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How are you in one word v. Pedalling through the dark currents

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not gettin any better :( :( , I am so frusrated, I fuck up everything I try to handlel It's an absolute joke. I'm fucking sick of mself.
 
Sad.

It's been exactly 6 weeks now since my best friend died. Time makes it worse, not better. When she bought that last gram of smack, she saved half for me. I was trying to stop so I said no. Doing that half she'd saved for me killed her. That was the first time she'd ever done heroin without me there.
I'm not clean anymore.
 
footscrazy said:
Sad.

It's been exactly 6 weeks now since my best friend died. Time makes it worse, not better. When she bought that last gram of smack, she saved half for me. I was trying to stop so I said no. Doing that half she'd saved for me killed her. That was the first time she'd ever done heroin without me there.
I'm not clean anymore.
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we come out of any shock eventually, the rest of the world starts demanding of you, and there a change thats been made... an emptiness - but a space to fill, as she, you, or i would beg of anyone effected by my leaving to fill. it can be, and it isnt out of any sort of neglect or because you want to fill the space to try and forget... not at all,, for myself i would wish others, hope that they would fill any void i may of left with the light, and positivity, things that whom-ever was able to learn from my life, and how such uniqueness could be now represented - such as ___ __ _____! in an equally positive manner, attribute, light, beliefs idiosyncrasies hehe favorite books colors song cheesecake every other Wednesday, anything can mean something, and something can mean everything...



<3
 
^ <3

I'll have another cheesecake for you Lindsay, my girl, my partner in crime always... She always said she'd haunt me once she passed as my friendly ghost but she hasn't...i miss her so much.
 
Oh she loved fruits, especially oranges and mangoes! Cheesecakes and orangemango juice, that was us...and vegemite toast of course, haha. The papaya salad would go down a treat. <3<3<3
 
i turned into a vegemite fiend, i could not and still dont understand why that isnt more popular or ' used ' in the States.
its perfect for in the mornings!

hahha

and with espresso, yeah im a zinger then.


my biggest obstruction atm, that i actually give a shit about, is cleaning.

cleaning, thats it... and thats great because i love my home.


so actually, just good for the first time i can remember in a long while...

"Good"
 
^^:( Hope you feel better anon, hate feeling drained.

^:)

footscrazy said:
Sad.

It's been exactly 6 weeks now since my best friend died. Time makes it worse, not better. When she bought that last gram of smack, she saved half for me. I was trying to stop so I said no. Doing that half she'd saved for me killed her. That was the first time she'd ever done heroin without me there.
I'm not clean anymore.
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Im so sorry footscrazy, I remember seeing her posts on here and she seemed like such a lovely, genuine person.
I cant imagine how difficult it must be for you. :(
Keep the good memories with you and for you and look after yourself in her memory.<3

ATM: More grounded.
 
footscrazy said:
Sad.

It's been exactly 6 weeks now since my best friend died. Time makes it worse, not better. When she bought that last gram of smack, she saved half for me. I was trying to stop so I said no. Doing that half she'd saved for me killed her. That was the first time she'd ever done heroin without me there.
I'm not clean anymore.
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wow. that is some powerful stuff right there. i know there is nothing i can say or do to make it hurt any less...but i am sorry for your loss. <3<3


my mood: loved.
 
footscrazy said:
Sad.

It's been exactly 6 weeks now since my best friend died. Time makes it worse, not better. When she bought that last gram of smack, she saved half for me. I was trying to stop so I said no. Doing that half she'd saved for me killed her. That was the first time she'd ever done heroin without me there.
I'm not clean anymore.
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Fuck that's sad. I find it especially sad when the person that passes away is so young :( . Ive lost more then a few friends that died real young as well and it really does gut you. Well loosing friends no matter how old they are is goddamn guttin

I'm sorry footscrazy fuckin hell

Try and keep your head up :\

As for me i'm doing ok i guess. Just got a lot of stuff on my mind.
 
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