It's all about "what the fuck was that.....?!" *panic attack ensues* :|
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Aw <3 Did anything in particular happen today or ?
 
Legerity said:
Did anything in particular happen today or ?
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Not that I'm consciously aware of. Unfortunately my brain has turned on me completely unexpectedly. But it's okay, I've dampened my senses enough to be able to sleep, and tomorrow is a new day.
*pastes smile on* :) <3
 
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